a pill I've waited  
an eternity for
has finally cleared my head

in this body
discoveries await where  
happiness can now be spread

I sit and wonder
what life would've been
the life I could've led

if I wasn't sad
felt worthless and mad
or wanting to end up dead.

z.m.

I wish to have a simple life
one where my emotions are seldom
and thought is limited to happy things

I wish that my short life
be hidden in the crowd
and tucked away

for I wish not to live
within the four walls
of my broken mind

z.m.

atop my tiny raft I float
moving with the waves
ebbing with the ocean

my raft is small
but it chooses to float
a promise we agreed upon

the ocean is loud
and I can find myself
capsized with my boat

but once the storm is done
I flip my raft over
and begin to float once more

z.m.

come sit by me
and keep me company
by the fireplace

tell a story
one with a happy ending
like in the movies

make me forget myself
and where my body resides
like I could leave it if I chose to

allow my mind to wander
into your utopia
and forget that I sit here

by this fireplace
under the bridge

z.m.

the city stares back at me
through a clouded window
echoing the buzz of
shuffling feet and car engines
the reassuring hum of living

the grey of the buildings
reflect on the waves
in my coffee cup
warping the scene and
making time seem like a mirage

I made it to this city
on my own
wandering amongst the night lights
as if they would lead me to home
but they led me here

they illuminated a
minuscule apartment
at the end of the street
with tiny gardens growing
in the veins of the walls

it is here
that I sit on the couch
drink my coffee
and look through the ***** window
where the city stares back at me.

z.m.