Sedation
The only docility I know
A fire fueled by memories
Ascends from below
Impossible at most times not to show

Mangled
Self description at its best
The weight of mjolnir is firm on my chest
A punishment of the mind cursed to never rest
A crippled crow confined to its nest

Self pity
The most disgusting trait of all
Oh, but how much sweeter when you finally fall
Enthralled in a thro that ended at a wall,
A ceiling, a room, enclosed on all sides
Panic sets in human self has died

Animal
I never viewed it the same again
Aging, remembering pain within
Enhancing a view point that wont give in
I hate it all now. The earth, these people, this body I live in

Lit, the future remains so dully so
unknown intentions from a being cold as stone
reveling in itself for its own muse
itching and obsessing over self abuse
ultimately a swollen recluse
a chance to escape unlike no other to refuse
i try to seem happy but whats the use?
im tired of living and have the right to choose.

An effort insurmountable
Yet it is all in vein
Playing with emotions.
Ask again and again
A hatred for a process
With no logic to comply
A longing for a end
I want to ******* die

Pulses breathe throughout the skin
Permeating conscious,  biome

subterranean origination, it blinds
Clenching teeth until they break
Blood flows although barely awake
Pouring and filling the sphere where I reside. I awake with it full, drowning in the red dye

Every time when I awake
I feel it lingering, turns realism fake
What is the point when I’m so full of hate
Only myself does this love negate

I try to do what I can
But when gazing in the mirror it’s an image I can’t stand
Telling myself I’ll never be a man
A ***, a leech destroyed his own plans

What is this image in the reflection
I want to ****, ******, and maim anything it hopes for redemption
A creature that deserves nothing more
But a needle, deadly injection from a filthy *****
Wanting to die, breathing no more

At night I lay and weep
One thing in my mind the awareness keeps
I don’t want to wake up
After I fall asleep

The eyes can only see so much
  
Clinging to the awake, bursting, craving the meaning or touch
Another realm is upon us all
Waiting to antagonize, victimize, in dreams as we fall
  
Eternal
Images are imprinted in my brain
No words can define
They have no name
  
Torn, but still one
Maimed but all here
  
A blinding light will permeate the skin
Showing the knowledge
That was hidden from within
A crave for the awake, crave for knowledge, any hope that we can take
  
Fake, this consciousness is hollow
Little did they know it’s what’s inside they should follow
Search
They said it was all so fckng easy
Do well and please me
Punished forever if you tease me
Cannot withstand what lies ahead
Ignoring the teaching of those before
Anything questioning a noose strangling your head
Has no concept of what it’s like to be dead
Is there ever such a thing
I disagree; forever souls search to be one
  
The true meaning of this place, is that we were all along

This ******* thing will never fade
Ink gets thicker and thicker as I rip out each page
Undying rage
Has plagued my mind
I can’t help but hate everything that I find
My so called friends I resent them all
Users and losers I am glad they don’t call

I WANT TO CRUSH
Everything in my way
Hands clenched, veins are pumping
I can’t wait to inflict damage
Animal is all I can relate
How could there exist this much hate
Is it my fate because it feels so right
My anger consumes me and the only way I see is too fight

Every bruise is just a target
Every blood dripped can only fuel my lust for more
God this feeling is so pure
Animal instinctive I can no longer ignore
What for?
Why is it so? I don’t understand why I can’t let go
I’ll use any term anyway I ******* please
Criticize what you want but you’ll be begging on your knees
Please, don’t **** me is what I heard
The idea of sparing you to me is absurd

Crush
Your skull with a ******* bat
Who is laughing know after I did that?
The best thing to watch was your head cave in, fills me with such joy. My face still holds the grin
But again the rage surfaces
The only thing I truly know
If I keep it in any longer, I’m going to ******* blow

Come closer

Everything goes right through
Though the amount to wonder, to misunderstand, is all but misconstrued
A fight, a struggle, the start of a feud
All from a comment not meant to be rude

This moment did last a while
The memory of what happened is locked in a cranial file
A spewing concern blasphemed from this brain of bile
The ******* keeps coming in a never ending pile

What did this scream?
These lies are a figment, small parts of a dream
I hear your words and it’s not what it seems
I know you all too well; you’re just a ******* fiend

I stuck out and put it on the line
You don’t give a **** it’s not worth your time
Lie some more and tell me its fine
But I know the truth and you think I’m ******* blind

The call is yours and the one that’s made *****
You can only ride so long on your train of luck
When the horse gets burned it will start to buck
But like I said you don’t give a ****