Good bye, my love
I shall live a lifetime
Of remembering you.

Living in fear
Day to day
An angry monster searching for prey
Will today mark history?
The day hell breaks loose
And violence strikes?
A lethal dose of insanity
Imposing fractals of the mind
Anxiety trembles the nerves
As minutes prolong the time.

Hatred is the worst crime...
Always starts a war
Everything goes out with a bang
Inflicting chaos among family
Worry and panic
Leading to unnecessary compromise
Dealing with it daily
Just to get by
Without a fight.

Do you know what it feels like?
The mad man's at your door
Knocking
Threatening to take away
The innocence of life.
Always watch your back
He's ready and willing to end it
In a heart beat
This killer is poison to the earth.

I've lost it all...
Lost love,
Lost my family,
Lost my sense of self,
Lost my heart along the way,
For love.
Everyone and everything
Seems to be against me.
******* the world
From my mistakes,
My disbeliefs,
My uncertainty,
My empathy,
For love.
In this moment...
Everlasting,
Painful and debilitating,
Taking over every ounce,
Square footage of my being,
I am drowning without a fight.
How could what felt like a lifetime of happiness
Feel like it is now an eternity of misery?
Knowing it was my fault...
My choices,
My beliefs,
My dishonesty,
Holding back,
For love.
Out of control,
Living a lie,
In denial,
Out of character,
All for love
After I've lost it all.

Carelessly,
I neglected you
All along,
You were here for me
I was not mindful
I'm sorry I failed you
Now, I face the consequences
You've abandoned me

I saw a picture of you today...
I got lost in your eyes.
A sink hole was formed in my stomach,
which became a resting place for my heart.
I was paralyzed in this moment,
wishing to go back in time.
There's no escape,
I could have had you by my side all along.
Now I stare into a screen.
You don't even see me.

Mind cycling, spinning me round
A crop circle, of deeper truths
Forming vibrations, within the soul
Letting me know, it's a sign
Marking the territory, building a landmark
Posting a lantern, the light is on
Just in time, go with the flow
Spiral out

You said you'd never leave me.
You were here to stay.
Days go by,
Counting down the weeks,
Maybe you were just busy.
A month gone by...
Yeah, I shed a tear
Still believing,...
You assured me,
You would be back.
How could you forget?
I was certain you'd remember.
Months have passed,
And a little bit of reminiscence recaps.
Maybe, just maybe, someday...
If the spirit is calling,
You will embrace what you said
And you will come back.
This, I believe in still.
Perhaps, I am crazy.
Perhaps, I am sane.
Perhaps, time does not even exist.
In this matter,
It is only of the motion you guided me in
All along.