Notepad

Notepad Jan 27

Pride

I gave you all of me
Till my knees turn blue
I beg to see the beauty
And all you see is you
Promises kept breaking
I knew we were losing
Bleeding from the shards of hope
Enduring every step I was taking
I choose you more
Cause there was no one else waiting
You brought me to life
But took it all back
All you see is you
In the beauty of silence
It just proves it true

Its hard to sleep and harder to wake up now

Notepad Jan 25

Solitary

I opened my eyes
Trying to find hope
Glaring at the trees
Waving hello
A sunlight's kiss
And coffee in my lips
Tears fall in silence
Holding a smile within

It's been difficult to understand love in walks through life. How things can and can't be put together, how shapes don't match the shadows of our past, making healing harder to face every single day. And lights just stays dim in every moment I breathe. I'm trying to move forward but I keep looking back, hoping it would enlighten me to know what the future means to me. That having someone to move makes it feel less lonely, a journey to share a life with, but it never was and now I forget that I'm someone too, that I'm human too and within this bittersweet silence, I find myself little by little and hopefully someday would know what is real and isn't.

#letting #go #acceptance

Notepad Jan 19

Hopeless

I use to believe a promise was worth everything
That forever was something
That fighting for you was loyalty
That an embrace was home
And keeping each other warm
Showing every beat of my heart was true
And in my blood was no lie
That I truly did love you
And never second thought my care

But the absence of you
Made everything I did was nothing
Forcing a smile as I drown in pain
Watching hope evaporate
Till I no longer exist in your eyes
That my name will sound familiar
And friends was in no favor
So strangers was the answer

I know it's dumb but I feel *******...

Notepad Jan 18

Forgotten

I'm sure you loved me,
In the basement of your heart,
Where I rot alone,

#weep #broken

Notepad Jan 18

Water

A figure of bittersweet
Keeping me offbeat
Let my eyes find peace
As the sun glitters the sea
Engulfed in body of water
Till my lungs could grow stronger
Living in the shades of blue
In the ocean I find truth
Surely blue is good.

How it feels to be blue ( to me at least )

Notepad Jan 8

Humans

Bonded in spirit
Distance doesn't break our hearts
Than to be strangers (again)

Hate me if you must, but know matter where we are, you are no stranger to my heart. Forget me if you will, but memories last forever.

Notepad Jan 5

River Bed

Laying down,
Close my eyes,
Oh my love,
It's hard to say
goodbye
I know,
I tried
I ******* tried,
To accept it all
And risked it all,
To be with you
Cause I know it's true,
But there was no word
Nothing
From you,
Nothing at all.
Till I float away
From this river bed,
Staying alive,
Hoping to see
Myself
Again

I tried to see the good, only to be fed with false hope...

#broken