The man who lived in the
back of my mind,
has now appeared.
He has always lived in
a fleeting fantasy,
caught between ennui
and discontentment.
But now he lives,
he exists.
Perhaps I am just a bit mad,
Perhaps my unhappiness
has brought me to this
state of mania.
My imagination taking over
every thought process
that I possess.

Perhaps he wasn't really
standing right there,
he wasn't actually
talking to me, with a voice
I could swear I knew.
Maybe tomorrow
I will realize that my mind
hasn't been functioning
quite properly.
That my heart has been
so very lonely,
for such a long time;
that I've let caprice
just build and grow
without any thought
to rationality.

But then tomorrow came.
He was there again.
With the same smile,
the same words spoken.
Only now, I can't seem
to remember my past...

He smiles like the sunrise
quick and flawless;
his face brings me delight
his eyes smoky enchantment

His words are delicious pleasure
as he speaks of wishes, of hopes
of our being together,
we purr with joyfilled chatter

His hands insight me,
his arms can calm me,
his heart has entrapped me
giving me a complete haven

I can see in my mind
a world that is kind
an existence so refined

I can see the design
which is hiding behind
the confused rhythm and rhyme

It can't be too hard to find
if I just follow the sign
and let it lead me to define

I know I can appear blind
and occasionally opine
for past days in the sunshine

I'm sure I can stop
and rewind,
remembering that
LOVE is the bind

It can't be too hard to mend
It takes so much to pretend
I'd rather we all just be friends
Living in a world of no amends

put me on
as you would a shirt,
your hands
reach inside of me,
your head
the center of my heart,
I fit snug against
your belly and
caress your back
with every movement,
my fabric soothes you
each motion you make
pulls my weave tighter
and secures our bond,
my color suits you
choose me each and
every morning
I'll be your armor,
take me off
with the greatest care
press and fold me,
let me rest my
seamly soul
next to your
til the day
turns you

It started with his smile
I got hooked
I found I began to obsess
he nabbed me with his wile
how he looked flung me into endless madness

I must appease this urge
my one vice
to satisfy my mania
when the craving does surge
don't think twice
just solve my current dilemma

My thoughts they run savage
at the least
my impulse to quell this desire
this force causes ravage
feed the beast
briefly halting this inner fire

We are one;
one thought
one view
one future
a combined soul
moving forward
to experience life,
to get everything
we can from each day!
We are one;
our hands touch
our lips meet
our hearts collide
in utter joy & fulfillment!
We are one;
with one idea
with one goal
to live happy & free
to be forever
you and me!

some days
I feel blue
I can't explain
why that's true

my thoughts
will stick somewhere
in my past
tears will be there

I won't
be able to shake
this funk I feel
as long as  awake

so I'll try
to not weep
long enough
to fall asleep

for sure
tomorrow
will hold
less sorrow

Soak in the scene
go on, bathe in the green

Introduce yourself to something neat
natural essences pure and sweet

Stand still and steep in the calm
feel loves imparting balm

Let nature permeate your soul
come on, give it a roll

Surrender all your defenses
plunge in, relieve your senses

Submerge your heart with feelings
sink in, experience the healings

Immersion is lifes' remedy
so revel in the Earth's beauty

I am prone to chase the words
words that fill me with courage
courage to probe my feelings
feelings which lead me to peace
peace in my hunt for wisdom
wisdom to accept guidance
guidance from other seekers
seekers who see truth as grace
grace to be open and kind
kind in their pursuit of hope
hope in a future with faith
faith to explore their visions
visions which include freedom
freedom to be who they want
want liberty to be true
true to themselves and others
others will sense their candor
candor can open their hearts
hearts full of caution and need
need for happiness and love
love that can flow free and grow
grow bolder and healthier
healthier with no limits
limits waived to let in ease
ease to speak sad, bad or glad
glad for the attention paid
paid with interest rendered
rendered with care and silence
silence to own the moments
moments of brave and real words
words that play their part fully
fully fulfilling their aim
aim to relay ideas
ideas that add a depth
depth of spirit and purpose
purpose to convey knowledge
knowledge to fit in the scheme
scheme to spread peace,hope and truth
truth will overwhelm their souls
souls which want to sway and shout
shout out with passionate joy
joy that arrives with frankness
frankness that has radiance
radiance with daring flare
flare that will inspire sharing
sharing our every thought
thought thrown out to reach and teach
teach each other that words help
help to heal all that we feel

Is it just a dream,
a fantasy that will
never become reality.
A vision I have hoped
into existence, yet
has no chance
of survival.
A wish I have
imagined coming true,
conceived in my heart!
A desire so deep
within my soul--
that it can't be
captured--it must
remain free!

