Alexis J Meighan

Alexis J Meighan Nov 2012

As a matter of fact
"I Do"

This particular hospital visit has become an UnKnown drifting barge of cold,
Dismal,a bit austere and forlorn

Fatigue and tension was an early onset of the week.
Spent most the time looking for relief
Every attempt gave life to a unique defeat

An Inexorable desire for the calm to anoint me
I volunteer, then become abased, when they don't appoint me
Irritated When Lustful walls castigate me

Now the needle sings a seductive serenade of sedition,
Slowly, softening the soul to surrender to sleep and submission
That is the mental, and physical surrender, but what of the spiritual and emotional exhortation for permission?

I remain here not home
I prepare for the pain all alone
Dilaudid stirring up my veins and then some
Hoping to endow or maim some predilection from U,

-Alexis-

IN ROOM SILVER 6034 AT EVERGREEN HOSPITAL
my home away from home. no longer the cascade cancer center
under new management

Alexis J Meighan Oct 2012

TIME

Wish this subtle morning could of last.

The sun rises too often and too fast

Time moves at a full sprint

Never considering the people it flees from

Never thinking that somewhere in its track there is some one in a better place

...Because of a warm embrace

So keep running time

For now you have a good lead

But one day I'll catch you

And smother you till you concede

Xin

8-16-2010

Alexis J Meighan Oct 2012

Horse on a track (man on a trail)

Sell me it
The once held dear
Trade for it
The once worn on the sleeve
Barter and haggle
What once was fortified
Hold collateral to it
Though Once it came free
But a thought first before negotiation
Just ask with honesty
Where is your heart?

-Alexis J. Meighan-

Alexis J Meighan Oct 2012

Bedtime villain

Bedtime Villain

Cater to your need
Predator
Stalking to tease
Needing your pieces
pleading
Tasting your creases
Seeding you
Feeding your weakness
Inches seem endless
Clichés say breathless
While clenching tear the sheets
Tongues touch toes
Fingers pierce holes
Singing lyrics with moans
I alone seek your big O.
I take you and I make u
I thrash u and bath u
I hate u with love
like **** I intrude
Though consent we agreed upon
You struggle but no escape can be seen
Till I'm done in between, and have
Used every tool
From Face, protruding mounds from the waist
Hands, legs, embraces, and beggars pledge
I want you so bad
Its like death when denied
To live in you
Is like death when it ends
To have your flesh
Is the best death
-Xin-

Alexis J Meighan Oct 2012

What they say

What they say

The morning was long
My eyes fixed to the ceiling
Sound of cars, sound of rain, and solitude
Alone with my thought, and the grim feeling
A cold bed is pitiful
That's what they say

Mundane, tedious, routine
Brush then rinse, splash then finish
Drink a little eat and get dressed
My hunger diminished
A lonely house isn't a home
That's what they say

Took a stroll to the lake and sat
Waited for excitement to find me
Saw the people walking by and said nothing
Shy in my skin with my thoughts behind me
Don't let things pass you by
That's what they say

Wrote a love note to you
And a fair well page to the rest
Climbed the majestic oak for a view
Placed the rope around my neck
Didn't see that coming
That's what they'll say.

-XIN-

Alexis J Meighan Oct 2012

The Walk

∞∞∞∞☆♥*♥☆∞∞∞∞

Walk
What a walk from north to south
A turn from words to actions
A place of cold friction to heat unforgiving

Walk
What a walk from up to down
A session of want to need
Dried trees to ocean breeze
And the smell of the sea

Walk
What a walk from here to there
Shining a smile from ear to ear
Signing the point on, like a hip to skin bare
A firefly on the wall, in control
Rough while finding its way to the inside of the home

Walk
Walk as the road leads
Walk to concede, then run
Run as it is tracked
Facade that allures like the exposed spine on a weak back
Tell it ok then embrace that place
Walk to your own pace

Alexis J. Meighan

Remembering the subtle joys of California

Alexis J Meighan Oct 2012

Tragedy of the Grimm Fool

"Tragedy of the grim fool"

Skinny little girl knows no rules
Reset her brain for grim little fool
Ate moldy food and rotten gruel.
For the growing heart she uses jagged tools

Chipped building blocks and rusted nails
Hammered souls breed a face with vales
Wearing mask her task she fails
All for food while fool set sail

Skinny little girl would scrape her knees
Hungry for fool in position to plead
Panhandle emotions dignity set free
Scorn and thorn by his laugh was she

Adored by her fans, but blind to their praise
Withered away with puffed cheeks that her tears graze
Fool applauded her corruption, endorsed her dismay
Her fans just stared as she fell of stage

With a thud she slumped to the cold paved floor
A circle gathered around once more
Scarlet fairies escaped her pores
Goodbye skinny little girl, fool has closed the door.
-Alexis J. Meighan-