Cody Shull

Cody Shull Sep 2019

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Stringing along a line of pretty souls
Trying to keep me company throughout the days & nights
Going nowhere, but towards destined dead ends
Enjoying the short-lived rides while they last

You can either blame, tame, or betray me
I deserve all you think I should receive
For I'm in shackles already with nowhere to go
Heading south faster & faster without resistance

Maybe I enjoy being lost
Without swimming too deep
Staying afloat, yet still drowning
Maybe I prefer keeping myself in the dark
For I have found home amongst the shadows
My darkly sweetened safe haven

Cody Shull, 2019

Cody Shull Jul 2019

Ending or Continuation

Sometimes I think you're there
However, you're anywhere but here
I hope you're somewhere
Hoping you're existing in one way or another
For it is all ultimately unknown
Lacking answers to impossible questions
Searching for the hidden truth
Left to wonder why
Dealt a treacherous hand
Endless grief and sorrow reigns
A pain that I haven't gotten used to
Nor will I until I reach my final day
Homesick for a home that includes you
Stricken to the heart with sadness
I have shed many a tear over you
Wishing I could turn my head to see you there
As you were before you faded away
Such a shame the way it had to go
I would've cured you to stay, if I had that chance
But, it went downhill fast
You weren't able to last
Since after you had passed...
All I wonder if it's an ending
Or just a continuation

Cody Shull, 2019

Cody Shull Jul 2019

A Curse Sublime

Finally ignored after all this time
Loved the attention
But not just from me, in the end
Guess I'm out of her league
She's twice my age
But, it doesn't stop me

Deep infatuation from head to toe
The memory of her beauty burned into my mind
Cannot stop her pretty face popping up inside
Cursed to know her name
Cursed to admire her allure
A pleasant curse
A curse sublime

If we never meet again...
It would be a shame
Wished it were different
Hoping for a mere chance
Always fooling myself

Lost within fantasy
For fantasy is my safe haven
Away from uncertainties
A lonely catharsis

Relying by the splendor of her photographic galore
Never will I be short of elegance
She freely flaunts her immaculate aura
I am but one of many who cherishes her gorgeousness

Forbidden fruit tastes sweeter...

Cody Shull, 2019

Cody Shull Jun 2019

Parlor of Dreams

He's sitting alone, waiting
Over there in the corner
Inside the parlor of dreams
Lifetimes of waiting
He has all the patience he needs

Time no longer exists for him
Just the anticipation of arrival
Hoping certain faces appear
Certain names granted to pass through

Between two worlds
Cursed to exist, set apart between two realms
Between two dimensions
Trying to keep the faith that we'll meet again

Time is a burden
A treacherous cross to bear
Uncertainty accompanies each and every second
Always never knowing...
Life is ultimately unfair

Sometimes it's easy to think...
It's pure cruelty to even be born
Would've been nice for some things to be pretend
But, life is just a mere test in the very end....

Cody Shull, 2019

Cody Shull May 2019

Chains of Matrimony

You’re locked away
Put aside for someone’s pleasure
You’re in chains
Chains of matrimony

There will be love
There will be quarrel
It’s all that you can expect
It makes me feel terrible
It could’ve been us
Between us two
But, there is nothing left

Stuck in constant fantasy
Do you ever think of me?
I fantasize that you do
And I hope that it’s true

There’s nothing more we can do
I swear
But, you’re still the only thing for which I care
It’s just a shame...
It’s just a saddening pity that’s all

Cody Shull, 2019

Cody Shull Apr 2019

Anamnesis

Just one touch from your hand...
I would be sold at an instant
Never let me go and linger
Stay with me for a while
For I am nothing without you
Just a passerby, a stranger
A mere fleeting memory
Gone eternally within seconds

Etch me deep within your remembrance
Let me be forever known
For I am nothing as I am now
Put me to use, initiate me to be

Cody Shull, 2019

Cody Shull Apr 2019

Proscription

Flirtatious in the way till you cannot speak
This time the forbidden fruit is too sweet
Look but don’t touch
Never thought I’d like her this much
Wanting to get to know her in more ways than one
Her elegance and beauty leaves me stunned
The way she moves...
Taunting me with every step she takes
Lost in a trance, mesmerized by her lips with every word that she makes
Within fantasy, I delve deeper
She’s certainly a keeper
Endless infatuation
Caught in a state of mesmerization

Left alone with only my thoughts to bear
Tortured by conformity
I wasn’t meant for this time
Too taboo to come to fruition
Lost within a future unknown
Depressed and broken
Cursed to exist

Cody Shull, 2019