What's one of your biggest annoyances?
Let's see...

When people don't listen,
When tables are turned,
when hearts get broken,
when it is I who gets burned.

It's always a game,
changing all the time
Never the real thing
Can't anything just stay the same?

It's like a mind ****
That agonizes the brain
Over and over again
****** the life out of my personal well being
I just want to stay sane.

Once and for all,
Maybe in time,
This too shall pass.
As you harvest your thoughts,
Who knows,
maybe this type of love could actually last?

So, one of my biggest frustrations,
Never staying on the same path,
Keeping me down in this hole,
Not respecting my desire,
You, the annoyance,
have corrupted my soul.

I saw a picture of you today...
I got lost in your eyes.
A sink hole was formed in my stomach,
which became a resting place for my heart.
I was paralyzed in this moment,
wishing to go back in time.
There's no escape,
I could have had you by my side all along.
Now I stare into a screen.
You don't even see me.

I was a side dish
Being served unwillingly
Split open with a 6 inch dagger
Torn apart inside and out
You were able to reach in
Tug at my heart
Rip me apart right from the core
Then left the remains sprawled out
A ***** mess
Laid out dead center in front of me
Rotting away
For weeks, months, years
Degrading over time
Until there was nothing left
But an empty dish
Ready for a cleansing revival
Just waiting for the next wholesome serving.

Breathe in,
Release;
Mind settling peace.
Guided by notion,
Envisioned by light.

Soul reflections,
Healing art;
Refrain from restraint.
Cycle into the journey,
Walk the enlightened path.
Relaxation sets you at ease.

The crusader of love resigns in death.
Burying the old,
Giving birth to the new.
Pure embodiment of spirit,
The soul has been renewed.

Dead girl walking...
Moseying around the grounds,
Eyes looking dark and dim,
Sunken in,
Kamikaze stare,
Pale face with a pasted on scowl.

Dead girl walking...
Nobody gives a hoot or a howl.
Leave it to nature
She's just a grim creature,
Wallowing underground,
Screaming inside,
Death decay.

Dead girl walking...
Soul lost in wander.
She measures days by minutes,
While infinite time remains.
Daylight masks the pain away,
As the sun beats rays upon the fatal scars.

Dead girl walking...
Morbid dreams vivid to touch.
Nightfall sheds the veil,
Where hidden truths lie behind the surface,
Until the fierce linear of rhythm
Wakes to the dark power of moonlight.

Dead girl walking...
Spirit laid out in sacrifice,
Down in the trench,
Eternity waits,
Only to be succumbed,
Among the wavelength of the living.

Our lives are an open book
go ahead and take a look...

In time,
everything will define
the life that you live
all that you give
all that you share
each way you care
all that you need
everything that you greed
each moment you hold dear
each whisper that you hear
all the secrets you keep
each tear drop that you weep

In time,
everything will define
all that you admire
each person you inspire
every smile that you smile
each moment made worth while
all the energy you create
each path led to your fate
every lesson you learn
all the bridges you burn
every good deed
each leap you take lead

All these things
all these moments
all these experiences
will define
only in time
who you become
who you are
who you are meant to be
then you will see
it is you
the one
the only
self proclaimed
self defined
illusions of the mind
sight seeing
creations of being
designed by character
colored by motion
life as it seems
guided by dreams
defined by me
defined by you

and now you know
throughout the show
each act
along with ancient fact
it is nature
it is life
preserved in stone
earth your home
surrounded by water
engulfed by air
you are free
can't you see
not that it matters
what he or she says
what he or she thinks
walk each step
give yourself pep
you define you
only you can stand true
only you know you.

Your life is an open book
take a look...
take a read
now, take heed
today is the day,
make your mark
it is your destiny.

The moment I laid eyes on you in that hallway we were connected by default...of love
Life separated us into an unbearable infatuation throughout time.
I began searching for you all those unspoken years,
And when you finally arrived, you set up shop within the boundaries of your desires.
Emotions so deep and conflicting at times it would slice open the thoughts of mere existence.
I gave up the life that I had been dealt so I could position myself within your ranking.
But you played me like a fiddle, for pure pleasure and fulfillment of self
Another gal on the sidelines being juggled into the triangle of consumer relations.
Within a flick of a switch, you decided to throw me to the curb like the trash that has already been consumed and ready for disposal.
But this time I didn't even get the proper disposal.
Left behind, in the dark, stacked, full of questions set up for the perfect trivial pursuit.

