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Aug 2015 · 538
Artificial Happiness
Brett W Aug 2015
People see me as a bright person
Well, sometimes they see that side
Others they see and hear depression
Because from them I don't need to hide
I only can create artificial happiness
My life is like a kind of kids' fruity cereal
It's exciting but can contain dullness
Even though my life can be surreal
My happiness is dull and quite bland
It's basic and can not be made naturally
I need help from a kind and gentle hand
To drag me out of this darkened valley
It has been a while since It has been true
Where my happiness came naturally to me
I thought it would flourish as it grew and grew
But then it found it's enemy and set itself free
Jul 2015 · 648
Get Out of My Head
Brett W Jul 2015
She's here in town tonight
And here for a few weeks
I want to go and see her
But she will not talk to me
I want to be friends again
And it is killing me inside
I want to see her once more
But I am now nothing to her
I dream that I am seeing her
And I am making her smile
Just like it all used to be
But I wake up to reality
I think I will never see her
And I may just give up on her
She made me who I am today
But I need to forget all about her
She is always in my thoughts
And I want her to leave my head
She will slowly start leaving
But soon return to no avail
I do not know what to do now
And I know I need to move on
I know I need to forget about her
But she meant so much in my life
Jul 2015 · 254
Searching Heart
Brett W Jul 2015
I finally deleted all your photos
What I do now, no one knows
Those memories were my old foes
Bringing me to new all time lows
It is now over six months later
My state of mind has been greater
It's been shredded by a cheese grater
Now to be buried in it's own crater
My heart has no home to now go
It has been lost with no clear hero
No one to help it heal and to grow
Leaving it out in the open like a doe
My heart is searching for a new friend
As my last two deserted it in the end
My heart needs assistance to mend
Or else it will rot away in the cool sand
Jul 2015 · 382
Pure Happiness
Brett W Jul 2015
I may seem like a somber person
Containing only one simple version
Never seen in public the opposite
Only pain and sadness I deposit
In reality, I can be happy, sometimes
Maybe not noticeable in these rhymes
But I can sometimes appear happy
But my happiness is not full of purity
I often will "fake" my happiness
In order to not seem like I'm in distress
It's been quite a while since it's been real
But I'm trying to turn it around like a wheel
I want to be happy as much as possible
To prove that sadness and pain is curable
Jul 2015 · 400
Eternal Sleep
Brett W Jul 2015
I wish you could purchase a life
And recycle your old living Hell
Chop it up with the blade of a knife
And stow away all evidence aside
I am only at a very young age
And have faced numerous hardships
I still seem unable to turn the page
To the next step of my painful story
It is not yet midnight as of this moment
And I usually remain awake for hours more
I can no longer face this constant torment
I wish to sleep earlier than normal today
I wish to end all the pain as soon as I can
But I know it will not be worth it in the end
I will end life much happier than it began
And I will be happy before my eternal sleep
Jul 2015 · 256
Story of my Life
Brett W Jul 2015
Here's a short explanation of my life:
Pages 1-6: building up a new reputation
Having big dreams, as big as a nation
I was just starting out in my early youth
I remember when I first lost a tooth
I thought I was slowly dying away
I thought my body was beginning to decay
But then I realized it was a natural occurrence
I continued my youth with little interference
Pages 6-12: I'm in my late youth stage
I'm ready to be a teen and then the page
I experienced moving and family deceased
I tried to cope with it as the pain decreased
And sure enough it did not happen again
But I was constantly bullied and in pain
At times I didn't want to go to school
But I was as consistent as a Mexican bull
I fought through all the pain and agony
To become as successful as I could be
Pages 13-16: looking at a bigger place
High school. A place filled with disgrace
Middle school seemed like a slow torture
So I hoped that high school would be better
It was, kind of. Freshman year was strange
I was okay, then depressed and out of range
I then met someone that seemed truly special
Possibly my dream girl, we were inseparable
Except, she moved thousands of miles away
We fought through difficulties every day
But it just did not work out at all in the end
I felt as if my heart would never again mend
Until I thought I found someone close to me
I started to like her on a band trip in Hawaii
We dated for a few months but it fell apart
And yet again there was a tear in my heart
I didn't think I could do anything about it
Until I find a key that will properly fit
Page 17: my current place in this story
I still have the right to write about me
I still have many years to look ahead
Until the final days when I end up dead
But I'm only at 17, halfway to 18 now
I have had a disappointing life I think
Two girlfriends, heartbreaks, I slowly sink
Grades starting to slip in every class
As I progress to harder classes to pass
My lips still remain virgins, no gentle touch
I am becoming desperate now, so very much
I want to find someone to love once more
Someone who won't slam the door
My heart has been beaten and slaughtered
I need someone to fix it while it's tattered
I still have a place in my heart for someone
She's thousands of miles away, so far gone
Yes, the first girl I loved, that's the one
I thought that It would work out, but I'm alone
