Pine - Hello Poetry

Pine Dec 2017

If I could put tears into words would you understand me then?
would you understand my love
Would you understand the pain
Telling you my fears and concerns
When All I hear are vicious words in return

I'm just trying to convey my mind
To explain my heart
But you won't even let me start

I'm trying to say
I feel like I'm wasting away
My life is in limbo
And I need a guide
I'm reaching out to you
For some needed advice

For love is kind
And I need your love
To help me through
This difficult time

Pine Nov 2017

Melancholy Sea

Ah, well
We're all just swimming
In a sea of melancholy

Surfacing here or there
For a breath of fresh air
The moon pulls us
Back around
Into the evening chill
Where the night is still
And makes few sounds
In these moments it's
When we rise
Filling our lungs
Above the tide

The air is crisp and clean
We are free and unseen
To write to our hearts desire
The dawn peaks around the corner
And we dive back in until
The moon resides lonely in the dark

Pine Nov 2017

The Bees

Have you ever heard
The sound of a bee
Buzzing along the flowers
To stop and listen to their tune for hours?
to not be afraid of a sting
But to listen to their tiny wings
Beating the odds as they sing
Their pollen song in the spring
Peace can be found
In the smallest of moments
If you stop and listen
To the bees

Pine Jun 2017

Barely Breathing

I just want it to end
I can barely breathe
In here

My soul is blackening
My lungs collapsing
For a final breath
I ache

Am I even worth
Saving at this rate?

I am criticized
marginalized
My heart has
Shrunk in size

All I wanted
Was the love
I was promised
But that is too
Hard to provide

Pine Jun 2017

I'm Tired

Darkness is drowning me
Even in daylight
Even when I'm smiling

Darkness is swallowing me
As you sit next to me
Thinking I'm alright

I'm on an island of misery
The waters are poisonous
Yet I am thinking of
Taking a drink

I just want it to end
I'm so very tired
Of feeling this way

Pine May 2017

Frustrated With Myself

Sitting here staring blankly
Into my phone screen
Not knowing what to do
Why do I let you treat me this way
Why did I let you so far into my heart
Just to remind me why I had walls up

I have never let anyone
Make me feel this way
Make me cry this hard
Or
This often

I'm so angry at myself
Because I continue
To love you anyways

Pine May 2017

Silent Plea

I am drowning in this darkness
A sea of my own depression
I really need your help
But you're too far consumed
By your own image and electronics
To see me struggling to breathe

I was always there to grab your hand
When you fell into the deep end
You're supposed to be my friend
My shoulder to cry on
But when I need you
You're not there
You're hiding from me

I am only so strong
How long before I slip
Beneath the waves?