I love you while im awake while I love another while asleep...

I try to write a poem
A poem of love and happiness
While being surrounded by
Depression and loneliness
Not from the people around me
But the person inside of me

The cold, broken, heart broken fool
The fool whom rateated love
The fool whom spreaded warmth
The fool whom gave out open arms

I try to write this poem
A poem of the man behind the mask Im surrounded by
Depression and loneliness
No one around me to blame
Because of the person inside of me

You're only worth a word in my story
But that word is the most important part!

I wanted you to be apart of my story
But truth be told
You're only worth a few worlds

I live in a world full of hate and lies

I want to know what it's like to love someone
Of course I've been captured by someone's heart
Enveloping my heart with there's
But I never truly loved someone

I've never seen fireworks when I kiss
I've never had my heart race into an impossible speed
I've never actually wanted to hold hands
I've never been okay with looking back into someone's loving eyes

I've never loved someone

I've never been captured by someone's heart
Enveloping my heart with theirs
and sealing the envelop shut
I've never loved someone
But I'd like too

I am sad
Sad to breath
Sad to have no one
Sad to be lost
Sad to be forgotten
Sad to have anger
Sad to be hurt

I am happy
Happy to live
Happy to have God
Happy to be free
Happy to wonder
Happy to not drink or smoke
Happy to be loved

I am almost free of my tragedy