Page ???: I will again find happiness in my life
My story continues with happiness and strife
I will find happiness again some day, I hope
As I have too much pain right now to cope
I need someone now to hold in my open arms
As I am a classy gentleman and mean no harm
I will live my life as long as a block of lead
And will try to remain happy, until I am dead
Probably the longest thing I've wrote (besides essays for school) but this is a poetic explanation of my life. Enjoy, and sorry it's been over 2 months since I've posted anything. To be honest, life has ****** lately but I just am never in the mood to write. Until now. I'm going to post another poem here in a bit that I wrote the other night
Apr 2015 · 340
I Promised You
Brett W Apr 2015
I finally did it, just for you
I am now the drum major
I told you a long time ago
I would make it my goal
For you, I promised to you
I worked hard for it today
And it started yesterday
When I told you I will try
I tried as hard as I could
It was worth it in the end
I promised I would, I did
You do not even remember
You dreamed section leader
Then to become drum major
You made it to section leader
And I don't know anything now
Drum major was my promise
I held up my end, you did half
Will you complete your journey?
Will you keep your promise to me?
Because I kept my promise to you
Next season, I'm dedicating to you
And my promise to you one night
A drum major is basically the head of the marching band (besides the teacher/director) and I made it my promise to Sarah I would get it, and I did. Sorry for not posting in quite a while, I've been busy with band
Mar 2015 · 373
One Word
Brett W Mar 2015
There is one word today
That can destroy my day
I try to avoid it in any way
But it has something to say
It reminds me of good times
When I once had good rhymes
I lived life outside the lines
And lived freely without fines
It can make a good day bad
I go from a happy to a sad
I can enter a weekend glad
And leave it all just as mad
It seems to have ruined me
I can't think it without misery
I can't say it to remain free
And I will die of it, you'll see
That one word that will end me
Is just a simple five letter word
Two simple syllables we all know
And the effect on my life is absurd
That one word happens to be a name
A name that I once used to adore
But now it seems to ruin all I do
As I lose everything that's in store
Sarah, Sarah, Sarah, Sarah, Sarah
The name constantly echoes in my head
And seems to continue until I am dead
Sarah...
Mar 2015 · 591
Girlfriend
Brett W Mar 2015
I truly wish I had one today
Someone to hold and care
Show affection in any way
Even when I am not there
She's beautiful like Hawaii
And sweet like a sugarcane
She's always right beside me
Through the sun and the rain
I wish I had at this very time
To be able to rant to at night
About nothing we can define
Just something in our sight
We can work together as one
We laugh together at nothing
We will always find some fun  
We cry together in mourning
But as of now, it's not there
My care is aside for later use
It is now just painful and unfair
After I've faced all this abuse
More typical kind of work compared to my last one. So if you didn't like my last one, maybe you'll like this one
Mar 2015 · 299
Lonely Life
Brett W Mar 2015
Fresh out of the womb, is a newborn baby seeing this cruel world for the first time. His loving parents cry tears of joy at this new light in their life. After a few years, his parents have twin girls, and all attention is off of him then. He sits in his room alone all day like he's in detention. He goes to school and is the one quiet kid that seems so insecure to others. He wishes to make new friends but he's afraid of the others. He finally makes one good friend in middle school, but then he had to move away from his one and only friend to the other side of the country. He is once again, that lonely kid in the corner throughout all of middle and high school. At the age of 17, just a few days before his 18th birthday, he comes home and sees his mother face down on the kitchen floor. He is unsure of what to do, so he calls his father, crying while he caresses his mothers heavy head. He remains on the phone with his dad, and he hears a loud screech in the background, a bang, and then silence. He tries calling back and no answer. He calls 911 and when they get there, they confirm his mother died of a heart attack. His father however, he is unsure of what happened. He watches the news that night, and sees the breaking news about a multi-car accident that resulted in the death of 4 people, one of which is his father. He's heartbroken now. He is unsure of how he will live. He finishes school, works a full 40 hour week, and is a single man living in a small apartment in the city. One day, this beautiful young women moves into the room next door. He instantly falls in love. He takes her out to the bar a few times, and then she suddenly disappears. A few nights after he last saw her, he sees on the news about a young women who died of a drug overdose. It was the women he once thought he loved. He decides to remain single throughout the rest of his life. At age 85, he realized he had no one left. His parents have been dead for almost 70 years, he is unsure how his twin sisters are doing because he hasn't talked to them in over 50 years. He was last with a woman over 50 years ago. He then passes away at the age of 91 due to just old age. No one attends his funeral. No one even realizes he's gone. His lonely soul is now gone from this Earth, and not one human being realizes it. All because of a lonely childhood and unfortunate luck, this beautiful young boy had a loving family but died with no one left to care.
