a tale of wonder
told with charm and disguised grin
with dreamy delights
with fanciful affection
extravagantly detailed

I sit at my rear window looking
over the rooftop of the opposite building

There's a woman who frequents there
she's tall and lean with ebony hair

I smile to myself as I wait
she ha mesmerized me, as of late

There she is now, right on time
she steps out in all her exquisite prime

I sigh, Ahh, she has such a carefree way
it's enchanting to see her joyous and gay

She strolls from corner to corner, then back
her happiness shows in each step of her tracks

I giggle as she skips and twirls
her head a mass of bouncing curls

She possesses my attention for this little while
she's my allusion of the Queen of The Nile

I am floating on high
my life has been blessed
thoughts of he make me sigh
my soul has been caressed

Love is such a wonder
we share our secrets
even if we flounder
never will we have regrets

Look at what we've found
joyousness forever
we are tightly bound
we spend our sins together

In your arms I wish to linger
as we dance and sway
each instant lasts longer
as we serve and obey

No moments of dread
this love is so worthy
our time is sacred
our love has such beauty

You close your ears
I'll close my eyes
Maybe we'll make it through
This life filled with lies

No one's to blame
No need for shame
Everyone knows this
Is all just a game

With your habits
With my disposition
Life for us has become
A state of deception

What about an end
With no regrets
We would each walk away
And just forget

No more anger
No longer doubt
We need to accept
That this hasn't worked out

Goodbye to monotony
So long to boredom
Admit it, we both
Deserve our freedom

There are four seasons,
of that we can depend
Each reveals its reasons,
we do attempt amends

With a whisper comes spring,
secret charms to view
The divine beauty it brings,
mornings sprinkled with dew

Summer arrives with such power,
absolute influence of the sun
Tokens of the late showers,
soothing pleasure when day is done

Autumn jumps in with flame and glory,
the boldest colors to behold
Harmony of a perfect story,
you never tire of being told

Hear the scream of winter,
ivory calm at a glance
You can receive an answer,
having solace, if by chance

At the very beginning,
to the very end,
there will be seasons changing
Of that we can depend

I couldn't help myself
I had to have him
I needed to see if
what I felt was real,
If I could really feel!

This led to my downfall,
my heart exploded
my mind imploded
my character lost
A massacre of my soul!

My every cell screams for him
I am in utter ruin
I will never regain sanity
that has been eradicated
from my very identity

What I have done
I have ravaged my spirit
I can't ever trust myself
I gave more that I had to him
I walked away empty, alone & crushed!

I was just trying
to protect what I had;
So I said nothing!

I was determined to
remain blissfully happy;
So I said nothing!

I was inclined to
ignore our differences;
So I said nothing!

I was thriving on
our similar proclivities;
So I said nothing!

I was not ever going
to let him down;
So I said nothing!

I was, just this once
letting my heart lead;
So I said nothing!

So I said nothing!

Simple things complete our day
Breakfast of bread with cheese
Starts us on our way
Also tea, with milk, please

Morning walk up the lane
Birds and bees flitting around
A gentle shower of rain
Gives pleasure to the ground

Quiet hours spent in reading
Spirit comes alight with joy
Another hour garden needs weeding
A day spent without annoy

Sunset in all it's glory
Gives credit to today's story

It seems I am condemned
to a doom of my own making
I should have stopped myself from falling

I'm guilty by default;
censured by society
criticized for said impropriety

I carry no defense for
my offense as charged;
so are they really a crime?

My mistake is my trusting
my own self-persuasions;
my personal convictions

My only shame is one
of self- blame for letting
sweetness become a game

Shouldn't my deceit
be judged by God alone;
only he decides whom to condone!

As I roam through
the produce section
I'm just too spoiled
with all the selection

I could opt for spinach
a salad could suit
With tomato and mushroom
my days vitamins to boot

Maybe to pick broccoli
would be the perfect choice
Toss it up with pasta
a bowl with a bold voice

It's so hard to decide
Do I elect to stirfry
Something fresh and savory
it's such an easy alibi

Oh, whatever I choose
it will be eaten with pleasure
Then I will return another day
to pick a whole other treasure

As the wind surrounds me
I catch a waft of scent
from which direction was it meant

Beryl blue is the sky today
I inhale an essence so pure
from whence it came, is heaven I'm sure

There is an aura of tranquility
I feel a substance in the atmosphere
it pulls me in and holds me near

I close my eyes and take a breath
I wait for that bittersweet balm
it has some power that turns me calm

As happiness envelops me
I appreciate all that I cannot see
and am grateful to just be

woe still lives here
the influence of misery
hangs in the air,
gloom is right there

woe hits me as I awake
another day with agony
sorrow has its sway
alas, It stays

woe I feel bleak and blue
darkness shadows me
with an unseen force
upon my days course

woe I'm followed with doom
my life of angst
has a mighty hold
which leaves me alone and cold

I know this is wrong
but so very right;
this makes no sense
still so perfect.
This connection.
This comfort.
This breath.
This pain.
There's no fear.
There's no doubt.
There's only this.
Where you start,
where I end
is unknown.
It's there
where we
should be.
Where we are.
This will never end.
This is simply us.
Only us!
So very right!