Say something to me now
anything is better than this and how

I need the words said
not just assumed instead

Express yourself; it's only me
try to let your thoughts be free

Your being here isn't enough
I've decided to call the bluff

So speak to me from your heart
or I fear we will have to part
Iif you can't meet my needs
admit to it and concede

SHE
She's so tall, so fair
with gorgeous fine hair
her smile is quick, sweet and free
with lips made to please
kissing with such ease
her laughter will bring you glee

She's a green eyed lass
delicate as glass
precious from the start
she's been touched with grace
a cute, freckly face
and a pure forgiving heart

HE
He's tall with fine eyes
hands just the right size
he's very kind and thoughtful
he walks with head high
he talks with no lies
having a soul so peaceful

With eyes of deep brown
his smile calms you down
he was created to charm
using his sweet voice
he'll make the best choice
his motto "to never harm"

THEY
They met on a flight
attached at first sight
for hours they held their fortune
then the plane landed
so they were candid
caught up in their emotions

they were sure of this
they shared their first kiss
the next hours spent in rapture
now choices to make
wild chances to take
together is their future

sometimes I wonder
where new words
will come from,
all the words juggle
for position in  my mind..
my thoughts grab onto a few,
puts them into an order
that might create sense;
perhaps they will succeed
or maybe I need to dig
a little bit deeper to
find that one perfect word,
that makes it fit together..
sometimes the words just
glide gracefully along with
a harmony of their own;
but at other times
it can be a
painstaking process that
can cause much agony,
until the right words are
pulled from my mind,
landing side by side
on my blank paper in
some mystifying fashion
that brings me
satisfaction

I watch from the window
I see the gardener there
As he approaches each shrub
As he caresses every foot of hedge
This I see from my lofty ledge

She comes along then
And takes her seat
Watching him in the summer heat
Seeing him reach and bend
Wishing she could be his friend

He notices her nearness
Sensing her following gaze
He smiles to himself in wonder
Would he  find the right words to say
Could he muster the courage today


Watching them
Watching each other
I realize people often play safe
Not wanting to make a mistake
But wishing to try for loves sake

Before I met him
I was sure I knew myself
Before I met him
I thought I knew what I needed
But he broke through
every preconceived notion
that I possessed
Before I used to know what was
good, true  & right
Now it doesn't matter about
the appearances--they can really
be way too deceiving
Before I lived a life
of uncertainty, monotony
& sheer loneliness
Living with an ache
for completeness
deep within my soul
His presence has brought me
peace, happiness & a sense
of belonging
Before I met him
I was ready to submit
to my destiny
I was prepared to take
what I had, accept my lot in life
But now, since I met him
I'm not so sure that
I want to give in,
I'm not so sure I
want to settle--
& live my life
as I had before.....

Love is a mysterious,
undefinable feeling;
an enigma worth unraveling

Love is felt in every country
stated in every language
with a billion ways to manage

Love is present in each friendship
it infiltrates all family structures
able to mend many a fracture

Love can seem to be
incomprehensible; an emotion
with no exact explanation

Love is a thought, a belief
it fills a life with wondrous pleasures
leaving a heart with endless treasures

When love finds its home
then nothing else can matter
life becomes ecstatic familiar chatter

Dark and gloomy night
The sky like a blinking screen
Ink stains the plain page
Leaving ebony designs
Which heighten our dreams

a dark night
that turned into
three days

at first the
sorrowful mind
its roaming maze

then came
the sad pitiful
crying phase

turning into
the grieving
silent grays

ending with a
succumbing sigh
into a dismal haze

what started out as
innocent, fun and delight,
as natural as breathing;
quickly turned to serious,
complicated and exquisite,
a mutual need being met;
leaving one wondering
if it was ever just
innocuous pleasure?

don't let time trap you
fling off your woes for today
come and binge on life
go off on a spree of love
it's such a beautiful world

come on..
kiss me from head to toe
lick me about to and fro

come..
touch me here and there
let your hands roam anywhere

now..
flip me over when we're done
get ready to hit another run

then..
lay beside me through the night
arm around me..pull me in tight

A sweet treat
A smooth heat
A bitter bite
A mellow delight
A delicate taste
So pleasantly placed
Perfect pleasure
To be had at your leisure
Flavored with a hint
Of refreshing peppermint
An essence of orange
A joy on the tongue
Melt in the mouth sensation
Rewarding any occasion
Chocolate's so dark and glossy
Mood soothing mystery
Try some and you'll see

you tell me what you need to hear;
I'll do the same and we'll make this very clear

you give me what I'm looking for now;
I'll do the best i can to please you and how

we can carry on in this blissful lie;
til guilt turns up with the cast of the die

then you will move on to other tragic,
deserted parts
and I'll trudge  along, to the next
in line of lonely hearts

