Hey.. I know things have been rough for the longest time..Im really sorry  that you have to go through this, You deserve much more...much better.. And I wanna at least be there for you as  a close friend..someone you can depend on.. That past person doesn't even know what he's losing.. Believe you me , that will be one of the biggest mistakes he ever makes. You  know that too. I know that when you get back from this you'll  know real people from the fakes. I know you'll be okay. As I said he doesn't  know what he's losing..

I knew this was coming for a while, I just never expected it so soon
you know they say a woman's intuition is always right and it just proved to be true
there was always this feeling in the pit of my stomach that kept on telling me
"he'll find someone better than you", "you're just not enough"
but I ignored it, I wanted to believe it was a lie
cause honestly I love you man and I wanted us to work so bad
I saw so much in potential in you, in us and what we could be
but you broke my heart and the house I had in you
cause lately there's an emptiness in my chest and I'm homesick
but tell me how am I supposed to move on?
but how do you walk away from the one thing that held you together?
before you I was those dead brown leaves on the ground
being stepped on after I was already dead
You filled my hollow heart with happiness and laughter
your smile was enough to light cites on fire
and it's already burning me alive too
but part of growing up is learning how to save yourself and walking out that fire alive and conscious
my last words to you were I hope you're happy and you said "no I'm not"
well that makes two of us

I don't know but when were together... when were talking... when were in each others presence I feel some type of meaning, something which I can live for and be happy with as long as I live... but when your gone. When your gone its like im drowning and you and God would be the only persons to save me... it looks like its just God alone here then. I wake up with my first intentions being you, I cant go through my day without exchanging words with you. I feel so worried because I don't know if your okay or not.. and usually i'll be there to change that.. I call and it goes to voicemail at that time im like okay your not by the phone, where are you then.. Your surely in my heart, in my mind, you run my soul. I feel like I'll die and not even get the chance to say bye.. and if that ever seemed to happen there's no way I could forgive myself.. well not for a long while. I really do... miss you.

being in love is a such a celestial feeling
you're on an emotional high off their passion
and their kisses are like a neverending acid trip

being in love is such a mysterious feeling
the normal routine of your body changes
you now move to the beat and rhythm of their existence
and their voice is enough to make you shiver uncontrollably

being in love is such a beautiful feeling
you can feel a flower blossoming in your heart
and it's like a light has been shone on your soul
and a whole new person has been born

but being in love is such a scary feeling
you start to forget all about yourself because all you feel is them
they can **** you with all their words
and the home you built in them can be destroyed

love is a kaleidoscope of emotions
don't ever fear it
because it's better to have lost love
than not to love at all

love is the most liberating feeling your body will ever come to experience. it’s beautiful on so many levels
scary, dangerous
but the rush is what we live for

I'm trying to save us. I'm trying to keep us from falling apart
Cause to be honest you're something like the moon
thoughts of you always chase me at night and no matter how fast I run,
you always catch me
It's inevitable, you're inevitable
My dad always wondered why my room never had no light
and I told him I want my room as dark as my soul
He would roll his eyes and open the blinds but I didn't need the sunlight
You already illuminated somewhere within me
You dug your way inside me, planted a light bulb
that beams day and night and grew into flowers of euphoria
I like what you did to me. I like being happy
That's why I've been so paranoid lately
Cause I sense the end is near
and if it is, I don't wanna die alone
so please don't let me self destruct
and demolish us

I see a light at the end of this dark, depressing, abandoned place. I stop and wonder what it might be.. This place  in my mind  has a wanted sign with your smile on it. Something I long for everyday all day. That's the only thing that can light up my world... make me the happiest guy on earth  which is quite awkward because who would get so ecstatic over a simple smile. Well I guess I would be that person. To tell the truth, I look to your smile for   everything. Your smile fuels my engine, keeps me going, gives me something to live for. Without you I have no idea  what will happen, because with you comes your smile, something i'll cherish even when im turning in my grave. My one source of happiness, my one source of motivation.. I feel so free when I see you smile.. Its like my lungs have opened up a whole new level... Because of you.... Because of your smile.