You in a moment
are standing still where you are at;
Caught in a breeze or a voice talking to you
maybe your own sitting where your sat.
Everyday you awake you walk back into this life
one that sometimes so stagnant it cuts with a knife
Pushing through each day with pressure and thickness;
turning out depression, sadness and sickness.
Flowers bloom in the morning with just one morning Hello
and then until the moon beams shine on us saying goodnight in our sultry glow.
Feel me at night as I lay my energy next to your soul
It is you, in this madness that makes my Soul whole.
We can dance in our dance, you can twirl me in our dreams;
Hold my hand as we talked about, almost felt it seems
You can pull me over to fall into your heat, just for me to  lick up all your delectable treats.
I know that you fien for me morning and night and I fein for your
soft and slow movements in my seducing insights,
Rocking so slowly on top as I will,
Dancing my aroma through you, but yet laying so still.
I will rock just a little, enough for your love to reach a place,
One that I have marked for you and your beautiful grace.
So slowly walk towards me and to start our playful
sliding, grinding, the meetings so near;
I will know when I sense you coming, Ill will taste you in the air.
I will arch my neck so slightly to sense you behind me
Then let your lips **** my skin so delectably.  
You and me got a gift between us in so many miles
It makes us happy, it makes us flow and is bundled with smiles.
WE rock and roll with music of all walks of life, you draw me into you like a peace of our art,  so clean and precise;
But you make me messy with the laughs and the giggles and belly rolls.
That why we connect to each other like leggo Souls
Dont leave me without telling me your going, if you ever do walk
away from our thing;
and if you do ever in life, I am grateful for the love and trust you bring.
We are going to be free one day, you wait and see,
Get ready, get set, I'll race you on 3............................ Love you Baby!
Love Jawauna

I wanna see Angels like Lorna sees them today
Please give me the sight,  Angel's, please show me the way
Seen puffs of clouds and sparkles of blue and pink
I want to see more please, more distinct.  
I want to see feathers, vivid colors displayed
I want to hear the harps of the angelic music played
I want to see them smiling at me
I want to see one, no two, NOO Three!!
Given the gift to hear spirits from the other side
Want them to come through, please please I cry!!
I have looked in the sky and seen'em lookin down
thru the clouds
I am in awe, and I am just like....WoW!!!!!!!!!!  
I love and rely on my guardian Angel Jeanine
She knows what I do and she has seen what I see
I know she is there about 3 feet behind.
She is so quiet, full of loyality and so loving and kind
To come into this world with me from the womb
Then to stay behind me silently but with warnings of doom
She gives me signs and I know that I receive them.
I feel mine is a female and not definitely a him
Please always Jeanine know that love I have for you
Its for me, soley me that you do what you do.
God assigned you to me and I definitely agree
If you were not here, then I might not be me.
So please let me see more Angels appear
Let me feel them when they are near
I promise I will treat them with all the love in my heart
But for now thanks allowing the puffs of clouds and the pink and blue sparks.
Thank you for the ones that form from the beautiful clouds
and sky
Thank you for letting them be near me hearing their wings when i have cried
Thank you God for the Angels.  I will will say it a million times
I feel them always in my heart when I hear the church bell chime.
I feel them when I have an issue or sick
I feel them when I am happy and feel Good about this Chick!!
I feel they help my family friends and so many Souls
I feel they are in the trees the sky and when the wind blows
So again I wanna see the Angels Like Lorna can
Reach out Reach out and Just hold my Hand!!    
xoxoxoxo

Drakey, My Drakey!!  
What to be?  What to be?
It seems you know
Or so it seems.
We can all have our say,
and our opinions, okay!!  
When it comes down to it
Do it all, your choices, your call.
I love you, I love you, I do tell you
everyday
pray for your wellbeing and that your okay!!
Your got so much going for you,
but alas I  know what depression can do.
Sometimes I feel I can save you
with my words,
I know, roll your eyes, it
might sound absurd.  
I will tell you and tell you
and tell you more and more,
I will also tell the Angels to
follow you thru your doors.
I know, you know, that you know, your
okay, maybe
But one day you might not.....no not be.
and I might be the one to have saved you from harm,
to set out your deep internal alarm.
I'm letting  you know that nothing can be that
bad;
To make you feel everyday so
broken and sad.
Wanting you to get the most out of life
That apple!!  That super big slice!!
Want to push and make of you what you can
You are the Man! You are the Man!! Make your Stand!!
So happy that you have gone the journey you began.
Just walk slowly and enjoy the time each step you withstand!!
I am your family, your blood, and you have many, many, up above
They will be here for you, with you, while you walk your walk
Always know that they listen when you reach out and talk.  
I will be here as long as I my contract stands with the other side
When I leave dont be afraid to cry,
But dont spend unless hours feeling blue
But think of all the exciting and happy times of Me and You!!
I try to watch from a distance, and hug you seeing your handsome  face;
I will always be your Mom Mom, where I stand from my space.
I love the relationship that me and you share
I will always be here for for more memories to make and share!!

