And if one day my depression wins....
Don't say I should have talked
Don't act shocked or rather confused
Claiming you never noticed me sinking into it.
If one day my depression wins, stop telling others that I would have been saved if only I had opened up
Don't lie to people that what has killed me could  easily be solved by sharing.
Just don't assume that opening up is the cure of depression.
If my depression ever wins,,, Stop judging me.
Stop wondering if suicide was the only option
Stop asking why I did this. Stop with the questions.
If one day my depression wins .. just know I tried my best.
Just know I gave it my all
Just know I did what had to be done.
If my depression wins don't mock me just understand me.
@marknyangacha

God, keep my heart attuned to laughter
when youth is done;
when all the days are gray days, coming after
The warmth, the sun.
God keep me then from bitterness, from
grieving,
When life seems cold;
God keep me always loving and believing
As I grow old.
"happy happy birthday to myself"
© marknyangacha

some decades ago
God placed you in our arms
we qualified to be parents too
Bewitched by all your charms

You learned to walk, to read
Each day brought something new
No more our little boy
You hurt, we cried at times, you grew

Sometimes you didn't need us
didn't want to hold our hands
Your independence made you proud
But we were a little sad

we blinked our eyes, we turned around
your almost grown we saw it
Why did it go so fast?
A few more moments please

In your struggle to be free
Sometimes we don't get along
But we're always on your side
we'll always be your parents
Regardless of what

You can't stop time, can't hold it back
Can't stop the ocean's tide
The good person that you are
Fills our hearts with pride

In our eyes there is no one like you
Can't wait to see what you'll become
Our pride and joy, we love you
Happy birthday to our  son
©marknyangacha

Another year older, another year wiser,
Another year to make your dreams come alive, sir.
May your birthday be filled with laughter and cheer,
And may you have an amazing year.
Happy Birthday, my dear friend!
Courtesy of chinduruche ❤️
@marknyangacha(son)

For the past 20 or so years I've looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself"if today were the last day of my life,would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row,I know I need to change something.
Marknyangacha the poet

I wonder do you dream of me, when you're in your bed, do I come to mind, when your desires must be fed

When you are wet and feeling *****, am I the one you see, when you gently stroke yourself, do you wish it's me

Playing with your *******, stroking through Black lace, when you close your eyes whilst you play, do you see my face

Fingers finding wetness, lace ******* pushed aside, do you imagine having me, when your ******* gets spread wide

Juices run down your hand, you give them a long slow ****, your ******* getting closer, in your dream we start to ****

One hand slips inside your bra, ******* hardening to its touch, the other buried between your thighs, playing with your crutch

Head tossed back you're ******* hard, you explode and soak the bed, when you play with yourself, I hope I'm in your head


@marknyangacha

Everyday in the morning when I woke up,
I wished that I could find  the first thing I saw to be my lover
Then I would promise myself that my day will be great,
unfortunately it was mere dreams in me.

I had been wishing too of finding my rib
could you imagine I had been thinking it was like a dream
thanks to God who brought us together
I can now testify that dreams come true
my love for you is unconditional,my Love

Words are not enough to express our love,
For its is beyond description,
It's all about me and you
And the love we hold and share now
for real I I think I met you,my Love

All my life has been waiting a goddess like you,
so cute,so lovely plus those heights in you,
I don't have things to give you like diamonds and pearls to you,
all I have for you ,is all of Love,my Love

😂😂😂I already salivated ,,,,,,,,,anyway happy life ahead

@marcoh the poet

The sparkle in your eyes,
The warmth of your skin,
Your breath on my neck,
That shakes me within.

The touch of your hand,
The smell of your hair,
The naughtiness in your smile,
That strength in your stare.

Your kiss on my lips,
Your body near mine,
The stroke of your touch,
Makes everything feel fine.

The compassion in your touch,
The power in your face,
The beating in your heart,
That we may never end our embrace.

The beauty of your kiss,
And that magic in your touch,
It is for all these reasons and more,
Why I love you so much..
@marcoh

I never imagined that there can be this day
A day that love found its way out
From my soul into your heart
That you are the only girl that makes me happy
These feelings are the only girl that makes me happy.

All my life I have waited a goddess like you
So beautiful, so lovely, plus that height though
Words can't express how I feel
I don’t have things to give like diamonds and pearl
These feelings towards you are all for real

I'll be your first and you will be the last
My world my everything, till my time is off
I'll always love you till the end of times
Coz you are the one that had stolen my heart
@marcoh

It's that look in your eye.
It's the smile on your face
That makes time slip by,
And I know I'm in a better place.

It's the memories of you I have
That make any grey sky turn blue
And lets me know these feelings I have
Are true.

Getting lost in my dreams
With the mere image of you.
It's hard to imagine; it seems
A future lost, one without you.