Here I am
I'm ready and waiting
Are you willing and able?
Let's take the chance
Hand in hand
Set ourselves free
Off alone to roam the land.
Speak only truths
And away with the lies
Let's walk together
With only light in our eyes.
No more need to worry
We got the rest of our lives
Loving each moment
Without any hurry.
You have my heart and soul
Today and tomorrow
Please accept my compassion
While I ease away all of your sorrow.
Let me not get carried away
With too many hopeful dreams
Let come what may
For sometimes in reality, dreaming really is not what it seems.

Living in fear
Day to day
An angry monster searching for prey
Will today mark history?
The day hell breaks loose
And violence strikes?
A lethal dose of insanity
Imposing fractals of the mind
Anxiety trembles the nerves
As minutes prolong the time.

Hatred is the worst crime...
Always starts a war
Everything goes out with a bang
Inflicting chaos among family
Worry and panic
Leading to unnecessary compromise
Dealing with it daily
Just to get by
Without a fight.

Do you know what it feels like?
The mad man's at your door
Knocking
Threatening to take away
The innocence of life.
Always watch your back
He's ready and willing to end it
In a heart beat
This killer is poison to the earth.

I woke this morning and I questioned myself
Was this all part of a dream?
Or were you really here with me?

Maybe your spirit guided you to meet with mine
Maybe your heart followed the beat of the same drumline
I felt you acknowledge my existence
And the matter became real
If only only for a short period of time
Regardless, it was exactly how love should feel.

I've been feeling trapped inside of "love"
Praying to the gods up above
That there be some sort of way to escape
I'm simply determined this is just no longer our fate
I catch myself constantly dreaming to be at peace
To finally be released from this overwhelming misery
Its like the core of my being has been stunted to grow
And I'm not sure you are ever going to let this one go
The thought terrifies me to cause another human pain
But I can't wait to find myself again someday sane
My pitted stomach is sickened by these everyday games
And I'm trying to somehow break away from the chains
Each day I cry knowing that departure will **** you
Wondering if you'll ever even begin to believe it's true
What is it going to take
Another saddened heartache
I just wish it didn't have to be me
But I'm a bird that needs to be set free

I look at you, high up on that pedestal,
Gazing into what is divine.
Your ****** frame,
Strong and firm, hypnotizing my worries.
Your voice, as soothing as the vibrations running down my spine.
It's like fire, stimulating with every spoken word.
There's a burning desire of touching you, of holding you,
Let our souls roam free.
I wait for the day where we can release,
Break away from the chains that bind us.
Lingering for the final moment...
Where two spirits become intertwined,
Populating love and fusing passion.

Ancient explorer
Self reliant
For new adventure

Seek higher recognition
With utmost valor,
While racing time
In a silhouette

Surpass judgement
With proper measurement
Proclaiming an elevated peak
Reclaiming innocence
Left behind
In solitude

Tread lightly
On unstable ground
Lose yourself until furthur notice
Rise to the occasion
Encompass a new vision

Positive approach
Brain enhancement
The destination recalls
What the journeys about

Next stop...
The finish line
End the process
With a bold victory
Its the final chapter
Based on recovery

Fading friendships
Fading love
Fading family
Seems like life is fading away
Or maybe it is just me who is fading away
Will someone please come light my fire?
I'm in need of an eternal flame.

Our time here is getting shorter
Yet years are going by faster
Nobody has any spare time anymore
If anything, can we just fade the time?

Another soldier,
Another fallen warrior.

Life was too precious
For this man to behold,
He died of his own death
Leaving so many stories untold.

Just "Bite the bullet,"
But No, it was too late,
Losing all means,
The bullet bit him
Losing all of his dreams.

Lives underground now,
A legend, a rebel, no longer a powerful tool,
Buried with a stake to the heart
Tatted with the vows of a fool.  

Good bye & good riddance,
Alone is his soul.
With so much love left behind,
Life's finally taken his toll.

I will probably not ever fully understand why the universe
Led me to this resting place
For maybe there's a higher purpose
That has not yet reached its peak for understanding

I will take the days with ease
As best as I can
Storing the memories of yesterday
Into a tiny section that's rusting away in my mind

Goodbye to the love that I cherished
Goodbye to our dreams of tomorrow
Hello to the trueness that awaits ahead
Hello to the one who desires to love me till the end

Good bye, my love
I shall live a lifetime
Of remembering you.

