I'm 17 years old
I can't focus on schoolwork
I can only focus on how unprepared I am
I'm unprepared for my college major
I'm unprepared for my aspired career
I'm undprepared to get into college
I'm undprepared to manage my finances
I'm too afraid of the future to pay attention to the present
I've never been in a relationship
What if I never get married?
What if I get married when I'm too old to have kids?
What if I amount to nothing because the job growth for music educators is 5% compared to the normal 20-25%
What if I can't handle a high school choir
What if I get a divorce
I don't want to be fatter than I already am
So I'm trying to eat less
I don't want to be as depressed as I am
So I'm downing the meds
No one has taught me to fend for myself
So I guess we'll see where I end up
Whether that's in a cardboard box or on a grand stage.
Both are equally terrifying