I was a side dish
Being served unwillingly
Split open with a 6 inch dagger
Torn apart inside and out
You were able to reach in
Tug at my heart
Rip me apart right from the core
Then left the remains sprawled out
A ***** mess
Laid out dead center in front of me
Rotting away
For weeks, months, years
Degrading over time
Until there was nothing left
But an empty dish
Ready for a cleansing revival
Just waiting for the next wholesome serving.

I lie awake here at now 4 a.m.
My thoughts lead me back to the last time we met
And I think about how I savored every minute
And in those very short moments
I held onto you, so dear to my heart
I looked at you, admiring your beauty
I looked at you and admired your presence
I looked at you with happiness
I looked at you with undeniable love
I looked at you and felt pain
I looked at you and felt sorrow
I looked at you, one last time
And I'm not even sure if you saw the tears that I shed
Or knew what I was going through
I knew you were leaving
I knew it was going to be the last time
I'd ever have that personal experience with you
So I stored that memory in the back of my mind
Because I knew
You were never coming back
Even though you assured me you would
I know that feeling
All too well
Just didn't think it was ever going to have to be felt with you.

Bodies hugging,
Our souls become intertwined.
Energies spiral throughout,
Forces create desirable sensations.
A squeeze pulls us closer,
Love gravitates,
And wraps itself around my heart.
Our soulful connection
Present in the moment
Planted in time
Makes its way for renewal
Each time we connect.

You were such a beautiful person
Before you conformed
Into the society that of which supersedes you

Buy the ticket
Take the ride
Choose your path
Walk the line
I ain't lying
Come with me
You shall see
Out of zone
Out of touch
Let's skip a level
Just for the rush

A moment of realization...
An awakening of the soul guides me into an explicit visualization...
Our togetherness has proposed its final course within the mission
Your hand is no longer in mine and our souls become separated
Like a yellow flower earth nail carried along throughout open space
We are drifting away from each other

A final strain grips my heart with a dismal pain
Followed with tears of joy
I begin to feel gratitude for the emanation of our mind and soul expansion
I find appreciation for the personal transformation that has defined us with higher purpose

As the thoughts of us slowly dissipate into memories
I sense a completion, a bliss experience
I pronounce a fare thee well to the good times we've shared
Positioning them in balance towards a peaceful and harmonious state
And declare an acceptance of what has and will rightfully become.

Sometimes I wonder...
Do you ever actually think of me
Do I ever cross your mind
In time
Any day or everyday
And if you do,
And if you did,
Can I maybe
Just see a sign?

I could no longer look at a picture of you
so I had to erase the memory of my account
to get away from you
It feels like I've submitted myself into rehab
No more distasteful distractions
No more bleak feelings of despise
No more crying rivers leading to an infinity of sorrow
I've gained control of my helpless addiction
I'm currently cleansing my worn out spirit
Freed my raging mind
From the endless tidal waves of emotion
My soul is cruising up a mountainside
Full of hope
Towards a peak that is yet to be discovered.

Festive and free,
The music echoed,
Emitting constant and positive vibrations.
It was widespread,
Trailing amongst the forest,
Configuring an overflow of desirable sensation.
The light of day
Featured spiritual energies
Brought on by the dark of the mystical night,
Which lead my wandering path
To the end of the lonesome road,
Bringing me to you.
Charismatic and alive,
You made a soulful appearance.
The moment is now,
So we lived for the influential experience,
As if it were never going to end.
All the beautiful spirits
Confined to their happy little sites,
And we were each other's savior
Just guiding each other home.
We rode the starry night
Straight into a plume of incandescent liquid love
Electric
Intoxicated
Passionate
Fellowship
Interwoven souls on fire
Ecstatic connection
Roaming the wavelength wild.
My brother,
My sister,
My lover,
My friend,
We've mended the static oppression,
An ancient philosophy
A genetic transcription for the world.
A freedom of love
No longer a slave to the human wreckage.
One love, baby.

