I hear the banging on my door,
I hear the screaming in my head,
I see the awful pictures in my head,
and the awful videos on repeat,
and it makes me wish that I was dead.

I love the idea of letting all my problems and feelings go,
but I am afraid to die,
I feel like I am lost in a void and am numb, and I wish I didn't,
but then again, I am afraid of feeling things, and if I feel more than I do now...
people will wish I didn't.