Lips like a smooth spirit in a dense glass.
Drink from my pain slow, I hope you don't
Crash.

I felt her cold on me like a winter dawn
White.
Gasp for my air boldly, it's a long night.

Eyes pierce heavy with little room to flee.
Waltz with the devil if you crave the energy.

All my thoughts running with the
Stampede in my head.
I tried to tame the beast, it started
Teething instead.

Don't you cry... nightmares got you
Peeing the bed?
And when you don't, you only have
Dreams of regret.

Regretting all the moves that you
Made in the dim.
Got bedtime prayers for a lifetime of
Sin.

Never had to question if it's water, if
It's wind,
But the things that I've seen even
Make the blind squint.

From my friends and lover,
To siblings and mother,
My father, my doctor...

Just please keep it
Honest.

If I died today, like the
Dearly departed,
Y'all tears would last miles
From the point that they started.

And that's so hard to say,
'Cause the days I could breathe,
Y'all were one step away
In the distance near me.

I ain't tryna be perfect.
I'm good at flirting with the devil.
With intentions always certain,
I can never play the victim
If I caused the others hurting.
But I ain't give another reason
To get treated like a merchant..
Like a servant
So indentured,
You can't even see she's worth it.

You ain't gonna step up, are you?
Mrs. Get it done when I want.
Procrastination's gonna harm you.
Don't be hating on my blunt.
That's the only thing that seems to
Warm you.
And now, I don't give a ****.

That's what you wanted.
What you asked for.

All this pain is past due.
You talking tryna glue it,
But I'm looking right past you.
Can't be crying, looking foolish.

You don't deserve a look from my eyes,
When they searched your heart for
So long.
You wish you could make me believe
I'm tripping, but that is just so wrong.

And we ain't got no old songs.
No rings and no future.
Nothing left so baby so long.
That distance gon be torture.
But for you, not me.
I'm used to being lonely.
Only difference is, I'm still alone,
You just can't hold me.

Keeping my composure with a
Composition pad.
I'm committed to compassion
And I'm passionately sad.
I'm competing with competitors
That show no competition.
My work ethic is persistent,
All my wisdom blocks the ignorance.
But I can't stay that optimistic and
Surrounded by indifference.
The injustice is indignant.
See, my mind can tell the difference.
With all the hate I be deflecting,
And my love they stay rejecting,
I'm simply drifting in the mist of
This.
The mystery of wishfulness;
It glistens and it whistles so blissfully,
But licorice
Is sweeter than the outcome of
Me laughing while I slit my wrists.
But not as bitter as a Hell on earth. I
Step on dirt and cigarettes--
Disgust me much, but marijuana
Seems to bring deliverance.
See, Mary wanna be a ******.
Joseph is so sick of this.
I'm praying to my God regardless,
Let Him add his finishes.
Can't stay here long, I got to go,
I swear, I'm getting rid of this.
These ain't tears that's on my cheeks
Love, see, these the roads of distances.
Let's not settle out our differences.
Should've settled all my dividends.
I should be held and given kisses
*****,
Not accused of having mistresses.
My love is warm, my soul is kind,
And yet my heart receives these
Hits so brisk.
Maybe if I bleed out by the end,
They'll finally miss the kid.

Where's that dress I like on you?
Wear that dress I like on you,
At my funeral.

You'll look so beautiful.

And with your heart full of pain,
I'll have no blood in my veins,
At my funeral.
We'll look so beautiful.

It's the death of me and the death
Of us.
The death of life and the death of
Lust.
Who are the ones that you really
Trust?
You won't understand 'til I return to
Dust.
'Til I return to dust.
Life and death's a must.
We riot then rot.
Let the reasons rust.

I won't argue with you because your
Lies are just.
But if I'm dead, I can't even fuss.

At my funeral,
You'd look so beautiful.
And it's okay to cry.
For real, it's crucial to.
I ain't never met someone as
Cool as you.
I hope your last glance at me ain't
Unusual.

