If we could mend a soul
with a quick and easy fix
If we could just jump into
the chaotic spinning mix

Then life wouldn't really be
worth the gold
Which we find buried within
every persons' story told

We must find time to
listen, love and learn
This in and of itself is the
only way to catch your
worldly turn

My body is my house
furnished with secrets most
my bones are its host.
My soul is my home
where I learn to feel, to cope
my spirit the hub of my hope.
My faith is my hearth
center of every stroke and beat
my blood is my hushed heat.
My truth carries honor
at the helm I make a bold start
courage is held in my heart.
I hunger for wisdom
I dream of harmony, of kindness
my haven is pure happiness.
Hallelujah!  ready on my lips
a healing harbor on the make
Salaam!  with every handshake

Ignorance is no longer bliss
It is downright dangerous

Not understanding your fellow man
No more trying to do the best you can
Not learning the lay of the land
No time spent just trying to comprehend

Living life in an unmindful daze
Ignoring the signs of this extraordinary phase
Spending your time in an uninformed haze
Disregarding what is right in front of your gaze

So stop and spend time to discover
Just what hides behind every man's cover
To gather insight you might need to hover
Just stay the course and you'll eventually conquer

Once you stop neglecting the people you meet
Once you stop skipping by them in the street
Then you'll become aware that sharing is a treat
Then you'll go out of your way to make sure you greet

Being informed and mindful, that is bliss
Wanting to be you best and never feeling amiss

You run hot, you run cold
This attitude of yours, is getting old
I'm getting tired of being told
That the way I am, is just too bold
I don't need a lecture, no time to scold
I don't want to wait til the bell has tolled
I need someone that I can hold

You figure that you can mold
Me into some token of gold
Then when you're done, I unfold
I am then ready to be sold
My soul has been rolled
Tucked up into the fold
I no longer have to try to uphold
This game of illusions when polled

Eventually
it will be over

Eventually
it will end

Eventually
it will be gone

Eventually
I will lose

Eventually
I will hurt

Eventually
I will be without

Eventually
I will suffer

Eventually
Eventually

Who I am
Can only be
Because of who I was
Who I are
Can only come
From who I were
Who I is
Will always be
Who I am
Because it's me!
I am
I are
I is
I be
I was
I were
A living free
A giving me!

Read this fast
Pure as a song
Read this quick
You can't go wrong
For there's  a sign
That you belong
Among the brave
Amongst the strong

I love fast
I love strong
I love like a red, hot flame
branding my flesh with your name

I love quick
I love long
I love like a deep oceans' storm
climbing with waves to your form

I love with frenzy
I love with madness
I love like a summer's tempest
leaving in my wake an answered quest

I love without doubt
I love without pause
I love like a flowing field of grain
taking the pleasure and the pain

I love through the day
I love through the night
I love like blue indigo dye
giving off the answers to why

sitting in the dark
my head full of words
words that weren't mine
words that weren't kind

can things end like that
what about our souls
is it impossible to be kind
even when another possesses my mind

guilt drums through me
but is it for him or
for me, and all the years
of constant flowing tears

so what do I do
when the dawn breaks
will I still be sitting here
or gone and over there

do I choose what makes me happy
or stay out of a sense of religious duty

A flower is born beautiful
sweet in its unconsciousness
serene with its tenderness

A flower will freely
surrender to the winds
with endless twists and bends

A flower stands helpless
speaking although silent
with a voice so fragrant

A flower expresses love
is given to glory the dead
The majesty of a flowers' bed

A flower is an object of Art
their sight causes pure pleasure
an exquisite gift from nature

We each have a vision of love
what we believe love looks like
whether it is white or red heat
that gets our hearts to beat

There is the fantasy which some hold
that love will arrive in a perfect package
this breaks every realm of reality
only happening in the depths of poetry

And illusions of happily ever after
disregard all of common sense
love is like a clear blue sky
which instantly can turn grey and smoky

If you find love grab hold of it
live in the happiness it brings
share yourself without restrictions
let your mind be free of expectations

I feel released
no constraints
no permission needed
move as I wish
do as I please
I laugh and sing
Ropes are loosened
that once cut off
my circulation
I now breath
without restriction,
I stretch and grow
I feel free
I feel good
I am delivered
dance through the night
catching dawns skyline
in love and happy

Sometimes you see a love
that's like poetry in motion,
just the truth of two souls
without any pretensions

Carrying the same rhythm
they meet each other halfway,
finding within a harmony
that will forever make then stay

Sometimes the connection is subtle
so subtle it's painfully obvious
there's joy, there's such comfort
years on they are still impetuous  

Giving all of yourself to another
maybe that is what life should be
a commitment never spoken of
an answer to an unasked plea

The night is so still
in the small midwestern town
Suns slid behind the hill
to finish its day down