**** just got real
I'm about to cop another feel
Of the undeniable truth
Take me to the fountain of youth
Settle me in the light
Obliterate any other view in sight

An emotional pontoon
Strikes a balloon
Like the ***** of a needle
It's time to worship the scarab beetle

Your world bursts
Dignity quenching of thirst
The illusions released
Mind games deceased
The fantasy shatters
As if nothing else matters

The moment it hits you
There's nothing left to do
It's a sigh of relief
Eyes induced like an ancient chief

The truth shall set you free
What a wonderful world it would be
If every waking moment
Hikes its way to this descent
Eyes wide open
The dark side must repent

Give me one good reason
Leave me in this pleasant season
Let the tide stay high
Washing away negativity dry

It's a deep realization
Soothing sensation
It was all part of my dream
Letting out some steam
My thoughts just never stop
Meanwhile, the kite string should eventually pop.

It's nearing that time
Music's calling for a new chime
Next freight train is a coming
I'm on the borderline running
Who's all aboard?
I'm about ready to strike another chord.

It's like, waiting for that "Thank You,"
That sign of gratitude.
Appreciation reckons with the sign of authority.

Being stranded,
Alone in the woods,
No one to hear your calling,
Not a chant echoed in the distance.

It's like, wanting to be seen in the shadow of the night.
Standing there,
Just gazing at the structure of the moonlight.
All along, you are hidden among the nation,
Leaving but a trace in their sight.

It's like, the wilting of a flower,
The drooping nature of it all.
A dying force,
Halting the bloom of a resurrection.

There is no spring to offset the cold.
You are forbidden,
Let truth be told.

Wouldn't it be nice if we had an agreement
The point of view that civilizes the connection between you and I?
You treat women as if they are an item up for sale,
Today I get the lowest bid.

What is it that bonds the friendship that we have?
It's as if we're holding on, like a frayed piece of string, sewn into the tapestry.

The world keeps turning and I've been standing my ground
I let you drown me out with your game
Well, I've been taking lessons, and then I learned how to swim.

I'm going to step back into the light, so I can see the shadows that surround me
I'm going to turn and walk my own path
And expose you with the pictures in my mind.

When I'm gone, you won't find me singing the same old tune
I heard the flow of this life will bring a brighter melody.
I won't be asked to raise the bar any longer for you
So when I'm gone, I will sing a song for you.

When all is said and done, I won't be able to explain, so don't even try.
Strike a pose and quote your favorite line
Give me reason to store you in my pocket book memory.
The time is now, Away I go, off to a distant land
To an ancient hideaway, forbidden, in secrecy, away from you.

All these birds
Hundreds of thousands, maybe millions
Flying in packs
Flowing in unity like a river knows its own
They swarm, they swerve, all together
Rhythm as pure as the pollen they will resonate to
Never missing a beat
Never a silhouette missing its defining moment
They must head for the sun
They must chase down the light
The unforgotten, which guides them to comfort and safety
I question can the human spirit ever be this in sync?
Can they form a union and be integrated as beautifully and unconditionally such as this?
And yet, repeat in a traditional and annual sense?
Did anyone else witness this?
Did anyone else feel this moment?

I could no longer look at a picture of you
so I had to erase the memory of my account
to get away from you
It feels like I've submitted myself into rehab
No more distasteful distractions
No more bleak feelings of despise
No more crying rivers leading to an infinity of sorrow
I've gained control of my helpless addiction
I'm currently cleansing my worn out spirit
Freed my raging mind
From the endless tidal waves of emotion
My soul is cruising up a mountainside
Full of hope
Towards a peak that is yet to be discovered.

I'd like to inject you with a vile of happiness
Pop you a dose of awareness
Let you breathe in a cloud of kindness;
You are so full of negativity
It is aging your image
And rotting you to the core;
Let me spark the fire within you
Open your eyes to the light
Be rid of the pessimist
Blow away the dark cloud haunting you
And watch you shine brightly
Until positivity is crystallized among you.

I love you so much
That I am willing
To let you go
To walk away
Because I do not want to hurt you
I want to set you free
I want you to be happy
Shall we meet again
Someday
Amongst our paths
And you come back to me
I know will know then
That is was indeed, meant to be.