A splash of
vanilla
behind the ear
will make you
smile playfully.
Cinnamon up
your mood today
with a shot of
ginger's juice;
Cayenne up
your pleasure.
Throw some nutmeg
in to boost
the senses.
Take a clove
out for a
spicy treat.
Sometimes we
need to curry up,
so add in
a pinch of
cardamom,
or cumin
it way down.
Have some fun!
We know that
variety
gives much spice,
such fragrance
to our lives!

All worry evaporates
as I stand to pray
as I repeat this tranquility
throughout my day

I get those hushed moments
to be there with God alone
to express my gratitude
for all the happiness I own

So as I am surrounded
daily by my usual activity
I know my every night
will end in peace and serenity

dominate me now
throw your power in my face
give me my command
please control my very breath
I'm your obedient slave

As I got deeper
and darker
into the game,
I found that
playing became
my one aim.

I love carrying
a destructive secret
around with me,
until I realized
I wasn't playing alone.
It can be deadly
to share such secrets.
That's a level
of trust that's
risky to give another!

BUT games
are meant to
have players!
So I hold my
skepticism at bay,
I will rely on
the other players
discretion, as I
know they are
depending on mine...

So I dive deeper,
I'll let it burn
darker.....
I'll let the secrets
edge their way
to the surface,
then bury them
again..... in
deception...

I will carry on
in the game
until I can't;
until the danger
is immediate and
I can find no way
of escaping....
BUT I shall
never resign.
I've sacrificed
so much,
there is too much
at stake to lose!

she heard about it
words: nouns used to describe her
is this how she's seen
if only people thought twice
before they spread vile judgements

his skin like velvet
as my fingers glide over
we are connected
feeling each ridge and hollow
giving sweet heat and joy

we don't speak of it
it lies between us like sand
gritty and profuse
any movement shifts the dune
so we remain motionless

Tell me....
does the moon still
make you sway
does the falling rain
still make the day

Tell me....
do you still smile when
you hear the word bunny
do you shut your eyes
when she calls you honey

Tell me....
can you remember
our walks in the wood
can you remember
when "we" were so good

Tell me....
should I give up
and forget about you
or wait for you to finish
what you feel has come due

Please tell me why
I have to deny
I cannot verify
The one thing I try
That makes me high

Please tell me why
I have to defy
I cannot rely
On that which will satisfy
Keeping me from this lie

Please tell me why
I have to be sly
When everything is nigh
Still all want to vie
They want their piece of the pie
And I just want to unify

Please tell me why
Every beautiful butterfly
Has to prematurely die
It should be the harmony
That leads the way to unity

Please tell me why
I have to feel shy
I can't even cry
My eyes have run dry
I'll get by with just a sigh

Everything in me says "no"
But I still have to stay for the show

I'm not the type to leave slow
I rather cling round the shadows

I can always make you glow
When you follow from down below

I'm not the type to come and go
I seem to flow around like an echo

I can often cause a fiasco
Then turn about and become the hero

I'm not the type to not know
I undergo all to become a pro

When everything in me says "no"
I take a deep breath and ...blow

A poem can touch your heart
Turning a river into blood
Imagining a word can stop a flood

A poem can surround your soul
Turn a second into love
Phrases fit like hand in glove

A poem can intoxicate your mind
Turning rhythm into a high
The sounds, the sway will bring a  sigh

A poem can raise your spirit
Turning language into ART
Making speech the foremost part

A poem can express using words
Feelings and thoughts of a moment
Pulling from us our every sentiment

The obligation comes swiftly
back into my memory

No matter what excuse I make
there's a bond there I can not break

Freedom will become absent
where the promise of debt is present

The power of the pledge is mighty
even if only an assumed duty

Our conscience won't let us forget
we deny ourselves rather than forfeit

I wish for liberty, to rule my own day
but the recollections will always make me stay

Inside I feel a savage storm
it gales and then pales
then blusters through m,y sopul
My mind is filled with chaos
as the fierce blasts of thought
erupt my waking hours
My dreams run rough and wild
as the tempest brews within
I have no control over the twister
My whirlwind is private
I've learned to tame the storm
learned to manage the rush
My wildness builds auspiciously
I've trained my storms into silence
until I'm alone and pensive
then it lets loose with fervor

