Your hands around my waist
as we walked through more aisles
Our arguments were of
deciding who cared to carry
We head back for campus tours
and that was enough.
The screaming and cryings
Forgotten

You were mine
for too brief a moment
Only until dusk turned into dawn.

I kissed him tenderly
He made out
I am in love
He just wants fun.

With him, nothing ever seemed certain.
His replies were a two second wait or
a two week pause.

Everything was a competition.
"I'm sure he likes the heels I have on today,
more than that pretty blonde he just checked out."
Some days, he thought I was the prettiest thing.

I'd have to wait till the hype
of the football match finally simmered down
before we could cuddle and laugh.
But there were times where he'd abandon it
and turn the channel to my favourite classic.

I could never be sure
but I gave him everything.

It was so wrong
but it felt so...good.

How is it possible to love someone
with every bone of your body
each fibre in your heart
all ticks in the clock
in every breath of lungs
with everything in your mirror's reflection

When he doesn't even remember
you're there.

I find myself roaming the Seven Dials
with the shop staff filling in the greetings
that I never received
from the ones I thought I loved and
those who loved me back.

With those who I barely know
those wishes albeit short
were pure and genuine
those who I held onto, depended on
let me down, yet again
Have I invested in the wrong people?

I am 21 now
and how did it take so long
to realise that this life
is filled with fake friends-
no, acquaintances.

It's 20 degrees and sunny
I shiver and shake
I am still slipping into love abyss.
What was once love -
your love
turns icy stone
I feel it cold at my spine.

You're no longer here
but I've kept the fire burning.

Every thought I've had,
every desire I've felt,
every word fighting to escape,
has been shushed by
the reality of the truth.

Subdued feelings and
quietened lips hold
a strong silence that
play dangerously in my ears,
in my heart.

239 souls are lost to the sea,
but in our hearts there's hope;
the angels are guiding them ,
through stars and leading them
to You.

"Goodnight", MH370.