Lured in by the cast of a spell
The petty little wanderer gets lost in the shuffle
Surrounded by witches
Big and bold
Dark and black
Conjuring power for their gain
No more Mr. Roam to be Free
Consumed now by the sorcerer's brew
The magick of an old fashioned tale
The force of nature has condemned you
For all that you longed for
Now binds you into the witches craft
Chaining you to the elements of the nearby
Unless you garnish your own herbal remedy
Your desires are melting away in the ***
Wake up little rabbit
The Fall is approaching
You must not get mixed up in the stew
Find your way home

I gaze into your eyes
A surreptitious mystery
Lies within
Makes me want to deep sea dive
Into the soul of you
I could get lost
Roaming about your galaxy
Searching for undiscovered treasures

Love me
And I will cling to you
Like a caterpillar to the cocoon
Ready to expand my wings for you
Love me
And I will flourish
Like a blossoming flower
Offering a dose of my sweetest nectar to you
Love me
And I will ignite the light
Like a raging fire
Giving an eternal warmth to you.

**** just got real
I'm about to cop another feel
Of the undeniable truth
Take me to the fountain of youth
Settle me in the light
Obliterate any other view in sight

An emotional pontoon
Strikes a balloon
Like the ***** of a needle
It's time to worship the scarab beetle

Your world bursts
Dignity quenching of thirst
The illusions released
Mind games deceased
The fantasy shatters
As if nothing else matters

The moment it hits you
There's nothing left to do
It's a sigh of relief
Eyes induced like an ancient chief

The truth shall set you free
What a wonderful world it would be
If every waking moment
Hikes its way to this descent
Eyes wide open
The dark side must repent

Give me one good reason
Leave me in this pleasant season
Let the tide stay high
Washing away negativity dry

It's a deep realization
Soothing sensation
It was all part of my dream
Letting out some steam
My thoughts just never stop
Meanwhile, the kite string should eventually pop.

It's nearing that time
Music's calling for a new chime
Next freight train is a coming
I'm on the borderline running
Who's all aboard?
I'm about ready to strike another chord.

And in the end,
You begin to realize who your true friends are.
The ones who stand by your side
Through thick and thin
Trial, error, and sin.

In this day and age,
Not many stand the chance
In nomination
For the sacrificial commencement of honour.

Nature plays its part indeed.
Because it is only in time
The veil is lifted.
Root by root,
Seed by seed.
Humanity reveal their true colors.

Next thing you know,
You've been cursed by a plague.
A whole school of fish
Swimming to discover their own island.
That is only for thyself.
You've been contaminated
By the human race.

Look at the social media blow up.
The narcissistic selfies,
The I, me, my's,
Gaining daily acceptance
All in disguise.
The public audience is their show.
It's needed for everyday approval.

Nobody really cares about you
It's all about
"Look at me!"
"Look what I can do!"
"You are so cool."
"Thumbs up to you!"
I'm going to abuse the word "love."

Forget the hoopla
Here today
Gone tomorrow.
Everyone feeding off of
Self loathing attention.
There is no more room for pitiful sorrow.

Truth is
Sheep lie among the prey
Victims...
Don't be another
"Nodding Acquaintance"
A distortion of the facts.

Don't get fooled.
Not by social grace
Not by exploitation of the face.
You'll just be a bargain commodity,
For their convenience.

Stand true
True to yourself
Because in the end,
Nobody else really cares.

Thank you for setting me free.

See, I wasn't ready for you.
Always second to your lovers,
Always waiting on the sidelines,
My confidence was lacking.

I was better off giving you up
And handing you over to the other
Rather than pour my love into someone
Who still desired another.

I believed in you
I understood the conflictions.
I stuck around,
I stood true.

In return,
You have shunned me from your life,
Erased our friendship,
Tied a knot to the connection.

Even after all the trials and tribulations
I visited with you.

You've set me free,
Seeking what is
Genuinely true.

And I can't thank you enough.

I will probably not ever fully understand why the universe
Led me to this resting place
For maybe there's a higher purpose
That has not yet reached its peak for understanding

I will take the days with ease
As best as I can
Storing the memories of yesterday
Into a tiny section that's rusting away in my mind

Goodbye to the love that I cherished
Goodbye to our dreams of tomorrow
Hello to the trueness that awaits ahead
Hello to the one who desires to love me till the end

And just like that-
I'm out.
Game cancelled
You gave it up...
A voluntary forfeit,
A loss on my end
Or was it...
A loss on your end?
The lights
No longer
Light up the field.
No longer a player
In your division.
You've joined
Another team
Travelling on now.
This one's for the record.