Not my usual style, but a little story I have. To be honest, I wrote it in only 10 minutes so it could have some issues with it but it's fine.
Mar 2015 · 227
Day Dreamer
Brett W Mar 2015
Through the entirety of the day
I dream randomly about things
Sometimes they're great or grey
It can be death or a bird that sings
I dream during the day quite often
As I have new ideas pop into mind
I often will resist the urge to listen
As I wish to leave something behind
I day dream about a girl I once knew
Her luscious hair flowing in the wind
And her big brown eyes staring at me
I think these are real and will never end
But my feelings are propped onto a tee
I just want to cry whenever I think of her
How she impacted my life so greatly then
But she's happier now than we ever were
I'm stuck day dreaming about her now
I wish I could ease this agonizing pain
Now, there is surely nothing left to gain
These feelings were quite easy to obtain
But now I can't lose them as I go insane
Mar 2015 · 334
Issues
Brett W Mar 2015
It's just plain and simple
I have a whole lot of issues
Showing off a fake dimple
To hide the need of tissues
I am always living in the past
I can't forget the memories
I know they won't be the last
But I just can't forget these
I have to just move forward
But I can not do that today
I continue to move backward
I can't fix anything in any way
I'm currently an absolute wreck
Life is like poker, luck and skill
I feel as if I had an unlucky deck
And I won't quit until I get a ****
I will get through these issues
I am confident in my abilities
It will take time I won't misuse
I'll use it wisely to find the keys
I must unlock happiness in me
Unlock it to set my issues free
Mar 2015 · 396
Spin the Bottle
Brett W Mar 2015
I feel my chest getting heavy
Like an elephant taking a break
I'm beginning to feel needy
Of finding a girl for my sake
I'm feeling lonely every day
I honestly like someone now
I can't do anything in any way
Because I do not know how
I fear heartbreak once more
I don't want that pain again
Someone I'm starting to adore
And I seem to be going insane
My heart pounds like a drum
My head spins a crazy amount
Like I drank a few bottles of ***
Until I have the guts to ask her out
But I just can't do it anytime soon
Because I'm afraid of one afternoon
That may haunt my life forever
And I can't reach this endeavor
Title from my friend Stacy so credit given to her.
Mar 2015 · 357
Sleepless Nights
Brett W Mar 2015
The need to wake up early
But I can not sleep at night
My mind is too **** swirly
Full of pain from a harsh bite
A chunk of happiness, gone
The wound not healing soon
I remember them every dawn
Are they remembered by you?
Probably means nothing to you
I stayed up to provide comfort
This is where our bonding grew
Me helping when you are hurt
These nights remain haunting
The pain from before; taunting
It never faded from my head
I feel as if I am now just dead
When I have a full night of sleep
I will be dead in my own grave
I'll sleep once my body is deep
And there is nothing left to save
Sleepless nights haunt me now
And will continue until I'm gone
Mar 2015 · 2.2k
Worthless
Brett W Mar 2015
I try hard at all I do
Yet I always fail
I try to pay attention
Yet I still doze off
I try to walk proud
Yet I slouch in pain
I try to be composed
Yet I break down
I feel worthless now
No value left in me
I am a wasted soul
Walking amongst the world
Mar 2015 · 480
Untitled
Brett W Mar 2015
As time passes by
I sulk in my misery
I try hard not to cry
But it destroys me
Losing many tears
My soul is now dry
As over these years
I continuously die
From birth to death
I feel pain repeated
Like I am on ****
Until I am defeated
I fight what I can
And avoid the rest
I am a lonely man
With a heavy chest
I see no end in sight
Life moves too fast
I must rest my soul
To end, good night
I still can't think of a title...
