I hate having to
Sneak those glances.
  But I guess I'll have to
Live like this forever.

Sneaky glances and
     Unspoken feelings.

                                      Oh and            Just so you know,
                            You look really
                      handsome
                 From a
       Sideways view, dear.

everything is so dead
even with my heart
rhythmically pounding
everything is so dumb
in bed motionless, staring at the ceiling
I listen to the beat of the booming world that is surrounding, its trying to revive me
everything is so ugly
I'm full of negativity and the glass is half empty
I'm not alive
how is it I'm still breathing