I can't stop thinking about you
I still love you
I can't stop loving you
I wish I didn't think of you.
You treated me like absolute ****
I should never go back
Never give you another chance.
But I can't shake it.
I cannot get rid of the feeling.
You are ever present.
I gave you a piece of my heart
   And I never took it back
   I don't want it back
       I want you back.
I want you to apologize
I want you to come home
I want to hug you
I want to wake up to you
I want to hear you
I want to love you.
I do love you
   I can't shake it.
Please help us both
   Please come home.

FOUR YEARS
You've asked me to wait FOUR YEARS
FOUR YEARS for you to do what you want
FOUR YEARS for me to play along
FOUR YEARS to love you from afar
Well guess what, it's ******* hard

And I'm just your dog?
That waits for your return?
Oh she'll always be there
It's fine, she's mine
YOU DON'T OWN ME
NOT EVEN MY LOVE
I can give that to WHOMEVER I PLEASE

And those days when you don't accept me
When you argue with my choices
And counter my opinions
I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL MIND
You do too
So just let them be beautiful together

STOP CLOSING YOUR ******* THOUGHTS
OPEN YOUR HEART
LET THE BREEZE TOUCH YOUR SOUL
GET BLOWN SOMEWHERE
AND JUST ENJOY THE RIDE

four years...
four years
   and a hell of a lot of tears

I haven't wrote about you in a while
Because I prefer to push it down
With others,
The feelings and urges are so obvious
But with you I don't know
You're like a memory
That now tempts me as an image
And a voice
Just a memory
Flickering into my reality
Only ever so often
Ha
Will you ever actually come back?
I can't live my life waiting
You're living your dream
I hope you're happy
That's all I ever want
Happiness
For you
And for me
If they coincide - great
If not
We'll learn to go on

I'm not ready
I am so not ready
I'm not ready because I'm scared
I'm scared to feel
I don't want to see you
Because I'm scared
Of what I'll feel when I see you
I like being alone
I've really grown to it
I'm scared
I don't know
I don't know if
I need you to show me
You taught me what love was
But now I can't remember
And I'm not sure
I want to try again
I'm so scared
My heart isn't ready
My soul isn't ready
If it was out of love
   Yes, the pain is worth it
So is our love strong enough?
You have 8 days
To make me know

Did you know
   then,
That every time
   you,
Called me
  sweetheart,
That one day
    you,
Would stop talking to me?

I can't decide
   where I went wrong
But then I realize:

   I didn't.

   You did.

But then I'll listen to a song...
And I'll want nothing more...
Than to pull you in -
And kiss you hard.
Kiss you as hard as you hurt me.