i could explode form the inside.
every time you let me down.
I could feel o top of the world but
you can bring me underground.
and i don't want to love you like this.
why is a happy love so hard to find?
i need to discover something i can hold on to,
because id rather feel empty that hurt this much inside.

what do i do now? with tears splashing from my eyes.
where do i go from here? because the end of the road is within my sight.
and i know i can't go any further without losing myself along the way.
i cant seem to recover.

i sometimes forget how i love you.
only because time has put it in the back of my mind.
it's not that i don't think of you.
it's just that when i do, it's hurt a little less each time.
and then you go ahead and talk to me.
your words hitting me like bullets, they do.
And it all comes flowing right back to me.
and i remember how much i love you.

i am not sure i will ever clean you from my mind for good.
i wish i could just be hypnotized so that i would.
cause if i never knew you, i could live this life of happiness.
but then id forget all the good times. then would i be myself?

believe me darling i know my limitations,
but believe me once more i know how to break them,
crossing lines is a habit that's become so routine.
for a while all i did was try to behave,
standing behind lines i didn't know how to break.
i'm not hiding in the darkest corner this time.

i know now...

i cant live my life between the lines, i've got to walk on the outside,
or no one will ever watch me shine. & i can't live my life between the lines, i've got to trust myself to fly.
or no ones gonna see me shine.

believe me honey i know i've grown outside my skin.
this skin that i've felt so uncomfortable in.
and i like this.
believe me darling i know i'm not the same.
but i'm myself, and that's the change, i was reaching for the whole time.

What has happened to my sweet, sweet paradise?
i've been hitting walls left and right.
i feel like a mouse in a maze.
everyones eyes are glued to me.
and i can hear the sound of their words bouncing off the walls in my sanctuary.

i'm screaming, screaming, and none of you can hear me. take a moment and listen because i'm desperate for attention. I'm screaming, screaming, and ly lungs are finally giving out tonight. did you want to watch me see everything caving in on me?

how did i end up the sacrifice?
i never thought theyd pick me. i never thought itd be me.
i never thought id miss something i hated.
something that drove me to insanity and chased me out with frustration.

so let me out of here. i need to change this

this is not my cup of tea.
the way you are fluctuating,
one second youre here, then you're so good at being gone.

this is not where i was supposed to be.
i know we all break rules, but this wasn't in the cards for me.
one moment it's clear, and then you're so unpredictable and i can't see.

you should know that i'm not one for games.
i speak the words that i have got to say.

i don't want to watch you run anymore. just when i think you're finally here, you find a reason to scurry out the door. and it hurts every time i hear your footsteps getting quieter. you are the king of let downs.

this is not what i had hoped for.
this is not what we decided.
we connected. we had grown into eachother, on our common grounds,
so how come now we have divided?

you should know that i'm not one for tears.
i'm stronger than these fragile eyes appear. because i have to be.

when you book it out of here so fast, i can feel the lingering draft. it's like you never left at all. and i promise myself that i have rid myself of ever knowing and loving you this time. but i always change my easily swayed mind.

i used to sleep.
i used to dream of things.
i used to smile.
a smile that i meant once in a while.
now i've got this habit.
of painting emotions on my face.
to shield nieve ignorant eyes
from the mess that life has made of me
so i've made it so no one can see...

Behind these walls, that i've built here, i have found a place to hide.
i have broken down barriers before, so i know just how to do this right.
so i've put up these fences to protect myself from the stones i've seen you throw.
this is the only way i know how to let you go.

i used to breathe
i used to exhale.
even if you find me here.
you'll never catch me alive.
i used to want to love.
i wanted to love you with all the love i have inside myself.
but you've made me want to bottle it up and throw it away where no one can find it so.

I always say that this is the last time. and then i let you walk right  in. just to watch you let me fall. i don't have a safety net. i don't have another chance. you're going to break me down to nothing if i dont stand up and do something

i keep things vague and blurry so you can't see past these walls.
but the chemistry brewing may demolish this, and the barriers will fall.
i dont know how to be when you're around and its painful to think about it so hard.
i watch everything so closely, analyze it to the core. for every second spent together i dream of a half a million more...

Just give me something, give me anything at all. I'll drop everything and i'll be here. All i want is to be here but i want to be wanted, it's all i can hope. Just give me something and i wont even think to go.