In a Kingdom by the Sea,
you kept me cold
in the closet of your mind
.
We were children who
made promises of love,
but for all my lovelorn words,
it never came close to others
.
You theorized our demise by an
unseen hand,
and a voice that whispered
death inside your head
.
And this was the reason
that in our kingdom
you wrenched my grip
from your wrist and let the
wind take me
.
The voices left you
complacent in your
decision to rid me from
our kingdom, blaming
others for the love that
was never given
.
I do wonder from time to
time if I ever cross your
mind and if you’re waiting in
Our Kingdom by the Sea

have you ever felt so
alone
not a single
touch
could warm
your bones
and each
ragged breath
unveils your
chest
and the frantic
mess of a
heart that lies
beneath

i've never found another's
mask of pain to be
attractive
what's the beauty
worth if it's a charade of
hurt and why do people insist i
play their mummer's game
don't inquire why my frown will
not turn upside down
do you really want me to
force an emotion so pure i
fall to my knees just
thinking of it
so go on and hold me
down; cut me ear to ear
make me join the
hollow rest of you
if you want to see me
smile, better call me
Chelsea

i think i made you up in my sleep
the way you weave in and out so inconsistently
of my life with your broken promises
you left me
alone;
a single word that can drive a man to madness
alone:
what drove me to madness
yet, one day i didn't feel--
alone
i restitched the seams in my wrists
i rewound my brain
and i rewired my heart
some days i can almost feel
and your memories bring bliss
i'm no longer
alone
yet i haven't overcome the
loneliness

i spent freshman year in bed
stayed up every night
with a crown of thorns on my head
burdens i balanced on my bony shoulders
eating away at the sempiternal hope
i had held for myself
every breath was marred
by a nail to the side
and i waited quietly
for my body to die

my heart was left
in washington
in a small town
by the sea
with your hand
in my pocket
in our hair,
the breeze
the fire dances
in your eyes
and i'll lean in to

kiss thin air
i can't feel my hands
in your hair
and i'm gripping
the sheets like they'll
keep you there

and i'm left with this
sempiternal ache
for an unanswered
plea

not a single force on earth could
famish the flame that
grew from a single kiss and i
feel so empty without your
hooked wings surrounding and the
heat of your lips on my
jugular vein