If all you can see is black and white
Then you are missing such wonder and delight

If you only see the snow or the dirt
Then who can help you when you really hurt

If you only think in either ink or chalk
Then you have never taken a proper walk

Blood runs red in every vein
The sea is blue, stop and feel the rain

Grass is  so green, a lemon so yellow
Nature so precious, as is the ordinary fellow

The world, an amazing jungle
Live in awe of its colors
Experience all it has to offer
Be observant, conscious dwellers

In that fragment
of a moment
I felt content

A perfect sunset
day ends pleasant
with pure enjoyment

With a need so urgent
no second to neglect
satisfaction, I respect

Does happiness have a scent
Do we delight in its ornament
anticipating its' precious event

But when bliss is absent
if pleasure be upset
all we feel is regret

Joy to what extent
fills us with sentiment
swaying our every talent


Breathless and bent
full of gladness and
Wonderment

Two by two
it is all around me
The sweet balm
of a loves calm
The walking pace
of lovers' space

Sorted by pairs
trekking about
hand in hand
They seem to just
implicitly understand

The dyadic duo
I met on a plane
captivated my mind
They seemed as if
they were just designed
to live life intertwined

This coupledom domain
is where I desire to reside
Being mated and fated,
forever to be with
my lover glorified

Love has no reason
it is a mad, reckless rush
sensations astir
when a heart fills with rapture
the mind empties all judgements

How do I figure out how to go
I need to just exit without the show

I want to run to something new
but how can I; when I feel dark and blue

I don't want to hurt anymore
of that one thing, I am for sure

I want a life that is quiet and facile
free from heartache, scorn and hassle

I want a future that bursts into song
I need the evenings to be daring and long

I'd like my days to explode with zest
my spirit to have been deeply caressed

This is all I want; it seems so simple
why do I find it is so unachievable

In his eyes I see
love, longing
and fear

In my eyes he sees
happiness, trust
and devotion

In his arms I feel
safe, accepted
and free

In my arms he feels
comfort, approval
and welcomed

In his life
I have found
my sweet spot

In my life
he has found
his last home

What guides us?
Why do we choose left or right
Do we just follow instinct,
or an unknown insight

If the course be north
Quick jump the fence
Gatepost reads "PEACE"
albeit a rocky balance

If the route be south
Bound to be a guarantee
No need to pause with doubt
there's every promise of safety

If the option be east
Slowly approach the sign
The rendezvous with honor
will be everything divine

If the correct way be west
So fast will the search pass
Pointing to perfect faith
no end in the looking glass

Whether to go from top to bottom
Whether to choose back and forth
The hidden nature of our wisdom
will guide us to our worth

Why do you act like that
Why will you not react

Why now, do you turn away
Why, you know I want you to stay

Why can't you look at me
Why is it you loathe what you see

Why have you become so cold
Why believe what you've been told

Why would you ask me to go
Why, what is it I don't know

Why not shout and say it aloud
Why do you have to be so proud

why should you have doubt
that's like a deep dark black hole
there is no known end
when you question you will lose
that battle just can't be won

You need nothing but your smile
no cares, no worries, no style

As we venture out on an escapade
to ensure that our dreams never fade

Walk, talk, laugh and love
nothing else but heaven above

We roll in the clover,
one under, one over

We dare to caper away together
we don't even stop to notice the weather

When it starts to rain, we don't care
we giggle and find some cover to share

Oh, and when the night comes rolling in
that's when we know what this day has been

If but once in a while, we can take a chance
going off to explore in our lover's dance

Then we can suffer the days apart
knowing there's no end to what we let start

I once gave up something spectacular
Figuring it would never work through

Worrying about the future --
more than the present
Is it really such a wrong thing to do

Anticipating the next stage to come
When it didn't, I remember just feeling numb
How long should one wait
Is there some magical, time capsule fate

So I gave up on the hopes
I decided to focus on me
Moved away and saw things
through a different scope--
Found peace, love and glee

I then ran into the once spectacular
It had been decades of blue skies
Just one look into those steel grey eyes
And I wondered where my
Expectation now lies

If I believe in fate
then how do I explain him

He's here, he's in my head
he's invaded my heart

But does he belong here?