To walk the silent street
your lungs fill with ease
To hear the people meet
with the singing of the trees

Fireflies appear here and there
the children smile and hop
Everyone's jumping in the air
trying to capture their prop

The street emptying quickly now
thresholds entered with grateful bow

Little white lies
as they slither through a life
like a worm through the earth
leaving tracks in the truth

Little white lies
as they tangle within relationships
saying yes when feeling no
keeping quiet to save the sorrow

Little white lies
as they interweave through the years
knitting the fake amidst the cake
hiding the false for loves sake

Little white lies
as they ramble through the mind
getting lodged against things real
affecting what bits to let reveal

Little white lies
as they twist and turn
can make an unremoveable stain
leaving behind an insane pain

Once upon a time
her day was filled with laughter
Then he stole her freedom
and she cried ever after

Once she could smile
the whole day through
After he came, she turned
sad, lonely and blue

Once she loved him
with every beat of her heart
Now her only wish
is that she never let this start

Once she felt happy
in the life that she was leading
Now her every memory
is of the way he left her bleeding

Once can never come again
somethings can never mend
She'll walk through life alone
Trust will never be her friend

A quest for devotion
through any storm
Sensation like an ocean
feeling every charm

A search for attachment
believe in that delight
Dare to be innocent
revel in the fright

Look for that guardian
comfort that you seek
Graced with persuasion
hits your highest peak

Keep a tunnel of logic
divide with level calm
Celebrate the magic
the technique is in the palm

Experience adoration
an absolute ideal
Is it real or deception
believe: be free to feel

Love can find you in such mysterious ways
in the beauty of a sunny day
if you just let the morning come to stay

Love will overtake you in the dark of the night
why try to fight it, tis your right
a word, a touch, there's no need for sight

Love is a promise made
to cherish the bond and not be afraid
so consider your words before they're laid

The possibilities have no end
like the smile of a devoted friend
open up, realize LOVE is a Godsend

Then is just becomes apparent
that love is something so brilliant
maybe it's Earth's most precious element

Wash away all  my grief
Fill my world with belief
Caress away all  my pain
Show me how to love again
Love, Rain down on me
          Rain, rain down on me
Whisper away all  my doubt
Until I can't live without
Cleanse me, from all my past
You'll be the one til the last
Love, Rain down on me
          Rain, rain down on me
Kiss me, let it never end
You're my very best friend
Hold me throughout all our lives
Let's watch how this love survives
Love, Rain down on me
          Rain, rain down on me

If love finds you
isn't that all that's true

Shouldn't you take the chance
even if it's a sinful dance

Could you just follow your heart
setting your mind apart

Hoping you have done no wrong
you only listened to the song

Your soul filled with joy
even as each step set to destroy

How could such love be so bad
maybe truth is only for the mad

There once was a man of eighty
He loved the feeling of liberty
He could never be confined
The trouble was when he dined
He marched about with his naked dignity

Who we try to be
who we want others to see
whispers through our souls

What charms we possess
what leads to our success
wisdom guides the way

When love enters the fold
when life's radiant and bold
will our wonders never end

Where honesty takes you
where loyalty makes true
worry not of the past

Why do we dream with grandeur
why wish for a worthy future
wise have faith and believe!

I wait to hear his voice
it carries a special lilt
how could I ever have heard guilt

I wait to see his smile
how can I live without that
Oh, my days will be so flat

I wait to touch his hand
the very thing to bring me peace
how can I survive if that were to cease

I wait to smell his scent
like a mellow brew of green tea
with a breeze wafting off the sea

Now I will have to wait forever
since I pushed him so far away
with my doubt and insecurity

Why did I say that to him
why was I so sure he did wrong
why couldn't I believe our love was strong

He will never again believe
that I trust his faith in us
I've lost my life's sweetness

What constitutes a mistake
Who's the judge of fault
What jury grades the assault

Be it an error by hand
Something fell awry
Can it be fixed by and by

Be it a blunder of the tongue
Something spoken wrong
Will it be forgiven before long

Be it a thought gone askew
False misunderstanding,
Call it what it is due

Be it a flaw caught by the eye
An incorrect image found
Can it be repaired and bound

What of the slip of the heart
Leaving people torn apart
When feelings go astray
But you still must live that day
Feeling broken and so unsure
Rely on time to be the cure

When did it happen
When did I abandon ME!

When did I just surrender
When did I lose my character

My heart breaks from blame
When did my life become a game

My belly aches for change
It thunders and rolls, so strange

My conscience howls
As my soul growls

How do I find ME again
It will be my chance when

I have to find contentment
Even if that means a derailment

Why is it
that that box
I put away
under everything
is the only box
I seem to want
to look inside?

