Chaos it is like the beauty that I can see when I look through your eyes and when I see the veil of dark that has been cast on my sight I can feel the touch of your madness that I have gone drunk upon and I can finally see the paradise that I have struggled to create and I am enthralled by all of this so why are you so cold

I heard a voice is it you calling my name since when has such a simple thing been such a joyous moment why even when I am happy do I not feel this way when all the ones who love me do is show me my worth as I watch the purse of your lips the honeyed sweet words drip from mouth and I finally can see that you gave me the greatest lie of your life that you love me I can finally see those horns

Look to the sky my child as you look to their you will stars and planets and the heavens they will guide you through this life and keep you in check as I now will be a part of those stars you look up to but worry not for these will also be the angels that hold my hand as my breath escapes me and your tears will be my strength to hold tight to them so I wish for you to give me the power to love you from afar but never away from where I belong at last I will be immortal because forever will now last with you

Why do they cry why do they sing is this my mind leaving me or can I actually your voice from the heavens of your dreams. To the emptiness of my heart as I look to sky and ask you why do you taunt me why do I still weep when I know that you can not be there. My mind knows against what my heart says but your heart believed it so why should the sorrow be in my head each time I close my eyes I can see the world those rose coloured glasses you wore so why can't I connect the tears that roll down my face to that heart that managed to colour me different

I can soar on the wings of the my false hope and I can breathe forever drowning in my lies but when I look to the eyes that gaze into my eyes like burrow that leads to my soul all you will see is the small man that I have become because the point I have reached is where my hope has stunned and paralyzed me to my core why is it that the fear of losing those eyes is the reason I can move and miss your hand to keep you by my side

Beauty and beast how can I hope to have you in this life that I call my own I see in the mirror the chaos I bestow my shoulders weighing them down as I think to myself can the beauty feel sorrow I can so easily taste I look up to my ceiling to see the blank space as the chaos lifts from my shoulders I feel hands lifting it away I can finally see a reflection of my smile so why isn't my beauty with my smile as I fall to nothingness not even by her guiding hand of dream do I have her

I stare across the sea to the sunset cascading down the horizon and feel the ocean tide brushing its hands to my feet as i step further into the the waters i can feel its arms starting to embrace me as the sun begins to become nothing but a shade of its former self as i take the plunge into the depths of the water i can the ringing of the chains that ties my fate i struggle to break of them and as i finally fall i am released of the chains and released of the embrace as i wait for my dreams to stand over the nightmare of the fate that i had broken

As my skin lay rotting on the ground beside my feet I can see my heart beating in my chest within the beat of my heart can restore that which is lost among the remnants of the past and as I lay my head to rest I feel the cool dark embrace of the winds of change that envelope my soul to see the beauty that you see in me I find a future dripping among my veins

I hear the voices in my head warring to be free “**** him” “take her away from the pain” “no you must help them” “burn their obsessions ” why do these voices continue to persist I reach into my heart to see if I can find the calm that I seek but when I look deep in there all I can hear is the voices “take your pitiful soul away from this place” “the people who love you matter” “why do I hurt why can’t I stop the hurt” “I love her why won’t she love me back” oh god SHUT UP as I wail in the agony of the struggle inside I slide my nails along my leg and come across the padding these pills do nothing to curb the voices they just make the voice become more like me

the crimson sky begins to fall I see the stars beginning to shine I look up to see them smiling down on me and I hear the voices of those who have past to bring the stars  I look to see the whispering willows spreading the darkness of the night beyond their reach to take away the brilliance of the sky and as the night becomes true to the dark the sky begins blacken as I cry to those who have fallen for their light to bring my eyes to the path I must take I see the lady in black carrying the lantern that seals the fate  of those who wish and once I feel my soul become cold and ashen I finally saw my light so why can’t I put a star into the sky that now becomes the dawn

as i look up into the sky i can see the carrion's circling overhead readying for the buffet that awaits i wonder if my life will see why i deserve these birds that are so of a flock with me and realize to myself that it was all your fault for you led me astray with your eyes and kept me coming back for more and you drove me to insanity with your love but am i truly crazy for this mistake I have made or am I just now learning what it means to be with my own mind

I give away my heart to you only to watch you pierce it with your gaze watching the blood drip down your chest and see it begin to melt the ice that surrounds your heart as i have hope i can melt such tundra of blank dead cold i watch as you proceed closer to me and as you go to begin speaking the tear falls from my eyes and the heart stops beating i have lost what i thought was treasure and as my tear finally ripples on the ground your back is already turned and you are leaving jewels of eyes and you walk beyond the horizon to be never seen i pick up the remnants of what you left behind to watch as they begin to beat once more

I see the ferry with the vestige of the vulture and the shivers run down my spine of my soul as I go to step upon this ride which the destination is already know I give my heart to the man of cloth and put my head down to accept my fate as the moments go by I hear the thunder of the torment and the sadness of my journey as I lift my head to see where I know I have failed the many people that I gave my heart to I can hear the chorus of the angels and a smile comes to my face I think to myself what have i done right in this life and as we come ever closer I hear wake up wake up and rise for you are not dead yet as the despair sinks in and my eyes open to the tragedy of the life I have lived

As I March into the battle I  can hear the blissful sound of the rain drops washing away the sins of the heavens that call me them now I see blood falling from eyes as it cascades into soul the soul that I have lost I push on to the glory that I came to seek this day as I fall to ground reaching for my brothers arm I am tossed aside by man to be greeted by deceiver who wears the clothes of man to grasp at last the fate for even the common man many days after I can see the again as I watch it wash away the tears from those could not save

I see fire in the distance glisten off lens of my eye I hear the raging tide of river is just out of reach I turn away from the fire I turn away from it all but now I all feel is the blood falling from my heart it speeds towards my feet as I begin to shake these roses around my soul so why can't I show you the beauty that I find in my soul why can't you see it when I hold to you so close is this all I mean is the thorns along its stem well I hope you finally see the crimson as I may lay dead at your feet