I look out on to the rolling plains that captivate me and I begin to stroll along the knolls and as I begin to the fire begins to spread out from my feet and within moments the entire field is a blaze and I see the distant images of the people burning and beginning to melt apart but there is silence and peace why is this so intoxicating of a feeling but as I begin to drink it in the screams break me back into the reality I stare at so even with all my tears for you why can't I put it out I can't save anyone am I truly what I believe

The feet drag along the grounds that sleep among the dead I have this weight that constantly snags along the roots and holes but now I feel the that body becoming once more as it no longer drags behind me but leaps upon my shoulder as I walk into this Moslem of things that I have already dumped in to these four walls and try to be rid of this accursed weight I have why have I found a new body that I can not bear to hold up it crushes me so deep when I try to escape I notice those people leaving their dead weight

Disgust vile feelings that bubble in the heat of my blood as they course the intracies of my veins they reach my and I collapse to my knees and weep tears they never seem to end as I start drowning in this closed room that I have created these feelings finally make their way into my brain and I begin to swim against what tears I have cried I do not wish to fall victim to my sorrow and I can create a new hope can't I  is that even possible what is this cold feeling I have icing the heat that travels through my blood it's your touch thank you from saving me from my self thank you now that I am frozen in the happiness I leave the rest to you

I stare to the sky I see the smile of those I have loved as I try to cry for the thousandth time I close my eyes and want the tears to roll down my cheek pitter patter the rain drops falls upon my cheek I see now and I thank you for my tear you may have given me the endless sadness that I feel but even among the brightest of stars you are still able to be the only one who can point me the direction I need as I go move my feet and the rain begins to pour I feel the wind push me back why is this you wanting more

Crack the whip that bleeds me dry and look me dead in the eye can you see the sorrow can you see the anger I have gone numb to their grasp as they have washed me again and again so why do your eyes finally look like they care is the crimson river that steadily falls my skin or is that you can no longer find that which makes you the powered I know what I can now feel that smile on my face that goes from ear to ear

I lie among the the dead with my eyes wide open can you find my hand I reach for the warmth of your eyes as you come upon my hand I struggle to be free I cry out to be saved but among these corpses are the remnants of muddied life and the past I have left so why do they bring me back why can't I leave oh that is why I have become to weak shoulder the weight too frail too continue so I need the shoulders you carried me with one last time are you OK with this

Do you break the silence can you hear the hope crack as my tears roll along the lines of my cheek you gave the words that my heart held on to for the entirety of my life I came to your life as the breath left your chest why have you left me I can no longer feel my heart it is dying as the days go on I have never felt the ducts of despair run dry you gave me the way of happiness so why can't I hold you to climb from these pits that I lie oh god the walls oh god the light both are closing in and away