But I wrapped it up,
I taped it shut
I made sure it
was all inside;
every piece of
our time together,
bits of paper
with words written;
that were word he once spoke

I purged my soul
I scraped out my heart
I thought that would
take care of my agony
but sometimes it seems
the ache will never leave
the words come flooding
back til I think
I'll drown in them all

If I break the seal
on that box
I will only
persecute my soul,
torture my heart,
rip my life apart.
So why do I keep it?

Because the pain
held inside that box
was the sweetest
misery I've ever
experienced.
The most cherished
time I've spent
with abandonment

That is why
that box shall
remain put away
to be there forever
as my safeguard
of discretion,
my defense
of injustice

Give to me your smiles,
your heart, your wiles
That's all I need

Let me hear your laughter
your happily ever after
That's all I want

Tell me all of your fears
I'll kiss away all your tears
that's all I ask

Lend me your time
I'll give to you mine
That's all there is

You exist for
your freedom.
You don't want
to belong to me.
I can't compete
with such easy
liberality.....
With such
an opponent,
I would eventually,
unintentionally
let you down.....

somebody else stepped in
when I spread myself too thin
I thought he could wait
as I piled more "to-dos" upon my plate

but he was so right
I couldn't even see the fight
my focus on a future phase
but "we" were lost in the haze

how could I forget the days
all his charm and beautiful ways
when our life was quite perfect
being confident in love led to neglect

praying I can repair the damage
beg forgiveness and try to manage
I'll promise to make "us" a must
please, I have to get back his love and trust

If I were to say no
would that start up another go
once again, another fight
we can't seem to make it right
We have words and how
so very often now
but can we carry on
every moment at full run
So then when you say
there's no other way
we are bound up tight
with no freedom in sight
What can I do now
forever baited by a vow
I don't think this is my dream
I'd rather live in radiances' gleam
I tell him we have grown apart
I'm rather mellow, while you're so ****
he takes that badly
commencing to mope about sadly
As if it's something untrue
sometimes I think he hasn't a clue
but I have to do what's best for me
hoping maybe he'll be able to see
That it will truly be good for us
we could separate with the least bit of fuss
he won't be humiliated with the shame
he really believes people will blame

I

I met a man upon my walk
He seemed ever so inclined to talk
As he turned and walked in step with me
Under the shade of the gorgeous elm tree

Of what we spoke it did not matter
He stayed near me through all the chatter
We walked for a mile to the rivers edge
We sat on the bank, there on the ledge

Even the minutes of quiet were pure delight
I could have sat there with him throughout the night
When up I stood, he did then follow
Whispering around me like a graceful swallow

We crossed the bridge over the river
Hand in hand feeling the wood planks quiver
Beneath us the water so swift and clear
I've never let anyone before get so near

I awoke with a start, this memory on my mind
Perhaps this is the beginning and I can
Finally leave the past behind
Once again I might imagine that
People are kind

In the beginning
starting with a powerful need
there was fire, desire
a tendency toward greed

In the middle
came the perfect beauty
two hearts possessing
each others every liberty

And the end
brought devastation
two souls not quite ready
for the affairs completion

Perhaps they misjudged and
wonderment was in each part
but, alas, the end was there
with them from the very start

As she closes the door
she leaves behind a lover.
She moves through her day
as regularly as possible.
Can people see a difference,
she is forever changed.
Unfaithful..Adulterer..
She wears a black mark.

How can it be right.
How can it be so good.
How can she continue.
And how can she not.
She knows the longer
she sees him the harder
it will be to end it.
But it will end.
There is no future there.
Just a connection
which is indescribable!!

Why is it
when we obey pain
it is seen as
heroic and the
normal order;
BUT
if we obey joy
we are considered
romantic and
naive

When actually
yielding to either
takes the same effort,
conforming our senses
to comply with
their interests;
reacting to our
bodies signals,
replying to our
bodies suggestions,
responding with
appropriate
service or distress

Our brain has
all authority,
controlling whether
agony or ecstasy
is the occupation
of this powerful
all important *****

madness has arrived
deadly infatuation
I know what this is
only foolish passion
but so worth my sanity

Rain just makes me smile
makes me stop and think awhile

When a fine mist hits my face
like a delicate sheet of lace

Each raindrop downward sent
each raindrop finds its target meant

I see lightening in the distance
another sign of your holy presence

Hot shivers run to my spine
waking my blood which is thine

Pouring from the sky, cool and wet
giving me solace, alas, so I can forget

Come with me, we'll go on a spree
Spend some time to see
If this can turn into we

Talk of what we feel
Walk together toe then heel
See if our pace matches for real
See if we can compromise and deal

We'll stop to picnic by a stream
Eat perfect strawberries with the freshest cream
The rhythm of this day has been a dream
We are happy, or so it may seem

We watch the sunset from the top of the hill
This day spent together has been such a thrill
As the evening comes it brings with it a chill
With your arm round me the earth seems to stand still

