Every sound is amplified and
Sent back to me in an echo.
Ever since she left I have felt
An endless chasm of pain.
My heart feels as though it
Has been shredded in half.
This reverberation in my head
Is driving me insane.
Is this the thought that starts
The leap out the nearest window?

For I know that a thousand shards of
glass through my body would be a paradise in comparison.

Nothing in this world compares to the light you shine on me.
I laugh away compliments and turn my cheek shyly to your everlasting gaze.
My ever analyzing mind picks at you, looking for fault where there is none.
Each day my love for you grows and I begin to quiet that irrational voice.
For no one deserves the love you have, you are an angel among mortals.
All I can give is my entire being for all of eternity and hope that is enough.

I love you.

There was a time,
which I was ripped apart.
I struggled as long as I could,
To prevent this from happening.

Imagine my pain,
A soul ripping in two.
What I didn't consider was you.
You watched and felt pieces of this pain.
For you loved me and part of you was inside me.

I pushed you away,
I didn't know how to fix myself.
I thought space and silence would help cure,
I thought I needed to traverse aimlessly.

It's been almost two years now.
Each day another stitch closes,
And I find myself becoming better.
Like a new butterfly stretching his wings,
Like a snake shedding his skin,
I am free to set a new path.

I walked over you in this process.
My metamorphosis had collateral damage.
I am sorry for not doing this better.
I am sorry for hurting you.
I am sorry.

Many is that of man,
God is but one.
The wind blows,
A tree stands alone.

Leaves of all colors,
Thousands sway.
Man is such leaves,
Searching the way.

Identity without purpose,
The branch is weak.
Help find the path,
Almighty to the meek.

To separate the tree,
A leaf is nothing.
Connected we all are,
In him we are trusting.

My heart beats rough,
Every dark vision burns.
Blackness in my blood,
Pain endlessly churns.

I need healing,
No one to lean on.
Pride and sacrifice,
Too many to mourn.

My soul is scarred,
I hide my service well.
Eyes forever dry,
I have already seen hell.

I want to carry them.
The men who die young,
The woman alone,
The child abused,
The elderly sent away,
The homeless and poor,
The starving,
The hurt,
The survivors,
I want to carry them all.