He was leather clad hero
Always ready for action
She was a gypsy queen,
Fresh off the scene.
Together, they were unseparable
Alone, they never were again
A vision of white light emitted
from their souls
She brought happiness to him
and the same of him to her
Physically apart, their souls still touching
Together they breed happiness
in a world of non-believers.

The moment I laid eyes on you in that hallway we were connected by default...of love
Life separated us into an unbearable infatuation throughout time.
I began searching for you all those unspoken years,
And when you finally arrived, you set up shop within the boundaries of your desires.
Emotions so deep and conflicting at times it would slice open the thoughts of mere existence.
I gave up the life that I had been dealt so I could position myself within your ranking.
But you played me like a fiddle, for pure pleasure and fulfillment of self
Another gal on the sidelines being juggled into the triangle of consumer relations.
Within a flick of a switch, you decided to throw me to the curb like the trash that has already been consumed and ready for disposal.
But this time I didn't even get the proper disposal.
Left behind, in the dark, stacked, full of questions set up for the perfect trivial pursuit.

Years pass by
And our timing... still off
As one door opens, I cross through
The next one closes as soon as I walk towards you

Sitting along the other side
Arms around my knees up to my chin
I can only listen to the thoughts in my mind

Why is our timing not on point
Every single time
But yet we still keep knocking
Each wrong time

What's good for you
Is bad for me
A never ending struggle
The blind could only see

Never alone by chance
Nobody's home
Always consumed in the moment
Still searching in roam

Taken by surprise
In every situation
Finding out
The timing is still not right.

Will we ever be in sync?

One life to live
With just moments in time
Day by day
Hour by hour
Fading into the night

Weeks rack up
Grand total the years
And we've become
Part of a lifetime
Resisting for change

Memories fade
Emotions die
Hearts thicken
And love awakens
Settling the past

One life to live
Mending experience
While savoring the feeling
Understanding this is temporary
The end will result in death of us all

Good bye, my love
I shall live a lifetime
Of remembering you.

Living in fear
Day to day
An angry monster searching for prey
Will today mark history?
The day hell breaks loose
And violence strikes?
A lethal dose of insanity
Imposing fractals of the mind
Anxiety trembles the nerves
As minutes prolong the time.

Hatred is the worst crime...
Always starts a war
Everything goes out with a bang
Inflicting chaos among family
Worry and panic
Leading to unnecessary compromise
Dealing with it daily
Just to get by
Without a fight.

Do you know what it feels like?
The mad man's at your door
Knocking
Threatening to take away
The innocence of life.
Always watch your back
He's ready and willing to end it
In a heart beat
This killer is poison to the earth.

I've lost it all...
Lost love,
Lost my family,
Lost my sense of self,
Lost my heart along the way,
For love.
Everyone and everything
Seems to be against me.
******* the world
From my mistakes,
My disbeliefs,
My uncertainty,
My empathy,
For love.
In this moment...
Everlasting,
Painful and debilitating,
Taking over every ounce,
Square footage of my being,
I am drowning without a fight.
How could what felt like a lifetime of happiness
Feel like it is now an eternity of misery?
Knowing it was my fault...
My choices,
My beliefs,
My dishonesty,
Holding back,
For love.
Out of control,
Living a lie,
In denial,
Out of character,
All for love
After I've lost it all.

Carelessly,
I neglected you
All along,
You were here for me
I was not mindful
I'm sorry I failed you
Now, I face the consequences
You've abandoned me

I saw a picture of you today...
I got lost in your eyes.
A sink hole was formed in my stomach,
which became a resting place for my heart.
I was paralyzed in this moment,
wishing to go back in time.
There's no escape,
I could have had you by my side all along.
Now I stare into a screen.
You don't even see me.