Angels come to me unseen flying around my face,
my eyes see the sparkles, the clouds leave a trace.
Know that they are around me, stopping me,
protecting me, allowing me, but not suspecting me
Angels whisper in my ear softly on what to do,
They try to lift my spirit when feeling so blue.
They hold me, they pull me, towards the happy bright
light, show me sparkles in corner of my eyesight.
Tears have fallen and they dried them up with their wings,
They have played me songs in the town bells when they ring
Angels are around me and they are waiting for me ask,
Wanting to know what to do, their next crazy task.
Shining their wings thru the clouds so I can see them at times,
Sending beautiful signs, pictures flowing through my mind.
Angels are holding me everyday, this I do know
I have no doubt, as sure as the breath my lips blow.
Knowing they leave traces of themselves all around me;
Angels are everywhere in the trees  Be still, just let them be,.
Magical and enchanting, mystical and surreal,
some would say that they can hardly be real.
Ask them, which is what they want, to help us now,
Your answer, will be short, one word ........ "Wow"!!  ,

happened on the day special to me
It was a text not so plain to see
There were many texts sent to me that day
I failed to see it  in right there displayed
For my eyes only in my inbox
Feeling like a deer in headlights
was my eyes detoxed?
It was my Mother's day message that
made my heart skip a beat
IT was a Mothers day wish
that made it quite complete
I know that i had to rub my eyes twice
to see the special and lovely surprise
I felt your love and felt your love
everyday of my life since you left
My intuition was good,  at my best
You were my gift sent from above
I felt it I felt it all of your love.

I feel like a soldier calling
ONWARD!  But then I know I am in the NOW
and the NOW is telling me to move ON Right NOW
I am ready
I am going
and I am falling forward on the journey
to a new and free ME
Tnis movement is freeing
from being
A prisoner of narcissistic endless cycle
of highs and lows
a place where I felt that there would be hole to go
Goooo!!!!  Right now.....Escape right now!!!!
I know I can make it out alive and free and lively
and happy and be happy and be free
Then my one hand got stuck on the hole, the door to
the hole
The door that is there all the time and waiting for me to be free
The cycle can be so habit forming and feel so secure at time
But the circle is deceiving and tricky and nightmarish at times
I am getting out of this nightmare of a endless cycle today.  
This day is time stamped of my GREAT ESCAPE from an
endless personality disorder and slightly narcissistic rabbit hole
My name is not Alice
I love my name and I love me and this endless crazy non stopping
cycle of craziness doesnt even say my name all the time unless he is mad
at me and then does he say my name to make me feel upset, panicked  that he saying my name to make me feel disconnected with him
Him that feels disconnected all the time at different times because
he is always someone else at different times.  
Me catching up to the personalities that will be a never ending endless way of not dealing with his own Past and My NOW!!!
The past that he hardly remembers but yet lives the
nightmares everyday in his changed personalities that he brings out
for whatever he is trying to either endure or get away from,  
This has been my pain everyday and then good days not knowing if they were
going to become bad days.  Days of saying...what did I do?  What just happened?  Why did this just happen...again saying ....What did I do?  
No more asking a stupid question to myself for something that I know
that I didnt start or do.....I did not damage this time of day or month or year
I didnt not make him the way he is.  I endured him long enough.
My time is over though still had wonderful times and  beautiful at times
memories.....but the end of the day became dark so much as his personalities displayed his darkness to me.
I dont want the darkness at all anymore
I will always feel for him.  I will always have this love for him.  
But my darkness doesnt even match his shade of dark anymore.
I am light again.
I will march on
I will stand on my own
I have escaped
I am free from his personalities and mental abuse
I am free
Thank you God and Angels above
I am free........
I am
I....................will not look back.....Dont you dare look back

You touched my heart
A part of me that is untouchable in reality
You can not literally touch my heart with your fingers
Even though you can touch anythng on the outside of me
Energy that you have within you touches my heart
Energy comes from your Soul into Mine
The feeling can be felt...not seen, only seen  
By my eyes as they fill with tears when you touch my heart
My heart feels your pain, your love, and misses you
As it fills my whole body with blood that circulates through
my human body and my Soul that you can not see either
It is there, and my Soul feels you loving me and it feels when you dont
love me.  
My heart and Soul know somehow that you dont like me or think what
I do or say is stupid or just unbelievable.
My whole being feels your pain when you hurt.
I feel everything around me and it that energy sometimes is so strong
that it consumes me and makes me feel like Im suffocating.
I walk away, I hermit myself as I look out the window knowing that I will
get back out and join the world and all those feelings   I am an Empath.  Glad to feel you.