I told him no but he kept pressuring me it turned into a yes
I lost my virginity to a one night stand
well I guess 2 because I went back for more
I don't know what it was that made me want the pain
Maybe it was how it felt to make someone else complete
Maybe it was the look of relief on your face when I gave in
Maybe it was how you rolled on the ******
Maybe my life would be different
Maybe

You will grow up loved
Little boy
The way it should be
Little boy
You will smile
Little boy
you wont know what got me into your life
Little boy
I wont leave
Little boy
As you get older and taller we will love you the same
Little boy
I would have died if you were mine

Just because I smile and laugh
Doesn't mean that I'm happy

You say you want to be like me
My mom tells me its an honor
But you don't
You don't want to have nightmares every night
You don't want to cry all the time
You don't want to fake being happy
You don't understand how it is
You must think I'm the best person
You must idolize me to not see my flaws

I havent texted you
My friends tell me that you ask about me
They are your friends too
But who are they loyal to
You havent tried to text me either
Maybe its hard right now
But lord it better be easier later

Here I am again
In the street
Thinking about sending that text message
I can't feel my feet
Maybe its time to go in
But then how would you know
How would you know that I still love you
CRASH
I guess this text meant everything
But its too late

I took that punch for you
You live your life with gangs and guns
I knew what I was agreeing to stay for
But you wouldn't let it happen
You cheated
I felt safe with you
Now I feel nothing but pain
But I can't get over you
I guess this is what it feels like to love
I thought he was my first love
Guess I was wrong
I didn't understand how it felt to be in love until you

Baby, I gave you my heart
You said you would keep it safe
But you ran it over with her
You laughed as I cried
I hope you're happier with her than you could be with me

I will show you the world
What you said when we were together
Now that we are just friends
You name the place and we will go
Will, we accidentally kiss
I can see it happening
If I happen I won't be sorry
I want the world
You want to show me it

Thank you for today
Thank you, I think this is the way
Thank you, I will claim until my very last day
Thank you, I hope the emailing will last
Thank you
Goodbye

You said "I love you"
But did you really
You claim you care
But how can you?
You are so unaware
But I accept it
You don't understand it is what I deserve
But I'm thinking about calling it quits
Goodbye

Am I wrong for stalking my first love on Instagram and then when a girl likes his post I stalk her?
Am I wrong for missing him?
Am I wrong for wanting him to love me?
Am I wrong to want to keep him to myself?
He said I was his forever
Is it wrong to want to keep him to myself?
AM I WRONG
Goodbye

When you love someone the distance makes you want to rip your heart out but not talking hurt more. When you are on the phone it feels like its just you guys and no one else. When you fall asleep on the phone just listening to each other's breathing its wonderful. but don't forget about when you wake up and you are still on the phone. The pain of not being able to talk to them is so bad but you look forward to the good days where nothing will be in between you guys. The days where you will just lay in each other's arms and there will be nothing better. You have to suffer the bad to get the good. When you are sad its just a bigger victory being happy. If you are in a long distance relationship stay strong

I can't ask you to understand why I love him.
I love him because he has been there for me to talk to.
I love him because he doesn't make me wonder if I'm beautiful or not.
I love him because he tries to be a better person for me.
I love him because even when it's hard he didn't leave.
I love him because he never made me think that I am less.
I love him because he makes life worth living.
I love him because even when I gave him so many outs he stayed.
I love him because even though he can't talk to me doesn't mean he is talking to other girls.
I love him and you can't expect me to change that.
I didn't expect to fall for him but it's still the best thing I ever did.
Goodbye

People usually hide from you
They are usually scared
But I've never been scared
I'm starting to think you're right
Maybe we are 'Beauty and the Beast'
Maybe we are meant to be
My family may pull us apart
Your friends might call me young
But I see a future with us
I can't wait for this space to end
I can't wait for you to hold me in your arms
I think I fell too hard, too fast
But here we are
I love you
Goodbye

He says "I love you"
But does he really
Losing him felt like I lost a part of myself
Losing him hurt like nothing else before
I would do anything for him
I would leave my whole entire life behind
I guess I'm falling or maybe I already fell
Goodbye

He says he is clean
But do I really believe
He says he loves me
Maybe they are right
Maybe its time to let go
Maybe its time to say goodbye
Goodbye