Feb 2015 · 276
Dream Girl
Brett W Feb 2015
A sweet and tender smile
Crisp and beautiful eyes
Luscious long brown hair
A simple and petite frame
Making my time worth while
Beauty even when she cries  
Wishing she was always there
Forever and always my claim
A laugh that enlightens my life
On my mind day in and day out
Talking all that we possibly can
Staying up late to discuss our day
She pulls me out of everyday strife
There anytime I give her a shout
Never leaving me for another man
I promise never to harm her in any way
I wish now to find the girl of my dreams
I will find her somehow by any means
She will make my life seem complete
And I wish to not face more bitter defeat
I wrote one last January called Dream Girl as well but this is kind of an updated version 13 months later
Feb 2015 · 871
Beautiful Flowers
Brett W Feb 2015
The lavish red of amaryllis
To the dullness of a full fern
Nature is full of true beauty
Letting others have their turn
The smooth blue of hydrangea
No match for the sweet carnation
Full bloom excites the active mind
Much more that a grand vacation
The daffodil's eye popping structure
Is unlike the chrysanthemum spray
Pointed edges point in new directions
For you to be able to follow every day
The orchid with it's numerous variations
Can not be tamed by the colorful tulip
The stem of the orchid shows a long life
Full of tranquility only at a tequila's sip
Enjoy the beautiful flowers around you
Everyday, you will see something new
You may see rarities seem by just a few
And you'll see something you never knew
I asked 2 people for a word to write about, and I got beautiful from one and flowers from the other. Might as well combine them, right? Sorry for not writing is what seems like an eternity
Feb 2015 · 364
Those Feelings
Brett W Feb 2015
I miss all of those deep feelings
Of caring so much for someone
Telling them "I love you so much"
Thinking and dreaming about them
I miss thinking about them all day
Nonstop thoughts drown my head
About how beautiful she is to me
I imagine how other people see us
"They are such a beautiful couple"
"They are so cute together" I imagine
I wish I had all of these feelings back
Sleeping well at night without a fright
Relaxing days go in to peaceful nights
Only if I have all of these feelings back
But, I do still have some of these feelings
They never left my dying heart and soul
I often still think and dream about her
She still haunts me when I tell her to leave
I still have nightmares of you and death
I can't destroy these now unwanted feelings
I only wish now, I had someone else to see
Someone else to call beautiful and sweet
I wish that now, I can find happiness again
And regain all of the lost feelings I once had
I wrote this on the bus going to school this morning so I was a little tired
Feb 2015 · 340
I Think I Like You
Brett W Feb 2015
I honestly do not have a clue
I always seems to feel strange
When I see or think about you
It seems out of realities range
I haven't felt this way in awhile
I think I'm beginning to like you
It may just end with me in denial
But it's a risk I'll take for us two
I feel like waiting for the right time
But that time we may never see
These feelings are in the prime
And it's now life or death for me
Feb 2015 · 397
Reflections
Brett W Feb 2015
I see myself in the mirror
I'm young yet full of fear
In my eye is a crusty tear
Of reflecting on my year
Started off in utter pain
And simply ended in vain
I'm left alone and insane
Sitting out alone in the rain
I do not know what to expect
I have new options to select
In all options, there's a defect
But all I can do now is reflect
Reflect on what is now the past
Reflect on what flew by so fast
Twelve bitter months out of grasp
And they sure won't be the last
Jan 2015 · 3.7k
Inner Beauty
Brett W Jan 2015
Everyone is full of immense beauty
It takes someone special to see it
Only that special someone can see
True beauty hidden from the world
You may not seem beautiful to all
You may be pale, skinny and short
Or even a pearly tan skin and tall
Beauty is seen by someone special
You may think you see the beauty
But our eyes can deceive the mind
It's just the outer shell that you see
Inside could be a whole other creature
You must be patient for them to appear
Your eyes must be one with your mind
Maybe even face a newer pesky fear
If your heart and soul agree, go for it
Opportunities flash in the blink of an eye
Beauty is something not seen by us all
You may live life alone until you will die
But you know you didn't have fake love
Jan 2015 · 313
Cassie
Brett W Jan 2015
Even though we rarely talk at school
We talk like best friends away from it
We always mess with each other daily
But it is usually me that's the culprit
Both of us have had a tough year
And now we try to forget the past
We rant to each other very often
We know that it won't be the last
To be honest, I think that you're pretty
I honestly think that you're not rude
I think that you are truly a sweet girl
Unless you're involved in a tight feud
Don't let other get you in the dumps
People do that to bring them back out
Ignore them and you'll be out on your own
And who knows, some guy may come out
He may come and help pull you free
Like superman to take away your heart
And not let it be ruined by anyone else
No matter what, even if it all fell apart
That's all I got to write to you right now
Now go to sleep if you haven't you meanie
Poem 2 of 2 that I sent to my friends to thank them for being there. Stacy and Cassie are the only two that I can trust right now. With Cassie, I mess with her because she thinks she's mean even though I think she's really sweet.
