Too addicted to social media
Lost the present
I don’t feel the God’s presence
Within or around me
The universe ain’t talking to me no more
I’m not stalking you no more
But your stupid posts are reaching me
In the social media
Easy dopamine addicts
Shortened attention spin
Ain’t meditative
Mad to the very depth of our minds
Looking here, looking there
Looking everywhere for something
Something important or pleasures
We’ve lost ourselves in constant scrolling
Of other people thoughts
Applying them on us
Who needs life when we got movies?
Who needs adventure when we got the comfort zone?
Don’t wanna leave it, do you?
I’m so ******* dreamy, lost in my head
Seems like I’ve lost my heart somewhere there too

I’m too far away from myself
Too far away from what nurtures me
Few days back I found out
That my name means “sea” in Persian
It took me almost twenty eight years
To learn that
But it made sense completely
As water my home
And when I’m far away from it
I’m feeling homesick
I’m feeling blue
As deep blue waters
The tender touch of the waves
With my feet on the soft sand
I really miss that
I feel like I’m in another galaxy
Or maybe another dimension
Where everything is so strange
And doesn’t make sense
Even the air and the atmosphere
Doesn’t suit me
The local air causes cough
I don’t understand people’s jokes
Their motivation and motive
Their purpose of life
Well… don’t get that either
As they don’t get me
Se la vi

I want to learn how to fight
So then no one can hurt me
Those who are strong are always right
And ain’t the opposite
Karma will be bought with money
While spots in heaven are sold out
It’s truly a hard place honey
If you’re not strong enough- you’re out
That’s why I wanna learn how to fight
So my fists will know how to answer
Or start the conversation
But for now I am too weak
Too weak to speak in a fist language
I also wanna know
How to get my feelings under control
Because what I feel, I feel too much
And this world is ruled by heartless people

Too many implications which we are not
Mind hectic, dosha imbalance
Make sense out of this madness
Bet on your sanity, trying to crack the riddle
Not this, nor that, what is it?
A stranger in your own body
Disconnected from the authentic
Not this, nor that
The roots forgotten
Still seeking the truth
In the blinding darkness
Stumbled upon the eye opener
Your salvation is surrender
And recognition
Not this, nor that
Delirium
Who’s playing human
Forgets he’s not the character
Not this, nor that
Acknowledged being lost
At least knows that he is not that
Philosophy for hopeless nutcase
Drop, drop the hopes
Not this, nor that
Be here and now
Don’t listen to your head
The mind is sick
And spreading poison
Not this, nor that
Not that, nor this
Forget forget
Drop drop
Illusion drop
Not this, nor that
It’s only in your head
A thinker stop to think
Not this, nor that
Not this, nor that
It’s only in your head

I just need a friend to cry
On his shoulder
Oh I wish I never grew older
If I could I’d erase last two years
Of my life
But it’s useless
To regret of the past
I know it is useless
But I still do
Sometimes I just wish
That I never knew you
(Cause now you’re gone anyway)
I almost don’t think about you
But in my dreams you’re chasing me
Your voice, your face
Are chasing me
And I’m not changing
Not at all
I’m just the saddest of them all
And there’s no use for me
I’m just existing
Like a wild flower
I’m weak
I’ve got no power
Anyone can pluck me out
This soil doesn’t fit me anyway
Doesn’t nurture me
And you ****** the life out of me
I was so alive!
I was alive!
I was alive!
Alive!
Alive!
I was
But I’m not anymore
Not anymore
We are not anymore
We aren’t
****…
But I was alive before you
Where has she gone?
I don’t recognize myself
Everyone’s doing something important
Achieving their important goals
Living up to their dreams
And it all makes sense
But I do not make any sense
Not at all
and I don’t know how to make any sense
All the ways lead to the dead end