Raindrops glisten as they slide down her soaked profile
And slowly make their way down to assault her blouse and the floor
The crumpled up letter from the military sulks in the corner
Sneering at the ex-fiancee's plight

We're two trees in a forest.
We are unique, but the temptations of conformity surround us every day.
We choose instead to reach for the stars, our canopy thick because our trunks are close together.
We may be two, but we are one.

You hear what you want to hear
Ears open to things you love and fear
All else cascades like a hurricane
Against the wall you've erected around your emotions
Can I blame you for the security?
Can I blame you for the way you feel?
No. I can't. And neither can you.

Never far
Never close
Not these feelings
Never again

Always asking
Always crying
**** these things
Always alone

Sometimes happy
Sometimes sad
**** it all
Sometimes angry

Possibly crazy
Possibly sane
I don't know
Possibly suicidal

Probably dead
Probably alive
Languish in grief
Probably the end

I see the moon through my smoke tinted glasses
It's crescent shape caressing the early morning sky
Before I went out, all of my thoughts were of classes
Now, returning, I am filled with delight
The simple occurance
Of the Sun silhouetting the rock
Brings me joy
As I draw inside
Life is but a collection of experiences
And this one won't be easy to forget
As I stayed up all night
The grandeur of nature seems to beget
The beauty in little things
The sorrow in the world
All at once emotions hit me
And my thoughts begin to be twirled

Drifting through life
Like a bottle in the ocean
Only with me there's no note
What you see is what you get
And unfortunately that's not much
Although I try not to regret
In my mind that idea is crushed
What if game is played
My confidence is rent
I don't know
If I like what I've become
A feeble mouse
Still ******* on its thumb
Fostering no respect
Because I don't have any for me
Yet at night I sit *****
With my hands on my knees
How do I live in a world so different?
How do I die when I'm scared?
People flash before me as acquaintances
Friends, if any, aren't there
Try to be
What people expect
I ******* hate
When myself I try to correct
But still I carry forward
With this self bashing nonsense
Turing my attention toward
Those who seem to be against

A love that was lost
May yet be found
Please when you cry
Make not a sound
Stand strong with your feelings
And rise up to the call
When you're thinking things
Please don't let your world fall
I'm not changing my views
At least not now
But I'm starting to see cues
That this will all work out somehow

The smell of flesh lingers freshly on my wet snout
italic Don't **** me....please....God...please
I stare at this creature, curious at it's noises and mannerisms
italic Oh God.......God.....
I sink my teeth back into its leg
italic AHHHH
Its screams take me aback. No prey, you are my dinner
italic Gotta.........run........
I step back as the creature uses it's fore legs to pull itself inches
italic no..........No...........NO!
Its sound becomes as strong as its scent, piercing my ears
italic N-n-not today wolf.......n-not today God
It reaches a shiny object that hurt me. I do not like what my prey is doing
italic EH? EH? COME ON YOU *******! FINISH THE JOB YOU DEMON!
I am troubled by the noise my prey is making. The others did not put up a fight
italic COME ON!
I leap onto my prey, expecting my mouth to be filled with warm blood
italic I GOT YOU, YOU *******!
There is a pain in my stomach. I am thrown off by my prey. This is not as it should be
italic ERGRUHAHA!
The yelping noise of my prey is drowned out by my own cries of pain.
italic THAT'S RIGHT, CRY DEMON!
I pull away from my prey, and see my own blood saturating the ground
italic Ugh.....ugh....
My world is swirling around me. I fall down, and blackness envelops my vision.
italic SOMEONE! HELP ME! SOMEONE HE-

Tie up that snake
Make sure it's tight
Stand on the chair
Give up the fight
Take your last breath
And end it for good
Jump off the cliff
The noose clamps down, as you knew it would
Drift there hanging
Ending your life
No more will it be paining
Your thoughts tonight

The world is crazy inside my mind
Tall towers crumble to my will
The right words I seem to always find
To the ******* my window sill

The great mountains before me sink
And I rise tall above them
To distant planets, I bow and drink
Until I choke and cough up phlegm

I stagger back towards my earth
All things around me are growing
The help I need, here is dearth
A fact that the dead die knowing

The world is crazy inside my mind
I shan't ever go there again.

I found my mind in the eye of a cigarette
The thing that I curse and despise, the cigarette
The thing that controls my life, the cigarette
I lost my freedom in the eye of a cigarette