You said you'd never leave me.
You were here to stay.
Days go by,
Counting down the weeks,
Maybe you were just busy.
A month gone by...
Yeah, I shed a tear
Still believing,...
You assured me,
You would be back.
How could you forget?
I was certain you'd remember.
Months have passed,
And a little bit of reminiscence recaps.
Maybe, just maybe, someday...
If the spirit is calling,
You will embrace what you said
And you will come back.
This, I believe in still.
Perhaps, I am crazy.
Perhaps, I am sane.
Perhaps, time does not even exist.
In this matter,
It is only of the motion you guided me in
All along.

I lie awake here at now 4 a.m.
My thoughts lead me back to the last time we met
And I think about how I savored every minute
And in those very short moments
I held onto you, so dear to my heart
I looked at you, admiring your beauty
I looked at you and admired your presence
I looked at you with happiness
I looked at you with undeniable love
I looked at you and felt pain
I looked at you and felt sorrow
I looked at you, one last time
And I'm not even sure if you saw the tears that I shed
Or knew what I was going through
I knew you were leaving
I knew it was going to be the last time
I'd ever have that personal experience with you
So I stored that memory in the back of my mind
Because I knew
You were never coming back
Even though you assured me you would
I know that feeling
All too well
Just didn't think it was ever going to have to be felt with you.

Mind cycling, spinning me round
A crop circle, of deeper truths
Forming vibrations, within the soul
Letting me know, it's a sign
Marking the territory, building a landmark
Posting a lantern, the light is on
Just in time, go with the flow
Spiral out

Last night my intuition spoke to me,
Loud and clear.
Given the chance to listen,
I allowed myself only to hear.

Mother nature spoke,
While nature took its course.
I would soon cross the same path,
Only to fill myself with remorse.

Time will tell,
And what is meant to be will be.
Another lesson learned,
With expectations just not as they seem.

Split second mind shift,
As quick as a lightning flash, everything changes.
Embrace yourself, the show has just begun.
The flame ignites and smoke begins to fade.
An altered perception conceives you toward a new direction, while you leave the rest behind.
Memories, feels, and realities are now part of chapters already read upon.
Another page turned, another leaf turned, another card dealt,
Just go with it, Run with it...
Learn from it.
Let's throw up a canvas and create a beautiful new landscape.
Right here, right now.

Each channel I turn,
Each story I read,
And every commercial I hear,
It has your name.
It's there, in many different spellings,
foreign languages alike,
It's like your spirit is always amongst me.
You are a daily reminder,
echoing in the background
Replaying the same sound
Your name, it is loud and clear
Always at a volume for me to hear.
Wish it was me that was calling your name,
saying your name,  
But no, it is not in this time,
Not in this sequence,
It is not my turn.

A moment of realization...
An awakening of the soul guides me into an explicit visualization...
Our togetherness has proposed its final course within the mission
Your hand is no longer in mine and our souls become separated
Like a yellow flower earth nail carried along throughout open space
We are drifting away from each other

A final strain grips my heart with a dismal pain
Followed with tears of joy
I begin to feel gratitude for the emanation of our mind and soul expansion
I find appreciation for the personal transformation that has defined us with higher purpose

As the thoughts of us slowly dissipate into memories
I sense a completion, a bliss experience
I pronounce a fare thee well to the good times we've shared
Positioning them in balance towards a peaceful and harmonious state
And declare an acceptance of what has and will rightfully become.

Buy the ticket
Take the ride
Choose your path
Walk the line
I ain't lying
Come with me
You shall see
Out of zone
Out of touch
Let's skip a level
Just for the rush

Ah, vacation time at last...
I can't wait to take some time
Away from the hustle and bustle
Of everyday life
Far from the chaotic realities meddling around
Just me and you
Alone
We can walk the beach for hours...
We can lounge in the hammock from dusk till dawn...
We can climb our way through the trees...
I don't care if we sit on our keisters and read books all day
I just want to be by your side
Come now
Let's vacate these premises

It seems lately as if every reply
Is "Oh, I'm just living the dream."
Its been heard so many times
That it's really got me thinking
"If all that we see or seem is a dream within a dream.,"
Then this whole coincidence is just what it seems

Time to change the tune
Loud and clear
Walk to the beat of a different drum
Rise and shine
Take control
Raise awareness
Let go of our fears
Close off the dark
With each waking moment
Open our consciousness to the light

No more over sleeping
No more over thinking
Daily reminders set, until the alarm beeps
Routinely strengthen the mindset
See the birdie, know it's part of the dream
See the numbers, know it's part of the dream
Hear the song, know it's part of the dream

Understanding is knowing
Knowing is Awakening
Awakening is living
Living is life
"Life is a dream, realize it."