Mind cycling, spinning me round
A crop circle, of deeper truths
Forming vibrations, within the soul
Letting me know, it's a sign
Marking the territory, building a landmark
Posting a lantern, the light is on
Just in time, go with the flow
Spiral out

You said you'd never leave me.
You were here to stay.
Days go by,
Counting down the weeks,
Maybe you were just busy.
A month gone by...
Yeah, I shed a tear
Still believing,...
You assured me,
You would be back.
How could you forget?
I was certain you'd remember.
Months have passed,
And a little bit of reminiscence recaps.
Maybe, just maybe, someday...
If the spirit is calling,
You will embrace what you said
And you will come back.
This, I believe in still.
Perhaps, I am crazy.
Perhaps, I am sane.
Perhaps, time does not even exist.
In this matter,
It is only of the motion you guided me in
All along.

Ah, vacation time at last...
I can't wait to take some time
Away from the hustle and bustle
Of everyday life
Far from the chaotic realities meddling around
Just me and you
Alone
We can walk the beach for hours...
We can lounge in the hammock from dusk till dawn...
We can climb our way through the trees...
I don't care if we sit on our keisters and read books all day
I just want to be by your side
Come now
Let's vacate these premises

How long would you be willing to wait for me?  
Days turned into weeks, followed by months, taken over to years?
Or would you let the thought of me turn into dust and let it blow away in the wind?

I hide away in the belief of you
Stored away in the ancient times
Where love is a safe haven
And I am oblivious to the reality of the wilderness surrounding us

Tender thoughts of your sweet emotion
Fill my mind with renewed hope
Where wilted flowers once lingered
Now dance in the open fields with joy
I embrace the memory with crystal vision

Soon the shadows that surround
Will fade into the the dawn of a new day
The wind blows over with everlasting spirit
Where time belongs to the essence
And life renews with blossoming peace

Patience becomes a successor
Leaving all expectations at the front gate
For when time has surpassed its motion
The closing bell will ring
And there will be no questions of which path will lead

Nothing but a parasite
Feasting for the veins
Thriving for a waterfall of excitement

**** it in
Without hesitation
Relax for a moment
And...release

Liquidation of thought
Runs a river of peace
To an inconclusive feeling

I'm never letting go
I am alive
I am here

Let the parasite run its course
Extermination begins at the death of the soul

Well, there's goes another bottle down the drain
No, this is not alcohol, folks
This time its shampoo
Last time the body wash
That was a father's day gift from child
If I had a penny for all the ignorant times things have been destroyed
I'd be freaking rich
Money is being wasted
Time is being wasted
Love is being wasted
When a toxic mix is brewed
There's no need for belligerence
No need for something that cannot manifest itself into a gentle being
With that being said,
Today is the day to close the book
And let it burn
Or on a kinder note,
Hand it over for someone else's pleasure
With chapters having been read over and over
And the big picture finally clear as day
This story does not have a happy ending
And no longer serves a purpose in this house
Plot being...
It is the children that will judge the book by its cover.

Here I am
I'm ready and waiting
Are you willing and able?
Let's take the chance
Hand in hand
Set ourselves free
Off alone to roam the land.
Speak only truths
And away with the lies
Let's walk together
With only light in our eyes.
No more need to worry
We got the rest of our lives
Loving each moment
Without any hurry.
You have my heart and soul
Today and tomorrow
Please accept my compassion
While I ease away all of your sorrow.
Let me not get carried away
With too many hopeful dreams
Let come what may
For sometimes in reality, dreaming really is not what it seems.

I love you so much
That I am willing
To let you go
To walk away
Because I do not want to hurt you
I want to set you free
I want you to be happy
Shall we meet again
Someday
Amongst our paths
And you come back to me
I know will know then
That is was indeed, meant to be.

I've been feeling trapped inside of "love"
Praying to the gods up above
That there be some sort of way to escape
I'm simply determined this is just no longer our fate
I catch myself constantly dreaming to be at peace
To finally be released from this overwhelming misery
Its like the core of my being has been stunted to grow
And I'm not sure you are ever going to let this one go
The thought terrifies me to cause another human pain
But I can't wait to find myself again someday sane
My pitted stomach is sickened by these everyday games
And I'm trying to somehow break away from the chains
Each day I cry knowing that departure will **** you
Wondering if you'll ever even begin to believe it's true
What is it going to take
Another saddened heartache
I just wish it didn't have to be me
But I'm a bird that needs to be set free

Dead girl walking...
Moseying around the grounds,
Eyes looking dark and dim,
Sunken in,
Kamikaze stare,
Pale face with a pasted on scowl.

