I let them make me,
now i have none to blame.
I try to deny,
but deep inside i know things aren't the same.

I pay for my actions with my name.

I've slept under the sun,
let the sun shine on me,
let the dark take over

I've tasted the rain
felt the cold seep through

loved, tried to hate, loved even more

laughed till i cried.
walked with all,
walked alone.

.hurt.scared.broken.happy.sad.

been on the edge,
been beyond.
felt the unexplained

fallen..lost..discovered..

seen people change
seen them walk away, the way they came
cried for what i lost
what i gained, what i left behind
laughed on nothing
made mistakes, made the same again
lost, yet won
won, yet lost
I've stared down the face of pain, not knowing where i am.

yet, I'm still standing here today

Another year bygone,
faiths tested, minutes wasted,
hours lost yet the seconds survived.

unfulfilled wishes, the abandoned hope,
the souring dreams, the expectations that rose.

a broken heart, the shed tears
the lost smile, the happiness i fear.

a series of triumphs, hosts of despair
longing for laughter, an escaped prayer
not everything ends up being fair

the losses mourned, and the treasured gains,
oh those lovely walks in the rain,
the wind on my face,
the life we live as a race

Oh, I am sorry!
But this is the end.
I didn’t want this,
But I can’t help
As you said,
There’s nothing wrong
So what’s there to mend?

Oh, I am sorry!
But this is the end.

The lost moments,
the forgotten memories.
celebrating happiness and calculating grief
of broken heart and shattered dreams
the unfulfilled wishes and hopes that lost sheen

love that slipped,
the seconds that were missed

inside and out
just don't know how to go about
a piece of me,
part of mine
into oblivion it all sublimes
an extent of pain, another more,
yet another closed door

living everyday,
the memoirs of sorrow

Make me heartless so I don't have to grieve,
over lost love and the ones who leave.

Times when I can’t find the words so right,
When happiness turns into fright
Times when I want to run away, for I can’t be me
And there isn’t anything that sets me free.

It hurts to be breathing for the pains too deep to be let gone
And no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to go on.

I don’t know till when I’d be on a test.
I don’t know what they say or is it me that I detest.

I can’t shut those eyes for they still seem to cry,
Nothing ever works no matter how hard I try.

Sometimes the light seems too bright,
'cause grims' gray has replaced all that was in sight.

The next day just brings in some more bad luck,
And in the end there’s no happiness to tuck.

The times when I want to sink in and disappear,
For my presence doesn’t count
and existence another arrear