"I am living the dream."

I've lost it all...
Lost love,
Lost my family,
Lost my sense of self,
Lost my heart along the way,
For love.
Everyone and everything
Seems to be against me.
******* the world
From my mistakes,
My disbeliefs,
My uncertainty,
My empathy,
For love.
In this moment...
Everlasting,
Painful and debilitating,
Taking over every ounce,
Square footage of my being,
I am drowning without a fight.
How could what felt like a lifetime of happiness
Feel like it is now an eternity of misery?
Knowing it was my fault...
My choices,
My beliefs,
My dishonesty,
Holding back,
For love.
Out of control,
Living a lie,
In denial,
Out of character,
All for love
After I've lost it all.

Sometimes I wonder...
Do you ever actually think of me
Do I ever cross your mind
In time
Any day or everyday
And if you do,
And if you did,
Can I maybe
Just see a sign?

Love at first sight
Two worlds collide
Opposites attract
Time passes
Things Change
One moment is grateful
The other is regretful
Hatred does not feel good.
But love,
Love feels like you conquered the world.

Two soul's growing together
Yet growing so far apart
Who could've,
Who would've thought.

They say love is blind
But what is worse,
Is being blinded by love.

I once knew you,
I once adored you,
Now, I do not know you
I despise you
I do not know
Who we were

Love is blind
Love is not kind
I now say
I am sorry, my friend
Every fairy tale must end

Whether good or bad
Happy or sad
We shall grow together
By growing apart.

Love me
And I will cling to you
Like a caterpillar to the cocoon
Ready to expand my wings for you
Love me
And I will flourish
Like a blossoming flower
Offering a dose of my sweetest nectar to you
Love me
And I will ignite the light
Like a raging fire
Giving an eternal warmth to you.

Come on now,
Let's not beat around the bush,
We no longer belong here.
Chop it down!
Create a new path!
Original and fresh,
Safe and clear,
Hold back the strays,
Free from all the pests.
Let's walk the line,
Follow the border.
Keep it balanced,
It's the RIGHT thing to do!
I'm telling you.

Carelessly,
I neglected you
All along,
You were here for me
I was not mindful
I'm sorry I failed you
Now, I face the consequences
You've abandoned me

Never* trust a sinner
Never trust a saint
You cannot believe their lies
You cannot believe their truths

Never give in to a fool
Never give in to a lover
You must maintain your standards
You must maintain your ground

Never look back with regret
Never look back with wonder
You have to accept the faults
You have to accept the realities

Never say never
Its bound to happen anyway

One life to live
With just moments in time
Day by day
Hour by hour
Fading into the night

Weeks rack up
Grand total the years
And we've become
Part of a lifetime
Resisting for change

Memories fade
Emotions die
Hearts thicken
And love awakens
Settling the past

One life to live
Mending experience
While savoring the feeling
Understanding this is temporary
The end will result in death of us all

I guess I will dwell in my my own despise
Haunting memories
Taunting conversation
The vision that I created
Everything I kept inside
This is where procrastination leads.
The truth, the pain, the discomfort
Of knowing that I was second all along.

Traveling the open road
Losing sleep
Seeking thrills along the way
Vision getting blurry
Can't find your way home

Random acts of kindness
Giving pleasure
Forgiving oneself for endless mistakes
Deep Thriving headache
Can't find your way home

Another fork in the road
Taking a left
It was supposed to be right
Letting go of regrets
Finding time to find your way

Open road
Open mind
Paths getting clearer
Timing is Everything

Nothing but a parasite
Feasting for the veins
Thriving for a waterfall of excitement

**** it in
Without hesitation
Relax for a moment
And...release

Liquidation of thought
Runs a river of peace
To an inconclusive feeling

I'm never letting go
I am alive
I am here

Let the parasite run its course
Extermination begins at the death of the soul

You were such a beautiful person
Before you conformed
Into the society that of which supersedes you