So I leave my arms open,
And I'll wish and may pray,
Eyes focused and hoping
For your embrace just one more day.
happy girlfriends day my love❤️❤️

If you get tired, learn to rest,
Not to Quit.
@marknyangacha

I'm not a racist but...
I can't marry them either,
I can't go out and hangout with them,
I can't share a room with them

I'm not a racist but,
They can't allow my daughter get married to them,
They can't let me inside their houses,
And I can't share an apartment with them either...

I'm not a racist but,
I can't get employed in their offices,
I can't share the same cab with them,
I can't be allowed in their meetings either...

I'm not a racist but,
Pursuing higher education I was discriminated,
They were awarded First Class without much struggle,
But I was given a PASS after so much efforts...
@marcoh

My own sweetheart,
My darling love,
You’re like an angel
From heaven above.

Our anniversary
Has a special glow,
Because you’re mine,
And I love you so!
Happy anniversary to us

Don't look into my eyes,
My face speaks too,
It's louder than a thunder storm,
As it strikes my face like lightening.

My love for you is true like the birth of Jesus,
Anointed it is,
Whether by hook or crook,
No man can lay us asunder,

My love can never be conditional,
Because it's not like a seasonal river,
It's continuity flows in my veins,
It's attached like a door lock to a door.

Leaving you! You don't say?
That's the worst nightmare,
A nightmare that I beg to wake up from,
I'm here to stay, wine and dine!

Never break the eye contact,
That's where our bond lies,
Nothing is impossible,
My love for you is till infinity!

I’ll be the warrior to fight for our love;
We’ll fly together, fly higher than the dove.
I’ll be your wall and shield you from danger;
I’ll take all the pains, for to me they are no stranger.
You’ll be the queen in the kingdom of my heart;
And then I’ll be the king, so we’ll never be apart.
You’ll be my majesty— I will serve you forever;
And for all of the times, I will leave you never
@marknyangacha

I cannot promise you a life of sunshine
I cannot promise riches, wealth, or gold
I cannot promise you an easy pathway
That leads away from change or growing old.
But I can promise all my heart's devotion
A smile to chase away your tears of sorrow
A love that's ever true and ever growing
A hand to hold in yours through each tomorrow
With you in my heart,
I know that our love will always shine
bright no matter where life takes us!! I love you my sweet babie
@marknyangacha

Don't look into my eyes,
My face speaks too,
It's louder than a thunder storm,
As it strikes my face like lightening.

My love for you is true like the birth of Jesus,
Anointed it is,
Whether by hook or crook,
No man can lay us asunder,

My love can never be conditional,
Because it's not like a seasonal river,
It's continuity flows in my veins,
It's attached like a door lock to a door.

Leaving you! You don't say?
That's the worst nightmare,
A nightmare that I beg to wake up from,
I'm here to stay, wine and dine!

Never break the eye contact,
That's where our bond lies,
Nothing is impossible,
My love for you is till infinity!
lots of love for you moraa
© marcoh

LOVE IN ME
Don't look into my eyes,
My face speaks too,
It's louder than a thunder storm,
As it strikes my face like lightening.

My love for you is true like the birth of Jesus,
Anointed it is,
Whether by hook or crook,
No man can lay us asunder,

My love can never be conditional,
Because it's not like a seasonal river,
It's continuity flows in my veins,
It's attached like a door lock to a door.

Leaving you! You don't say?
That's the worst nightmare,
A nightmare that I beg to wake up from,
I'm here to stay, wine and dine!

Never break the eye contact,
That's where our bond lies,
Nothing is impossible,
My love for you is till infinity!
© marcohnyangacha

Yo've chosen another one,
Were maddening by someone,
But I chose you charitably,
Loving you is incredibly.
You treat me so dismissively.
You still think I love you,
But that's definitely untrue.
In your new relationship
Are there tenderness, blessedness ?
Or only a bitterness ?
You're not my enemy anymore...
I'm looking for a new one more.
That's not the end...
This is the beginning!
Thank you, me blossom winning,
For this year end.
@marknyangacha

collapsed in tears of pain
so lost in heavy confusion
how did things get so messed up
Please help me now is all i can say
God, hear my cries and see my tears
this is not what i wanted
i begged for it to not happen this way
so unsure i am of many things
i am still so young
i just cant handle this
so if you are there
know i am crying out in desperation
Please save me from my pain
but there is just an empty silence all around
Please, i don't want to be lost and so alone
Are you there? Are you even real?
waiting for answers i can only think
maybe i am not worth saving...
or maybe just meant to endure this pain.
@marknyangacha

PAIN OF REJECTION

Once again am in the same test,
There is a lot of pain in my chest,
For how long should I mantain optimism?
the pain though😓

It's a wound that never stops bleeding,
But still showing some gratitude,
for how long should I except defeating?
the pain though 😓