One, two, three
what is it you see
when you look at me
Would you like to be the jury

The question, we agree
can lead to discovery
of a lovely mystery,
giving forth high energy
        or.........
a hazy reality,
may appear so softly
the veil uncovered quietly
to reveal my sensibilities

A glance so friendly
smile given so freely
as precious as ivory
Perhaps the needed key

Thoughts crowd cleverly
in the busy memory,
then so very suddenly
You recognize security

Letting go of anxiety
does not come easily,
but when you regard honesty
Notions become reality

In a dream I heard a scream
Although it did seem
To be calling a name

I heard an empty rhyme
In a lovers foolish game
My heart went up in flames

There was a black gloom
Filling up a white room
Giving out a dark doom

A body in the frame
A mind is in a screen
The spirit reigns supreme

For sure there is a scheme
Of which I can redeem
And find hope and esteem

In a dream all was serene
I awoke to a beam
Of the suns bright stream

The poor letter "f" is used so lewdly
Next time it wants to trip off your tongue so rudely
Challenge yourself to choose more crudely

Try Oh, fantastic; Oh, fabulous,  or maybe
Frolic you   or Finesse me
What of fudge, fruitjuice or flapjacks

There is a fanfare of flavor
There is a flutter to savor
There is a flame from a lover

There's felicity , freedom and fortune
Not to mention: faith , family and fun
All doled out in flawless portion

So the next time you feel the urge
To throw out an "F" bomb ; please purge
Don't forget to be flamboyant
Find a flair and be radiant

You will feel more friendly faces
Forever in your familiar spaces
Waiting for your fragrant graces

Short and sweet
Tall and ****
Do I make you blush?
Slow and sleek
Fast and flush
Quick and quiet
Can you feel the rush?
Open and offered
Closed and cush
Locked and loyal
I'll beg you to hush!
Cold and clear
Hot and harsh
Humid and hazy
Wait for the push!
There's the final crush
So full and so plush
Now I give you leave to blush!

Down the haunted hall
halt in the hazy hell
Run til you reach the hill
heed when you hear
   the howl
Hush til you see the hero
    in the hull

If you peer over the edge
What is it you'll see
There deserted on the ledge
A glimpse of the real me

Balancing the brink of doom
Secluded from the pack
Circling the margin of the room
Preparing my attack

If you survey the empty border
Isolated, there I'll be
Don't approach as a consoler
I'm not looking for pity

I've examined the single rim
Its boundary my constant view
As if upon inspecting the brim
I'm hoping to notice a clue

Feeling the outsider
Regarded as recluse
Behold I'm the caretaker
Astonished and profuse

If you peek over the edge
Will it be me you'll see

The man in the tree
he's there for all to see
Who will spot him
those with creativity

The man in the tree
What do you think he sees
looking down through the leaves
all the conditions that we weave

The man in the tree
Shows us all how to be free
swaying with liberty in the wind
twisting loose from all we've sinned

The man in the tree
Shows us all how to live with glee
enchanted by the beauty all around
delighted to hear every little sound

The man in the tree
Oh, how I wish that I could be
perched up there, over the earth
witnessing all that love brings forth

Her shoulders are broad
Her feet are wide
Her heart is where
I wish to reside

Her back is strong
Her hips are roomy
She's where I run to
When feeling gloomy

Her hair is coarse steel
Her hands large and rough
Her smile my beacon
Her laugh bold and gruff

Her height astounds me
Her love surrounds me
She's my one treasure
She'll be mine forever

Swing, swing, swing
follow the flow with my legs
that is what the rhythm begs
So calm and soothing

Creak, creak, creak
while I let my soul drift
as the screws and bolts shift
I find comfort in each squeak

Rock, rock, rock
a habit forming pleasure
my every afternoon treasure
In all weather to here I flock

Watch, watch, watch
as the world goes passing by
a rainy day can get me high
Back and forth, like the game of catch

Sway, sway, sway
as my feet brush the floor
away my anxieties do soar
All my troubles are gone today

He said, "How much do you love me?"
She said, "If you don't know then I pity you!"
He said, "So you would never leave me,
                 no matter what?"
She said, "No never!"
He said, "I lied to you."
She said, " About what?"
He said, "Everything."
She said, "Oh, Why?"
He said, "I thought you would never stay
                 if you knew the truth."
She said, "So you don't trust me?"
He said, "Yeah, I do now. Do you trust me?"
She said, "Yes, Always!"
He said, "Thank You."
She said, " You're welcome."
He said, "Ask me anything and I will
                 answer you honestly."
She said, "How much do you love me?"
He said, "More than any words can convey."
She said, "Thank You."
He said, "You're Welcome."