Jan 2015 · 314
Stacy
Brett W Jan 2015
We've known each other for a few years
Since then we've shed quite a few tears
We met awkwardly in the boys restroom
During our band-camp lunch around noon
We then quickly became very close friends
And to this day, it hasn't reached it's end
I've been able to trust you since the start
We shared stories close to our dear heart
You shared to me about horrid past stories
And then I shared to you present difficulties
We've talked and shared numerous accounts
We could write sad books in large amounts
Just with the stories we shared to each other
Even though no stories seemed to tie together
Thank you for being such a great friend to me
And hopefully it'll remain as you'll roam free
Keep Brett close to your heart, no matter what
Even if you feel like punching him in the gut
Poem 1 of 2 that I sent to two good friends of mine just to thank them for being there. I've been enduring some tough times recently so that's the reason for the lack of poems. I'll try to get them more often.
Dec 2014 · 251
You're Right
Brett W Dec 2014
You are definitely right
I have to move on now
I'll go to sleep tonight
With a brand new vow
Not to dwell on the past
Focus on what's to come
She will not be the last
I no longer feel numb
Reinvigorated with life
I see with new visions
New ways through strife
Making better decisions
I'm no longer indecisive
I'm thankful for the life hacks
You have shown me to live
Without dealing with setbacks
Now we must no longer talk
Because we must both forget
Well, just I have to now walk
You're already through all of it
Bye
I just talked my ex for the first time in over 9 months and she just told me I have to quit dwelling on the past and focus on the future. So I'm taking her advice and trying again to move on. I honestly feel like a semi truck was just taken off my shoulders
Dec 2014 · 328
Break up and After
Brett W Dec 2014
It was on a Thursday night
I had school the next day
It was during winter break
And I was up late at night
I was playing video games
I still remember everything
I was playing survival mode
On a map called resistance
I was on round seven or so
In the back corner of the map
You sent me numerous texts
Then I had paused my game
We saw it was getting tough
And then you called it quits
It truly was very tough at first
We still talked and it got better
Then one random day it stopped
March 17, you stopped responding
I continued to try to talk to you
But you just never responded
I sent hundreds of messages
With not one since that one day
Not one response since then
Even through all that I had done
I had numerous sleepless nights
Comforting you until you slept
I put your safety before my own
Even after we both broke up
It meant nothing to you though
I'm just a lost cause in the past
Nothing important in your life
To you, forgotten memories
To me, just distant memories
Part 4 of 4 in the "My Distant Memories" series. I decided to write this because I've been thinking about my ex a whole lot lately and I just feel I need to get some stuff out
Dec 2014 · 394
Our Relationship
Brett W Dec 2014
It was two thirds of a year
It was a great eight months
Although it was very difficult
We pushed on to success
We faced major setbacks
Undesirable amounts of pain
And the last but not least
The fear of you leaving earth
In eight months we faces a lot
More than others in two years
Our relationship was unique
And it sure was special to me
But it seems like you forgot
It is just an evil presence to you
And although it's nothing to you
Our relationship meant a lot to me
Part 3 of 4 in the "My Distant Memories" series
Dec 2014 · 374
We got Together
Brett W Dec 2014
It was on a Wednesday night
I talked to you earlier that day
Getting involved in a relationship
We both knew what was to come
We knew that you were moving
Yet we decided to pursue it all
Even though it seemed wrong
We decided to just get together
We were ready for the challenge
We were going to move forward
As one from miles from the other
Part 2 of 4 in the "My Distant Memories" series
Dec 2014 · 283
When we Met
Brett W Dec 2014
It was a hot fall morning
A silent time on the bus
On a trip with the band
And me just sitting alone
You were just watching me
I was bored out of my mind
And then you talked to me
We got to know each other
We found many similarities
And by the end of the day
I had made a new friend
Part 1 of 4 in the "My Distant Memories" series
Dec 2014 · 348
I Need You
Brett W Dec 2014
I feel that you are the one
I need you to be by my side
I though searching was done
And we could run and hide
I thought I found it all true
Love creates a strong bond
I was always happier with you
At a fancy dinner or the pond
Now it's just a distant memory
It's now all the forgotten past
We were a beautiful harmony
It is now all just thought of last
I no longer seem to exist to you
Even though you exist in mine
Every thought makes me blue
I can't put these thoughts behind
Dec 2014 · 194
Need to Talk
Brett W Dec 2014
Lately I've been thinking of you
How you have been everyday
What in everyday is then new