She tempted me to love and I thought I got solace,
I thought I would settle with her ,
But therafter the feelings dried up instantly,
The pain though😓

Here I am asking myself the same question again
Really does true love exist?
Today I still wonder if true love is real
The pain though😓
@marcoh

Some call me the Madman
Others the ****** boy
But am just a poet, I write whilst crippled in my bed, from erotica or Vampires and Roses, whatever grows inside my head

*******, whipping, floggings, outfits worn for *** roll play, the kinks inside my poetry change from day to day

Tales of abduction, locked up in a dungeon, dark and deep, tales of pretty *****'s and how I love to make them seep

Handcuffs and being tied down, with rope, zip ties and chains, an endless list of ******* styles, that hide deep inside my brain

I also write of sweet romance, of a never ending deeper love, of Angels disguised as mere mortals, sent from high above

Tales full of passion and ****** games so full of lust, relationships between Dom and Subs and how they're built on trust

So I thought I was just a poet, who wrote poems about the thoughts I think, it seems there's more than that to me, I'm a poet with a kink

marknyangacha

With what’s lovely and good
         When they pass me in the street
         They fill my nose with sweet scent.
          Girls are made to fill the world

          They are like a jasmine tree
        With green eyes so full of glee
          Smoothest touch with lovely hue
          I see them as charming view

          Those old men who are so prim
          Stare at them with their old whim
          Claiming that girls have lost their share
          They gape at them just to blame

          Girls for me can make a wife
          Mothers who bring us to life
          Sisters who can be so great
          Daughters who are hearts and sight
          @marcoh

My scars remind me of many things…😢
Some I want to remember and others I want to forget.
I am pure to the truth but I swell in regret.
Shame, pain, triumph, strength… scars represent.

There are no badges to wear;
I have no pride to hide.😢😢
I am not a product of the stories;
I refuse to be a prisoner of my descents.

The past is often forgotten...
Memories distort beyond recognition.
Scars will fade, darken, stretch and shrink.
But the deep ones stay; I still can’t forget.😢
@marknyangachapoetry

I was just the new boy here
Brand new to her town
What I needed was a ***** girl
She gave me a ***** look around
we got back to her place
She gave me quite a whirl
All I wanted to do
Was inside her pearl.


She leaned upon her bedroom wall
Looked into my eyes
Spread her legs said, “come on”
“enjoy your special prize”
I pined her to her to the plastered wall
She wrapped me in her arms
I ****** her like a paper doll
Setting off smoke alarms.


Then her dad came running
Barging through the door
His precious daughter **** to the wall
*** dripping on the floor……..[to be continued]
@marcoh254

Time is not refundable,
Use it with intention
@marknyangacha

When I grow up,
I Wanna Date a Poet,
They are the most romantic people,
With sweet dripping romantic lines,
When their pens cry,
They bring comfort to broken souls,

They pour out their hearts on paper,
Without holding anything back,
Expressing their fears,
Expressing their longings,
The kind of honesty,
That is rare!

Their pens never dry,
Spitting out love,
Spitting out hope,
Bringing hope to the hopeless,
Restoring back stolen happiness,
Without seeking any appreciation,

Apart from being dejected and rejected,
They never give up,
They believe in art,
As their words come deep from their hearts,
They're the best thing nature ever gave,
And I Wanna Date a Poet
@marknyangacha

What if nature is not fair to you bruh,
What if I marry your girlfriend,
What if I kiss her,
What if I treat her better than you did,
What if I live my promises with her,
Will you be mad at me?

What if she finds the love of her life in me,
What if I send sweet romantic poems to her,
What if I go with her to the movies,
What if I build a home with her,
What if I get kids with her,
Will you forgive me, bruh?

What if she lies to you only to be with me,
What if she fails to come meet you,
Only to come and hang out with me,
What if she lies to you she doesn't sing,
But sings to me the whole night,
Will you be stupid to believe her?
What if I am the hero in her dreams,
What if her heart melts only when she sees me,
What if she introduces me to you as her cousin,
And deep inside I'm her secret lover,
What if she pecks me in front of you,
Will you be kind enough to give us a space?

When that time comes,
When I finally marry your girlfriend,
Don't be mad instead be happy,
For she will be secure,
Safe in the arms of a poet,
A Madman who makes her feel complete!

©marcoh

WHO WILL FIX MINE?????

I thought I was just
I thought fixing my life to yours was best
You were so sad
You were dijected
I fixed you with the best of intension

I brought you happiness at first
I took away all your pain
I thought you how to redeem yourself
You carried on
You appreciated my love
And my existence as well

Now you broke my heart
I nolonger have a place in you
Am just a nobody
All the appreciations are gone
I can't tell if you ever loved me
Am lost

Who will fix mine
I need someone to bring me fecility
Someone to take away my pain
Someone to teach me how to redeem myself
Someone to help me move on
I want someone to fix me.
@marcoh