I'm always okay for a while

tape on the bottom of the door

but then the water presses hard

and the tape falls on the floor

and flood runs in

and the cold walls lock me inside

of this hellish nightmare

what a surprise

no one heard the scream  

no one knows what I almost did

but the inevitable is coming

the air is turning thick

and my heart

is a vessel

that's holo like a drum

god it hurts so bad

And I never manage to run

Im embarrassed to tell

it's pathetic really

but it hurts so much

why does it hurt so much?

what am I waiting for?

a night in shining armour?

a breath of life?

or for when

the water swells up

way above my chin

it crushes my lungs

rips away that small

a sliver of life left in me

my soul is so dark

you couldn't see the bottom even if you tried +