I can think of you in any way
I really want to talk to you
It's been over half of a year
And for me, nothing is new
There is a lot I want to hear
Now with every passing day
I have a want to talk to you
And I have so much to say
That I can only say to a few
This want to talk is now a need
It grows and grows like a beast
Ready to finally at get it's feast
Waiting as my open wound bleeds
Not talking to someone that I care for since March? Kind of a long time right there
Dec 2014 · 366
Giving Up
Brett W Dec 2014
I'm just throwing in the towel
You seem to not want to chat
It sure has been quite a while
But I'm just giving up on that
Now I seem to not even exist
The life we once had is gone
I have bleeding on my wrists
By each new break of dawn
I can't keep living in the past
It's gone and out of my reach
It leaves like a dynamite blast
Quicker than one dies of bleach
Dec 2014 · 307
How to fix a Broken Heart
Brett W Dec 2014
It is difficult to fix a broken object
To mend a broken heart is onerous
You have to be daring to project
Living life as if it is very dangerous
You must show some determination
And hope for finding someone new
You can search through every nation
But you can only love in just a few
You must show endless compassion
To find someone right for your soul
You do not need a sense in fashion
Just to make sure both remain whole
Broken hearts are like broken bones
Some mend quicker than others fix
You must only give out little groans
To hide the all the pain as time ticks
Love is not a toy for all age groups
It takes patience and just some light
And the determination of war troops
To find someone that is perfectly right
Dec 2014 · 235
Change
Brett W Dec 2014
Why did everything have to change
Whenever you got out of my range
Why did life take an unexpected turn
When I will continue to fail to learn
I wish life was the same as it once was
My dull life finally in the constant buzz
I was known for once in my loneliness
Now it is just total and complete darkness
I wish nothing changed the way it did
I wish to not grow up and remain a kid
Young and not much to even worry about
Only getting yelled at for when I will pout
I wish that you didn't have to stay away
This pain lurks around and seems to stay
And I wish to see you in person once more
Then my confidence and hope may soar
Now, I'm hopeless and in constant denial
On how I couldn't make your time worthwhile
Now I hope that you're happy over there
While I'm struggling to find half of my pair
Dec 2014 · 680
Come and Go
Brett W Dec 2014
Every girl that wanders into my life
Is facing their her own different strife
No matter how they are in distress
I treat them like a special princess
I do my best to be compassionate
Be better continuously since we met
I put forth her emotions before mine
Then go to mine when hers are behind
However I feel like a tattered rag-doll
Used until it faces it's disastrous fall
I am constantly loved then thrown away
Not to be important anymore on any day
I'm like a brand new rechargeable battery
Used once and then dropped like gravity
I am using up energy and forgotten about
Then when it is gone, I am a pile of doubt
I treat others the way I would like to live
I serve others and give all I have to give
Yet I am still worthless after a short while
Which leaves me alone, tattered, in denial
Still thinking of a decent title. I wrote half this morning and then the rest just now. Thanks for reading
Dec 2014 · 314
Poem to a Certain Girl
Brett W Dec 2014
I am still unaware of who you are
And you may also be as unaware
However, soon we will both know
Towards each other is where to go
I am still unsure if you exist in my life
I am unsure if I am involved in yours
However, we will both know someday
That love will bind us tighter everyday
But when will that certain day happen
When will it occur we find each other
Will it be a miserable evening of care
Or an exciting challenge of truth or dare
We may never know until the day comes
We wait and watch the rise of many suns
Both knowing one day we will be together
Even though neither may know each other
Nov 2014 · 1.1k
Me, Myself, and I
Brett W Nov 2014
My heart remains free from all
My soul is on a cliff about to fall
My ****** lips still remain shut
My feelings still deep in my gut
I will not show love anytime soon
I will lose my soul by the next noon
I will never seem to kiss someone
I will regurgitate my love on the run
I always say I will remain forever alone
I always give my self a surprise there
I always speak in my calm, shy tone
I always end up in a deal that's not fair
I wish I could fall in love once more
I wish my soul would remain near
I wish happiness in behind the door
I wish my new love is nothing to fear
I am a crumbling mess it seems to me
No one else can see much difference
No one can tell happiness is lost at sea
I am now the only considerable reference
I have the only people needed to fly by
And those are just me, myself, and I
If anyone has a suggestion for a different title, feel free to comment or send me a message. Thanks
Nov 2014 · 277
Do I Still Exist to You?