He's my waking thought
my sleeping dreams
my soul's happiness
my body's ecstasy

He's my pasts emptiness and
he's my futures presents

But maybe fate is just a
subconscious wish that
I'm destined to believe

Before yesterday I was scattered with
so many seeds flowing and
planting thoughts in my mind;
I had to sit down and take time
to define where each one
needed to reside, to exist
amongst its own kind

But, for now, today, I am collected
all my thoughts are gathered up
in their neat, pretty rows
waiting for me to pull one out
and toss it about,
and see what can come
when it's let out to shout

Perhaps, later tomorrow I will find
myself again struggling along,
with doubt, with ideas strewn all about
spreading their fancy roots, so fast,
that there is no time to reap
the rewards of their caste

But, I know, no matter what time
there is for me, close to hand;
I shall persist and I will take a stand;
making sure my days are planned.
So that my contemplations
will have their chance to expand.

We can fool ourselves
into believing anything:
Just keep telling yourself,
"It is possible,
It does happen."

Til one day reality hits you,
when you see things
from another's perspective

Then all of a sudden
your conception of
the folly has gone askew

A fools wish
swiftly vanishes,
like a shadow
in the darkness

Call him up on the phone
Remind him to bring along the bone
That they will use to beat the drum
Letting all know it's time to come

Placing the crown upon the head
Of the fool elected to play dead
The cage is filled with eleven doves
Passed around are as many gloves

All stand in line and face the west
No time to waste, not time for rest
They begin to sing their fraternity song
Hoping this evening nothing goes wrong

Which pledge will be the chosen one
Whom all will worship with the rising sun
Another will pass the test of the wood
He will then have everything given him good

When you see the small, bright blue flower
It is supposed to give over the power
To remember that very hour

That face, that place, where you find happiness
Every thought goodness, every action of kindness

A lifetime of memories, we neglect, we overlook
Until we see them near the brook
Then we realize we've been mistook

Oh, we have been careless, perhaps a bit foolish
To believe it doesn't matter
When it is what makes us flourish

Observe the small, bright blue flower
It will remind you of loves power
The forget-me-not, belief in it with no doubt
That's what life is all about

I need to be forgiven
I need to know you
accept my apology
That you can
forget my ambiguity

I must be forgiven
I must feel that
nothing has changed
That you can
ignore my demand

I can't go on
unless forgiven
I can't live with
that look in your eyes
That look of
wondering why

Please forgive what
I've just said
Please can't we go
back to like it was
before I lost my head

let us steal the night
yet return our innocence
let us dream of peace
but fight to release the light
we contradict our own thoughts

buy me something sweet
you see pleasure can be bought
and it can be cheap
but comfort must be given
solace comes with truth and faith

be a giver
a reliever
not a taker
a claim maker

grant usefulness
show some kindness
never demand
hold out your hand

for those whose life
is full of strife
offer to aid
solutions made

provide some ease
thank you & please
introduce love
from high above

if but halfway in
in a sense still halfway out
and when halfway up
turn round and it's halfway down
being just part of a whole

He brings the light
into my every night
His vibrant essence
shines so bright
Making my spirit
soar to a new height
My search can end
he's just so right
He's the only one
ever in my sight
I feel so secure
when he holds me tight
I give up the battle
there's no trace of fight
I have all I want now
of this I must write

In her vacant eyes
I finally see what was never there
that familiar indifferent stare
In her hollow talk
I now hear all the excuses so clear
the way she stays unaffected and bare

When I arrived in her life
her secrets were already made
over the years I've watched her fade
with here empty phrases
with never a promise laid
she's always hedged toward the shade

Wanting some truths; I asked
I found answers that day in the park
when I questioned her demeanor so stark
How much blame do I lay at her feet,
her experiences had left their mark
she can't see her way from the dark

The mind runs like a ferris wheel
with the heights you see what's real
turning round on round sets the seal

The body is made of priceless gold
it's value increases as we grow old
this magnificent system is so bold

And there the soul shall always dwell
living in and about and parallel
influencing all moral and emotional

come near to me
and you will see
I'm just a woman
who chooses to be
humble and patient;
a veiled she.
a woman who
has found her key,
which happens to be
hidden under her beauty,
completely verified
each day on bended knee;
because it is to God
that I owe this fee.
a servant to her
faith; that's me
while still a woman who
loves to be called baby.
so please understand
my inclinations are free
approach me, speak with me
I'm sure you will agree
differences, we have not many
I wish you peace, honey

his words are my joy
his voice can calm me each time
his sins matter not
his eyes show me his goodness
so now even I am his

all I thought was "HUH"
my reaction to his rant
"HUH" was all I said
then I turned and walked away
I chose to end it with grace