We made plans to meet yearly
We put our trust in each other
No matter what lifes' little bothers
One week together, with no harry

The first year we chose Toronto
Crisp, clear air to walk through
Sharing the time as we choose to do
We decide to lead as we follow

We met the next year in Rome
At the height of summertime
Love flowing like a verse in rhyme
We left with passions still abloom

We met one year in Paris
When spring was in the air
Our love in full bursting flair
Out time ended to quickly, alas

One year we met in Sydney
The weather was truly fabulous
Sometimes we agree this is dangerous
Perhaps time has come to live honestly

The last year we met was in Rio
We talked of all this time spent lingering
We know we have to stop the deluding
So we ended the affair with no sorrow

Go follow storms hold
   from hot to cold
On soft sorrows sold

For floods shock
  from wool to stock
Of old mans' clock

Lost to strong flow
  from door to roots low
No blooms bold do show

So sooth scorns ghost
  from good grown host
Common honor bonds most

Please remind me why
The rain doesn't wash this off
I still see the stain
From kneeling on the green patch
Trying to reach thyme

The connection
to him is
broader than
I can fathom.
The connection
with him
can't be broken.
It's the
perfection of
two lost souls
looking for
each others fix.
Looking for
happiness.
Searching for
acceptance.
Our differences
secure the bond.
Our need of
one another
ties the knot.

He gives to me his love
he says that's all he has,
if he but only knew
how much that love was worth

The fortune I find
within his smile is priceless
his laugh laced with gold
he's my own dear one

There is a treasure
hiding in his hugs,
he gives them to me
in utter abundance

His kisses carry
all the riches
offered in this world
he's my precious love

As long as he is
giving me his love
I shall remain one of the
wealthiest in this world

with our first meeting
came a wave of contention
I am in trouble
deep inside there's a battle
my past against my future

Living with a world of labels::
I choose to break free,
I choose to live with
no assumptions,
to question everything &
accept individual diversity

I let my heart take me
to a place of love & liberty
I let my mind take me
to a place where I feel carefree
with no inhibitions in sight

I believe in intentions,
I believe we should
live undefined;
ruled by happiness.
Accepting differences offered
with joy and an eagerness
to better our world

You think you want to see
the who I am behind my veil
that truth is a long held tale
My reasons to cover and conceal
come from years of lonely pain
an ever present hidden strain
You think I should remove
my mask and reveal myself to you
as if it would be so easy to do
I step into my disguise
it's my choice and I choose to hide
should I be concerned with your pride
You think I need to trust you more
once before I let myself be free
and was exposed to doom and misery
If I mean anything to you
accept that I am the cloak in the crowd
allow me the security of my plain shroud

There are so many points of view
perhaps believe in one or two
though on the edge of old or new
maybe taboo, maybe taboo

Sometimes life is lived in secret
if the forbidden can be kept
then life can be lived on a bet
never to fret, never to fret

It's of course best to live anew
notice each and every clue
feel awashed by every hue
live to be true, live to be true

My head
can't find the words,
but my heart
has no problem being heard
Sadness overwhelms me
every breath I make
seems to take me
farther away from my sanity
His words
they reached inside me
they pulled me up
they held me tight
Can you fall in love
sight unseen?
How important is the case
which houses our soul?
The emotions we feel
the feelings are real
when you fall into love
will another ever do?

I terrify myself
with my resentful
actions---
when did I become
so perfidious...
and the scariest part
is that  I don't
feel the guilt
I should---
or is that what
is alarming...

A YEARS' END

On the last day of another year
I think, I sigh, I shed a tear

So much has come my way
many a beautiful, awe-filled day

All the love I've been given
within this faith I've been livin

All the faces I've greeted
such lovely souls I have meeted

So another year has come to pass
I feel its gains and losses, alas

I thank the blessed year for its glee
it has ended and I feel I'm a better me

A bit wiser and thoughtful; a year older
more informed and a wee bit bolder

If I can
quench
my thirst
and
at the same
moment
cure
my ailment;
should I
not then
drink
of the
divine
concoction
of this
love potion
that I have
discovered

My body goes numb
it's on the tip of my tongue
My anger and my doubt
should I dare to lash out
Or do I say not a thing
and give in to the sting
My head full of voices,
now's the time to make choices
To stay or to walk away
to get caught up in the verbal parley
Or just give up the fight
does it really matter who's right
The next time I'll be steady
calm, prepared and ready