I just wanted you to be there through all the moments in my life. I just wanted to be there for you through all the bad and all the good moments of yours. I wanted to hold you while you cry, and be the reason that you smiled. I was ready to give it all to you, but you left without a goodbye.your back now and I'm not sure if I should tell you how I feel. I'm afraid you will leave again. I'm not sure if I could take it again.I don't know why exactly you left, because the good outweigh the negative. were you afraid of getting too close? were you afraid of getting hurt like the times before. I know people have betrayed you and made you question all the new that comes before you. I promise with all that I can give that i would never leave you. I would fight for you with all that I can give. till my blood dries thinin and my bones grow dry,  till I can't draw a single breath.   I will be there through all the mistakes you shall make, and I shall not judge you for I shall be there taking the blame too.  I shall carry you to your highest peak and let you stand on my shoulders bringing me to my lowest for the sake of yours.  I shall sheild you from any harm that comes near. I shall hold you till you feel safe again.  I will soak up your tears.  I will listen to you even if it's the same thing,  time and time again. When your home is being dysfunctional you will always be able to run to me. When your life is falling apart I will help you solve each puzzle peice at a time,  and if you wanted to change I will help you up to start a new.  I want to take every one of your scares and falls for you,  so you can stay brand new.  I know you want to learn how to take the beatings on your own,  but why when I can help you through.  I will be here no matter what the coasts.  I have been here for about a year now,  and yet feel so far away,  I'm trying to break down this wall but the blocks you keep building up again. I promise to never leave once I know all that's there.  Even if I get bored I will stay there to the end of both of our lives.  You don't think your special but you are to me.  Even if you weren't you wouldn't need to be.  It wouldn't change how I feel,  because I care for you even if this uniqueness of ours runs out.  I'll be right here with out a single doubt.  Or no matter what lies in the road a head.  I have no intentions of frightening you,  I just want to be something you can ease your head.  I want to be yours till the end of time,  not someone that you will just leave again.  But if you do I promise to be laying in the road ahead.

I want to sleep the day away
But in the end the pain doesn't sway
To get my mind off the subject is like taking a pure ****** substance
It would be nice for a moment but the ending pain I could not condone it
Is this feeling really really or just the mental state swallowing the pill
The brain washing stage is just the beginning
I don't know if I can take the sublisty

Living in this fragment we call time
It never ends,  but yet we still die
Traveling to find everything we seek
But wait to pursue everything that makes as truly uniquely
We sit and we ponder about how life should be
Instead of facing it head on, directly
As each moon sheds its twinkling stars a new sun rises and that time you thought you had is way long gone

When you feel empty it gets harder to write
Or to find motivation in the broad light
You just sit there breathing in air
Rocking back and forth in my hammock thinking about pleasure and dispare
Papers are due but I don't seem to panic
Knowing if I don't do them my grades will sink like the Titanic
I want my feelings to come back because I feel empty inside
At least there's no pain withering in side
For once this emptiness has put up a stride by demolishing the thoughts of suicide that were slowly trying to take over inside

Her eyelashes were long and luxurious like butterfly wings
Here voice of more heavenly things
She had a few little kisses apon her cheek from the angels above
And hair as long as Mount Everest even from the curls and the curves from just the traveling of
Strive and devotion lied behind her eyes along with the world she was conquering inside
She had smooth curves of what seemed like only man can force create
And a pair of sweet lips that tasted just like mercy at the foot of heavens gate
There was love and kindness a kind I have never seen or have yet to have taste
Her aura out shined and blinded all else there was to see
Her body so much more than a beautiful body but a vesle that carries this creature of an all mighty
Her heart it beats like music to my ears witch plays a lovely tune
There was so much more to this beauty of a gem that can not be told to you.
I have yet to find this girl I describe but it is something I strive and hope with all my heart to someday be and the first step is to already see it unfold within me.

Love is a strange thing
Like a blind man who is able to foresee all living in and past infinity
Chills they come and then they go
You feel special to one and then you feel hollow  
You feel joy and then you feel sadness
There is so much emotion when you expect only pure happiness
Once you have explored all there is to see
Will you stay right here with me?

as my fingers weave through out the tangled strands of your hair
I feel as if I'm grasping on life itself
goes to show how tight the grip goes
Beauty lays on and beneath you and here it lays with me
I know we are not one and yet I also know it can leave and un weave from me disconnecting me from you
And that my dear is where I shall fall