You don't wanna know what I
Think under my sheets.
I cuddle with my pillow, close my eyes
And count my sheep.
I don't ever get to sleep, so I'm tossing
And I'm turning,
And I'm tryna knock this feeling.
It's an aching and a burning.
It's a yearning and a craving.
A desire for a touch.
My body whispering her name,
I keep telling it to hush.
But it ain't tryna stay quiet, so I ain't
Putting up a fight.
And if we're being honest, I'm tryna
Love on her tonight.
So, I get out of bed, and open the
Window for a breeze.
As the air hits my skin, I'm wishing
It was her touching me.
Her hands are a paradise. I'm stressed
Out, need release.
Her lips are the only thing that'll
Give me inner peace.
So, I'll weep every night
And never sleep every night,
Because her love is the only thing I
Need every night.
But until I get her love and the
Rest that it brings,
I'll be tossing every night, still
Thinking 'bout these things.

My heart is the home you should
Lay your head.
Lay your head on my chest and
Rest.
I promise you that I can give my
Best.
My best is amazing, it is nothing less.
You are nothing less than a *** of gold.
For all your love, my soul is sold.
I'm comfortable with it growing old.
I just hope that you never flip or fold.
But you can fold my heart in two,
If you,
Decide my pain is beautiful.
I won't cry. I won't even lie,
I'll just give my life and my truth to
You.

Who's the one you wanna hold
In the night time?
I'll be calling your name 'til
I'm alright.
Nah, I'll be smoking my pain
Through a hot pipe.

I'm a hothead when it comes to
Hotspots.

Don't have me out here looking
Stupid for a long kiss.
Quite easy to love and hard to dismiss.
You're dismissive with aggression
In an instance.
You make me question my whole
**** existence.
And I'm persistent with my faith
In this distance.
Never gonna cheat. I'll never need
A mistress.
But ima warn you, I can turn really
Distant.
I be feeling that neglect with my
Wrists slit.

And with my wrists slit,

If I ever bleed much,
Please bury me right behind a
**** bush.
Get high with the ghosts until
They see us.
Nah, I don't ask much, but believe
I need much.

If you're blind, if you're blind,
Gouge your eyes out.

I'm the one you wanna hold in the
Night time.
I'm the one you wanna hold in the
Night time.
But I ain't calling your name for a
Long time.

That girl don't love me like she
Say she do.
If she did, she'd make herself
More available.
But she don't, she leaves me in
The cold air.
She leaves me broken, with no
Care.
I often find myself excusing this.
I blame it on my uselessness.
That girl don't need me like she
Say she does.
I'm just a swift enjoyment.
An energy rush.
And now she's burnt out, with no need
To give
And now I'm burnt out with no reason
To live.
I'm not love sick nor love ridden.
She must've forgotten she's forgiven.
Forgetful and smitten.
My heart can't take the
Torture.
That girl don't love me like she
Say she do and I
Cannot force her.

This plan right here is foolproof.
Ima kick back under a cool roof,
With my eyes closed and my
Blunt packed.
So there's no room
For my family to talk smack.
And I'm a real friend,
But I'm lonely.
I gotta let this warm food
Hold me.

Because who else will?
That's a good question.
All my trauma has taught me
Lessons.
And the best one
That I've learned yet,
Is there's no freedom
If you ain't hurt yet.

And maybe I'm a little
Biased.
But you'd be too,
If right behind your eyelids,
Were eyes that
Seen such violence--
That you begged to become quite
Blinded.

Because this ****'s real,
But your dreams ain't.
Eat your meals three times
On a green plate.
It reminds you
To be a cheapskate.
You need full pockets
To dine on lean steak.

I done told them,
And I done warned you,
That all of America is scorned too.
The politicians and the
Potheads.
Your family tree looks more
Like a cobweb.

Your addiction is the way
You numb pain.
Your ***, your drugs, your
Slot games.
You hate it, but you hate this
Life more.
You pray? Do you pray to the
Right Lord?

Do you force yourself,
Just like me?
Don't feel bad. Inside we're
All just dying.

You're awfully beautiful,
But not an awful person.
Is it even possible to love you
Without being a whole burden?
I'm nervous and uncertain
'Cause you neglect my heart so
Often.

Things ain't looking too straight.

They only feel you when it's
Too late.
Please keep that same energy when
My wrists leak that
Cruel lake.

They'll be swimming in regret
Next to the crocodile--

Tears.

They not gonna feel me with their
Heart,
Nor will they listen with their
Ears.
They gonna drown me in their
Fears.

The very memory of me.

The way my brow dripped with
Hurt.
The way my eyes lacked a gleam.

Don't ask me what this means,
Because the average friend could
See.
That where's there's sorrow,
There's no tomorrow.
So death just had its way with
Me.