Dead girl walking...
Nobody gives a hoot or a howl.
Leave it to nature
She's just a grim creature,
Wallowing underground,
Screaming inside,
Death decay.

Dead girl walking...
Soul lost in wander.
She measures days by minutes,
While infinite time remains.
Daylight masks the pain away,
As the sun beats rays upon the fatal scars.

Dead girl walking...
Morbid dreams vivid to touch.
Nightfall sheds the veil,
Where hidden truths lie behind the surface,
Until the fierce linear of rhythm
Wakes to the dark power of moonlight.

Dead girl walking...
Spirit laid out in sacrifice,
Down in the trench,
Eternity waits,
Only to be succumbed,
Among the wavelength of the living.

You know poetry is your life
when you initially wake
and you're already in a conditioned mind state
reciting lines in your head

You know poetry is your life
when you go to bed
and rhymes are drifting you
away into a sleeping state

You know poetry is your life
when you are driving along
and you suddenly pull over
just to scribble down some narrative thoughts

You know poetry is your life
when you are at work
and you refrain from doing your job
just so you can jot down some formal expression

You know poetry is your life
when you are reading the mail
and even names and numbers
inspire a distinctive phrase

You know poetry is your life
when thy words of choice
become rapid fluency
and part of the Shakespearean language

You know poetry is your life
when random collections seamlessly take over
and are scattered everywhere
from journals, to loose papers, hard drives, & accumulating memory

You know poetry is your life
when you begin to realize
and everyday you must traditionally release
the spoken word writes to its divine legacy

You know poetry is your life
when you are typing away
and all of a sudden,
you lose your precious work
yet you can still retrieve the files
from one's own mental database

Poetry is your life
Life is your poetry
Whether you live a good one
Whether you live a bad one
Poetry is real
Poetry is fake
What is it really?
What is it not?

Poetry is your life
A therapeutical salvation
Cycle through the emotional manifestation
Peddle away from the soul's padlock
A spiraling staircase that leads you to freedom
The universal process of exhibiting experience
It's a divine intervention
Revelations of truth and discovery
Creating artful expression of one's existence
You know poetry is your life

My body is overwhelmed with a deep gut wrenching feeling
One that sickens your motivation and nauseates the core of your soul.
I know I made the wrong mistakes
Flipped, turned the page without even reading what the story entailed
Wish I wouldn't have turned that book in
Its been checked out by another and who knows if it'll ever be returned.

It's one of those feelings, the kind that leaves you catatonic
Things don't make sense and I'm losing consciousness at elevated peaks
Reality is a karmic reminder which feeds me to a daily treat
Stuffing me with flashbacks of all the wrongs where I knew it was right

I'd like to say "this too shall pass" but it hasn't and I'm not sure it ever will
Its been years, feeling like a lifetime
This burden has burrowed into my heart
Leaving traces of you, leaving remnants of what was once created

This burning desire remains at stake
If it's going to live within me forever
Tall tale sign of regret,
Please, someone throw some water on me
As if it were a baptism
Wake me up and release the chemicals that drown me into this lake of fire

Two soul's growing together
Yet growing so far apart
Who could've,
Who would've thought.

They say love is blind
But what is worse,
Is being blinded by love.

I once knew you,
I once adored you,
Now, I do not know you
I despise you
I do not know
Who we were

Love is blind
Love is not kind
I now say
I am sorry, my friend
Every fairy tale must end

Whether good or bad
Happy or sad
We shall grow together
By growing apart.

It seems lately as if every reply
Is "Oh, I'm just living the dream."
Its been heard so many times
That it's really got me thinking
"If all that we see or seem is a dream within a dream.,"
Then this whole coincidence is just what it seems

Time to change the tune
Loud and clear
Walk to the beat of a different drum
Rise and shine
Take control
Raise awareness
Let go of our fears
Close off the dark
With each waking moment
Open our consciousness to the light

No more over sleeping
No more over thinking
Daily reminders set, until the alarm beeps
Routinely strengthen the mindset
See the birdie, know it's part of the dream
See the numbers, know it's part of the dream
Hear the song, know it's part of the dream

Understanding is knowing
Knowing is Awakening
Awakening is living
Living is life
"Life is a dream, realize it."