Brett W Nov 2014
I don't think it's clear to you
I don't even know if I exist
It now has been eight months
Since we both have last talked
I don't think you remember me
I seem to no longer exist to you
Sixteen months ago it all began
Now it is like it never happened
It would be great to talk to you
You do seem to be happier now
But it's not the same over here
If you wish not to talk, that's fine
It would be great if you did though
My number will be where you see it
And you can contact me whenever
Goodbye now, you know who you are
You lived near, but now you're too far
So I would love to talk to you once more
To fill the emptiness in my cold core
Nov 2014 · 603
Childhood
Brett W Nov 2014
Playing hide and seek until it got dark
Going every weekend to a local park
Keeping and cleaning a pet rock
Having a bedtime around 9 o'clock
These were always the good old days
Piling unhealthy food on lunch trays
Tag and army men was not just a game
It brought those champions internal fame
Why do we all have to grow into adults
Why can't we have nothing be our faults
I do not even want to grow up anymore
I wish to not see what is behind the door
I don't want to grow up anymore
Nov 2014 · 379
Life
Brett W Nov 2014
You are born, you live, and die
It is the most common cycle
Everyone encounters this event
However, some sooner than others
Life is not to be taken for granted
Some are not blessed like you and I
Some only see the world for a second
Then close their eyes to never open again
I fear the day that I will never again wake
I will regret some decisions I have made
I will look back and see the pain I caused
I will never be able to change any of it
I wish to die in the common way of age
People die all the time in numerous ways
Heart attacks to cancer to the battlefield
Some of these people are innocent
And have done nothing wrong in life
They bring happiness to those around
Why can't I die in this way instead of them
People just can't take life for granted
It can be ripped away like candy from a kid
Or a mole caught in the neighbors trap
Live your life to the fullest every day
Because you will see the end at some point
We all see birth, we live, and then we die
Birth, life, death
Nov 2014 · 243
I Wish
Brett W Nov 2014
I wish everything was alright
I wish it was peaceful at night
I wish all was good once more
I wish I had never shut the door
I wish I again had a girlfriend
I wish I had someone to tend
I wish I had someone to care
I wish that she was always there
I wish life would be okay again
I wish I could end all this pain
I wish it will be the same again
Why can't everything just change
To something more in my range
Where my life goals are reachable
Where nothing left is impossible
Oct 2014 · 267
Hate
Brett W Oct 2014
Such a strong and overused word
Full on hate seems just too absurd
The preferred option can be dislike
Or even just say to take a long hike
I am having that moment right now
Of disliking someone that's now low
She's a wonderful person in my eye
But then she lied and left my to cry
Hate isn't there now in this moment
The uncertainty rises through torment
This is a first of feeling the way I feel
It almost seems imaginary and unreal
I can only clear my head of all the hate
Moving to something fresh and great
Oct 2014 · 649
Chess
Brett W Oct 2014
I feel like a pawn in this nasty game of chess
Always forced going into some sort of mess
All my important decisions are made by others
And it's seems there's no one that even bothers
I am the first to face a conflict in all my peers
And it only seems to intensify over these years
People use me so they can benefit and gain
Leaving me alone and in a great deal of pain
I wish to leave this chess game of endless hell
But it's hard to leave with how far I already fell
I just wish to break free of the kings unholy grip
Just so I can leave the path of his unruly whip
Sep 2014 · 190
What to Do
Brett W Sep 2014
I put together all pros and cons
I consider any new consequences
Through being awake and yawns
I think more on this very decision
At times I wish to ask her something
Then the next I despise the thought
I think about how it can create a ding
Or even a dent in this shifting fault
I wish there's an easy way to decide
Instead of thinking alone while I hide
While the water contributes to a tide
That'll slowly make me reveal my side
Every single day, it is different. With one conflict, my mind can't stay consistent in it's thoughts.
Sep 2014 · 4.0k
Homecoming Proposal
Brett W Sep 2014
This may be way too early
But as people always say
You only live once, YOLO
But I usually don't follow
This is not a normal poem
There is no rhyme or pattern
Just an explanation to you
I know it hasn't been long
Since it all abruptly ended
But I am just not quite sure
Not sure on when it's right
Or even when it is wrong
But I am sure on one thing
The facts about you, Maddie
You're adorable, cute, pretty
Beautiful, stunning, lavishing
Any description that you want
You ARE absolutely amazing
I've been debating to do this
But I am needing to ask you
I know I said I wouldn't go
But will you, Madelyn
Go to homecoming with me?
