here you are, you crept in and watched my skin peel
watched as i placed it  gently in neat stacks to the side
you're looking, still gazing, judging if this is right or real
edging close ever silently, you move with an effortless glide
there is no logic in this, it's not linear, no rhythm heard
just something shed quietly in an instant, let upon the world

Today I opened my mouth too wide
And swallowed a cluster of tiny flies
Now they are growing fast inside
I feel them swelling, swimming around
What if they grow too large, what if they multiply
I can't fight them when they're shielded
They laugh deep echoes, mocking me
What are you eating inside there
Food no longer fills me, stomach's always empty
I'll give up, yield all pride and sacrifice
Most of nothing and all of this
For one chance, I can't hold on to sand, I must
Exhale dirt, open eyes, firmly hold bliss

This skin hides a fear so unknown
This skin pierces with the thought of it
This skin is seen through deceived eyes
And this skin will never be touched
I am among the ones that we laugh at
Marked amongst this troubled minority
Despise the crevice which supports my ears
It has condemned me to more than I can stand
I exist through a compelling wave of lies
Spun daily from a splintered tongue
So deep seeded that the truth exists only in memory

In these times, when enduring great strain
I do it, I've done it, just shut down my brain
It's a blocking system, it reduces the pain
Shutting, cutting it out with nothing to gain
My heart is aching, bloated inside my chest
Nothing excites me fully. Powder, ***, rest
It's like you are trying, putting me to a test
Stay silent, stay absent keep molesting my heart
Can't function with so much restricted breath
I can't take this, can't endure it much longer