"I am living the dream."

All these birds
Hundreds of thousands, maybe millions
Flying in packs
Flowing in unity like a river knows its own
They swarm, they swerve, all together
Rhythm as pure as the pollen they will resonate to
Never missing a beat
Never a silhouette missing its defining moment
They must head for the sun
They must chase down the light
The unforgotten, which guides them to comfort and safety
I question can the human spirit ever be this in sync?
Can they form a union and be integrated as beautifully and unconditionally such as this?
And yet, repeat in a traditional and annual sense?
Did anyone else witness this?
Did anyone else feel this moment?

Fading friendships
Fading love
Fading family
Seems like life is fading away
Or maybe it is just me who is fading away
Will someone please come light my fire?
I'm in need of an eternal flame.

Our time here is getting shorter
Yet years are going by faster
Nobody has any spare time anymore
If anything, can we just fade the time?

I want to climb up onto your arms
And hang from your limbs
Until I am out of breathe and restless.
Let me embrace freedom,
By taking this to new heights,
As I seek new adventure among you

I want to be the bee that delves into your bark
And waits to draw nectar from you.
I want to be the black widow
Which crawls along you, sheltering its web among you.

I want to be the bird that perches itself
On your branches, after its quest for refuge.
I want to be the squirrel that travels
Up and down your neck, searching for its secret hideaway.

I want to be the roots that stem from you,
That cultivate growth and maintain your balance among the land.

I don't care what I'd have to be or where I'd gave to go.
I just know,
I find peace and comfort
Each time time I dream about secret pleasures of my weeping willow.

Like thread in the tapestry,
So delicately woven,
With intricate detail,
Vibrant design, and such precise pattern,
We were once alive and full of life.

Our creation became a masterpiece.
A unique piece, significant to the rest,
Handcrafted with genuine love;
We devoted time,
With pure emotion
We didn't care for slight imperfection.

Our foundation has now become worn out,
As if our colours have been faded by the rays of the sun.
Little rivets show signs of wear and tear.
No longer an original,
It seems more like a hand me down.
One that has just been collecting dust,
Or has been settling inside the wooden chest,
Stored away in time.

If you wish to bid farewell of this work of art,
Please lay it down with gentle ease
There's no need for it to be a burden any longer.

One man's trash,
Just still may be another's treasure.

I'd like to inject you with a vile of happiness
Pop you a dose of awareness
Let you breathe in a cloud of kindness;
You are so full of negativity
It is aging your image
And rotting you to the core;
Let me spark the fire within you
Open your eyes to the light
Be rid of the pessimist
Blow away the dark cloud haunting you
And watch you shine brightly
Until positivity is crystallized among you.

If you want to play,
Lets play Scrabble,
We can mix up our letters,
And make fun with our words.
Let's play Monopoly,
We can pretend we have fancy cars
And spend money like we own it.
Oh, I got it...
Lets play Life!
We can pick our own jobs
And buy temporary houses.
If you want to play,
Let's do this.
Please, just don't play with my heart.

Ancient explorer
Self reliant
For new adventure

Seek higher recognition
With utmost valor,
While racing time
In a silhouette

Surpass judgement
With proper measurement
Proclaiming an elevated peak
Reclaiming innocence
Left behind
In solitude

Tread lightly
On unstable ground
Lose yourself until furthur notice
Rise to the occasion
Encompass a new vision

Positive approach
Brain enhancement
The destination recalls
What the journeys about

Next stop...
The finish line
End the process
With a bold victory
Its the final chapter
Based on recovery

Never* trust a sinner
Never trust a saint
You cannot believe their lies
You cannot believe their truths

Never give in to a fool
Never give in to a lover
You must maintain your standards
You must maintain your ground

Never look back with regret
Never look back with wonder
You have to accept the faults
You have to accept the realities

Never say never
Its bound to happen anyway