Taking in the death
Is such a peaceful way
To lay yourself to rest
Slowly without family to notice
No more having to "stay below the wrist"
More so how much can i drink
Before i become another risk
I sit up in my dark room
Illusions in the black walls that never end
My illusions are that my life will end
Before i even got to see it begin...

Draining through the divide
I remember upon a time
I just wanted to die
Once i lost so many i found myself,
Everyday a struggle, a WANT to be alive
I know you want someone to share equal eyes
But once you hurt enough
You look forward to goodbyes
Those late nights with dry nd happy eyes
You never thought theyd be your demise
If you'd've known the end date
You never would've swung
Messing around with too much trash
Will have anyone feeling glum
I know they made you smile
Wasnt it so much fun?
If kept down that same path
I wouldve eaten a gun



But thats not me now
The good parts just begun
I wake up excited for the day
Those sat inside are thoroughly thrown away
Once a mad hatter, now a star in LA.
Ill settle for the moon in the sky
For the only girl to draw my eye.
Since i was born
We've been side by side
Not once you've ever made me cry
Hold you close; loved youll always feel
Old stained love letters
Written by Quill
"If you stay with me forever
Love you i always will."
- You Never Need Anyone

**** why
**** where
This hole in my chest
Might just get the best
Don't lie
Don't swear
Put all my friends to sleep
Go rest
Come quiet,
Not scared

I think im losing my mind

My brain hurts behind my eye

At the end of each day talking to you

I ask myself why?

Try & try just to die

Falling behind in life

The feeling of knives

Too deep in my back

My last vision; the sky

Why oh why

Must the bad keep on

When those who fight

Struggle to dream calm

When my soul darkens

Ill look at you

Damning you to see life in MY shoes

Maybe youll see yourself, the world? Its heart?

If id known you were the devil

I'd've walked away from the start

Nasty taste in my mouth

Your name. So ****

WHO THE **** SAID YOU COULD HAVE ME

Or let alone,  my thoughts

I gave you everything

What's left? The dark?

It's the room you left me in

When you stood and took haste

Ashamed of yourself & me of my face

One look at it and all i see are mistakes

Hurt in my eyes. And my back? A stake

Memories of you, a year ago on this date

I'm holding back tears

Cuz i fear you ****** up fate

I held on so tight

And you? Late

Sitting up after hours thinking of those days

That turned into weeks that added to months

...i remember what it felt like

To hold your hand, Once.

Soil me soil my...

I wish you'd only apologize

For turning all blind eyes.

I can't not feel sad
It puts me in a box
My box of sad
None of you care
All u can say is life ain't so bad
Chin up bucko
It won't last
U belittle my pain
U ignore my roses
When my petals are beaten and brown
I know when i goto seek your love
I wont hear a sound
For the lust is gone
Like sand on the beach, so many of thee
I can tell your emotions are fading
Based off the last few weeks..
How do i end this love
So lovely in my eyes
It procured so rapid
I think both of us were just going rabid
Sometimes i couldnt stand it.

If your love is real
And keeping my heart is still the deal
Show me that your ribs mean more to you
Than just a cage of steel
Guarding your heart
It beats, SO REAL
Fade from my eyes, like the sun
Before our last meal
Lay down lay down
But please, be quick to forget me
For i am in no just memory to you
Seems as of lately i just cater to you
How am i supposed to walk straight
When all you do is add more weight
I wish to run fast,
to break all your chains
I wish to end fast, to leave all the pain.

This ****'s like a needle in my vein
Easing out
Slowly taking my pain
I don't think ill stay
You're water im flame
What was i thinking
You're changing, ..im the same
You're breaking. & ..im insane

You seem to get angry with what i see
So i don't understand why so angry when it's just what you showed me.. i wanted someone like me but you just turned out to be another who's soon to leave