This is pretty bad actually. I don't know if I should ask her but I have this just in case if I decide I want to. The only issue is that she doesn't seem too excited when around me but her mood becomes drowsy around me. I just don't know
Sep 2014 · 230
Give it Another Shot
Brett W Sep 2014
You may think you're not good enough
But stopping now after all you've given
Just you stopping right now seems tough
You should try again and continue living
We were fresh out of our dark cocoon
We really never saw this other spectrum
We were like the space race to the moon
Not knowing anything ahead, not some
Neither of us was prepared for the future
That future to us is now known as the past
And it now feels like a continuous torture
That I made mistakes that won't be my last
Now a simple statement about relationships
From quite an amazing and hilarious movie
They're being there when someone needs you
And to add on, it's to make each other happy
I don't know about you but I felt success then
I was happy and you're there when I'm needing
If not know then I am going to wonder when
When is my open heart going to stop bleeding
It had stopped for a while when I was with you
Now it's as if it has been punctured once more
I hope that you can now thing this all through
Then choose your final thoughts closed door
I think what we had was absolutely spectacular
It was always simple and to the finest point
We made each other laugh and that was all
We still have an opportunity to mend the joint
What we once had was perfect in every way
But the main phrase there is "we once had"
That'll haunt me throughout every single day
Because it indicated the past which is sad
My last girlfriend broke up with me because she doesn't think she's good at relationships but she was doing just fine so this is kind of to say just to give it another shot because she wasn't bad like she thought she was. If not, that's fine
Sep 2014 · 206
What Did I Do
Brett W Sep 2014
I'm clueless at the moment
At what exactly went wrong
I'm unsure of what to do now
Cause feel like I don't belong
You say we can still be friends
Not the first time that was heard
Last time it was a complete joke
Ending in me shattered and hurt  
Now, I don't feel as much pain
It all seems to fly over my head
It still continues to steadily rain
It seems to not stop till I'm dead
I can only assume it was my fault
I did something to turn it all around
I can't waste time wondering why
When I know nothing can be found
I must move on once more in life
And I'm sure it will not be my last
Because life is full of many surprises
Where you can't be living in the past
Well, I'm back to living the single life
Sep 2014 · 337
You Are Beautiful
Brett W Sep 2014
Want to know what I love about you? I love just being around your unique attitude. I love seeing you beautiful face. I love hearing your sweet voice. You are absolutely beautiful Madelyn. If someone tells you otherwise, punch them in the face or tell them they need glasses because they CLEARLY can't tell that you're beautiful. Just kidding, don't punch them or insult them, that's just not nice and I know you're not a mean person. Just be you. Stay the beautiful, amazing and sweet Madelyn that I know and love. Don't change to try to impress me or impress others because you already impress many people, including me. I love everything about you, and most importantly, I love YOU
Sorry for not writing in quite a while, it's not that I don't have ideas or time to write, I just never seem to have the motivation. I know this is not a normal write for me as well. Anyway, I'm just writing this because my girlfriend and I have been trying to make plans all weekend but we never get to do any of it because other things get in the way so I'm putting this in her locker in the morning tomorrow to kind of apologize and tell her how much she means to me right now. I hope you all like it, and I'll try to write more. Sorry again
Aug 2014 · 206
This Feels Different
Brett W Aug 2014
It's now over a year later
I have now moved away
I have forgot about her
But this isn't the same

I feel the same as I was
Every other day I lived
Now I'm in all the buzz
The center of attention

She was a dear friend
That was inseparable
That reached the end
When we parted ways

Now I don't feel different
I feeling nothing special
Yet is what I am saying
Cause patience is crucial

This all is new to my life
Moving on from someone
To someone completely new
I now have a brand new you
And this cycle is never done
Until the ending of our strife
First, sorry for not posting for a while, been busy a lot with work.
So, think I have moved on from my ex, Sarah, but there is something different in my current relationship that I didn't feel in mine with Sarah. In a shorter sense, I felt more connected with Sarah. Even though she move 1.5k mikes away and I haven't seen her in about 15 months. I'm just going to let time and my patience create a closer bond between me and my current girlfriend. Thanks for reading and sorry again for not posting (also. I wrote this and I'm exhausted from a long, hard day so hopefully it makes sense)
Aug 2014 · 215
Gone Yet Watching
Brett W Aug 2014
You left me a long while ago
You moved away, leaving me
Paralyzing from head to toe
I am slowly able to break free
I now have moved on far away
I now feel energized and happy
I live to see another glorious day
While your end is closer to see
I feel that you are already dead
Watching over the world you left
Listening to every word that's said
And watching every single theft
You are watching me as I write
You are happy I have moved on
But it feels like you're out of sight
And you are now forever gone
First of all, sorry for not posting for a while, I've been busy with personal life, and then sorry for the blow up with 4 poems in like 5 minutes. Anyway, this poem is about my ex girlfriend that has cancer and I feel like she is already dead and is just watching every move that I make.
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