As we return to where we began our day
Tomorrow you will travel along on your way
If I could only be brave enough to say
All the words you need to hear, to make you stay

But it would never be right
I couldn't make you live with such contrite
So we say goodbye--so sweet and polite
I'll always wonder if I should have
Put more into the fight

How do you
choose
either one or
the other;
when neither
can save you,
why should
you bother.
Whether you
can wait
for another
that may be
in the future
farther,
would that
even matter?
Perhaps you
would rather
wither than
smother!!

a very dull ache
its almost not really there
then you remember
all the agony returns
then you must forget again

each picture captures
that moment set in stillness
an image appears
now your senses will perceive
pulling reason from the ryhme

After following
his every movement;
his very motion
commanding
me to comply

After fulfilling
every need
and impulse;
happily we lie
in our familiarity

Our skin moist and hot
in each other's sweat,
our breathing calming,
our heartbeats quieting

Our hands never
part from each other,
our words mingle,
our eyes connect

Our comfort in
the knowledge of
one another;
makes us feel
complete and at ease

I dream of perfect blue skies
forever before my eyes

If only each day could be
a sweetly played symphony

Evenings would be full of stars
with charming men on string guitars

As women sway and dance about
my soul gives off a joyful shout

Midnight looms and peace is here
the day is about to disappear

Dawn will bring its fresh new day
I shall rise and begin to pray

From the first moments
it was word for word
between us,
a parley of ideas
that just flowed free

From the first sentence,
thought for thought
we answered each other;
as if inside of some
ideal, fantastical dream

As we walked,
as we talked,
taking pause to
consume what was
taking place here

We said goodbye
thoroughly satisfied,
pleased with the play by play;
promising to repeat this
pleasure as soon as possible

That which drips from the poison pen
Making its home on the blank page
Words burning into the eyes of men
Causing sensations of hatred and rage

Doubt once raised from the venom spilt
Gives salacious gossip permission to thrive
Terms so vicious they make a man wilt
Causing havoc like an endangered beehive

Phrases so alarming to sully emotions
Seen in written form; off ones toxic mark
Are there no boundaries or exceptions
Just the shame of the blame in the dark

To insult anonymously is most cruel
He who holds that pen is a coward
Sign the missive and prepare to duel
Show the scorn of which contempt is powered

The wound caused by the tainted pen
Can live deep in the recesses of the mind
Anyone sane will always condemn
Hoping they'll never open one of its kind

His love is dangerous
of this I am well aware
I will never feel secure

So if I know the risks
why do I keep returning
what is it I am seeking

My yielding to him
says much more about me
of that I absolutely agree

He's like a virus in my blood
hazardous to my soul
but still my only goal

Why should I want to hurt myself
can I really be so shameless
but his control over me seems endless

don't vow anything
promises most always fail
we make oaths and swear
then you throw life in the mix
and our words tumble and fall

Looking out at the world of rain
Beating steady on the window pane

See the flowers and bushes bend
Sweet rain, will make every amend

Stepping out from under the tree
Feeling the drops fall all over me

Splash through the puddles
Til I'm a complete muddle

And when the rain is done
Then I wait for the sun

The fresh pure scent in the air
There is nothing that can compare

I go lay myself in the grass
Wait for that moment at last

Don't want to miss a minute of the bliss
As the rainbow appears from my past

His voice ripples through me
it vibrates in my belly
it rips through my soul
leaving me without control

His flawless tones
beat about my ribs
as he tells his tale
his magic never fails

His whispers in the dark
turn me senseless
as I drown so deeply
giving in to his echoes joyfully

I'm tightly wrapped up in him
like plush smooth satin
waiting for his next velvety sound
both satisfied and spellbound

Hearts bleed out scarlet
Tomatoes grow on the vine
Love burns like a fire
We stop when we see the sign
Joy paints on a tint of rouge

I gave away a part of myself
a part I don't want back
I can't take it back now
it will always belong to him

No worry, I have been fully
compensated tenfold
I won't be forgetting his heart
anytime throughout my life
It used to beat with mine
kept rhythm with time

I can still wake in the night
I can still feel him there
I'm sure he's still here
even though I know I left him
at the cemetery yesterday

Revenge is a scary beast
it invades ones soul
leaving not a moment of peace

Feelings have been insulted
one weighs the ways to retaliate
although knowing it will leave one faulted

Senses feel an injustice was done
all thinking is of the retribution to come
however could this have all begun

Emotions are enflamed
grievances carried are heavy
who could sight the offendeds blame

Sentiments may hold vengeance as vulgur
to get satisfaction from avenging another
wouldn't forgiveness be the better gesture

Revenge holds no borders sacred
it is a scary realm to enter into
to want to hear one plead as they bleed
Is that really what your heart and souls needs