for the first time in a while i don't hate myself today i poured out my soul and sure there was pain but to be free from captured thoughts and seeing the visions play out almost exactly how they did in my mind i feel almost unshackled now and for the first time ever i'm not afraid of the outcome i'll still feel a lot but i won't regret much in the long run i can't change your mind i cant even change mine and as much as i want to make things right i can't continue if this is just gonna be another fight and i won't feel bad for shutting us down because if we can't listen to what the other is saying who are we kidding and what is the reason for staying
i've finally got nothing to prove if i can find happiness without you then that is what i'll choose and i hope you do too
the old frustrations so obvious now it only took a few hits to figure it out it only took a few years to have my head above the waves probably a few more before i actually mean what i say
gagging at the thought of my past versions to stagnation and over-emotion i've developed an aversion a reflex i can't help i can try to forgive myself but i will never be proud of making do than doing well
spitting acid when i could have offered compromise making myself some sort of martyr of unnecessary sacrifice where i should've countered with kindness and open-mindedness i curled into negativity causing my own blindness
running a psychological deficit standing on the precipice that the only answer might be watching everything burn and just letting it