I'm so done with what this world has become, everyone turning on everyone. Watching blood run dry when your mother turns her eye and watches her son destroy his life. What a sad time to be alive. But this is what it is to exist. Everyone has there own issue that they have to go through , but it seems to you that yours are bigger then every other person that roams this earth. It is What it is I guess , you can't change the soul if the body doesn't want to follow. So you watch as the family you love slowly slip away into there own insanity, its kind of maddening wondering why I'm still trying to help cause all they do is yell at me and there telling me I'm the one over reacting to watching my loved ones killing themselves off....it's kind of crazy cause I'm not talking about suicide I'm talking about mental illness and the damaging affects it leaves in someone's brain and it something that affects me , you , your families and everyone thats around you.

I just wanna see you one more time.....

So I can spit in your ******* face for making me think I wasn't good enough,
For making me lay In my bed with tears swelling in my eyes wondering what I did wrong, why you didn't love me the way I loved you.
For making me even ******* think that you loved me in the first place.

******* and every **** thing you stand for.
Those green eyes you have only hide the real piece of human garbage you actually are.
I hope one day that you meet a girl that makes you feel the way you made me feel about you and she puts out your flame like you did too me.

*******

Fall in love with the person who made you believe in soul mates when you had no hope there was anyone in this world who was right for you

You shall lose your battle to win my heart.
I do not care for a man that shows his bronze.
I care for a man that can show me passion and elegance.
I am a woman of the court and of the higher virtues.
I shall love you and be your Queen ,
But you must lay down your weapons and show me more then the masculine side that I've only known for my hand in marriage.
So go on with your quest let's just hope that in the end you show me what I want see with my own 2 looking glasses or be gone from my presence for a thousand new moons.

You're voice can make the craving for a cigarette disappear.
No one before you has been able to achieve that .
They were the reasons why my packs ended up empty so fast.
But You.....



You destroy the urge to light up a stog and **** myself a little faster.

The first graze of each others skin touching sparked a little spiritual energy.
I knew from that moment you were more like me then I thought.
I saw the eyebrow rise and the smirk you gave me too.
You knew.
We both knew.
Possessing the abilities to feel others emotions by touch by the energy they give off is an amazing ability but also a curse at times.
Being an Empath and finding someone of that same nature with the same spiritual strength is something truly magical .

You make me wanna say things I shouldn't say.
You spoke that to me as we laid together.
The feeling is mutual but we stay silent for the fear of being broken again.
Time has taken its toll on both you and I .
Love lose and heart shattered.
Time and Time again.
Both just trying to coexist together without being torn apart molecule by molecule .
We fear each others exists cause of the close attachment already forming between us.
Just we both can't realize that one anothers intentions are just too be together and fall into the deep abyss we call love.