I ran to the sun rise
And wondered why
It looks beautiful everytime.
It climbs the same
With a fuse of red yellow
And an orange flame.
In that moment I prayed
Let me feel the beauty
I want to be astonished
continually.
I want my love to rise with the sun.
I want this feeling to never
Be done.

I can imagine it.
We'll rise before the sun.
Therefore we lie in the dark.
Though with no light
There is no heat.
Yet you with me
will bring me enough warmth

Sleep is one of the best times
You are in a wonderland
Lack control
Yet you are free.
Really it's all blissful lies
But for some reason I woke up earlier
I couldn't sleep anymore
Because you are a blissful truth.
I don't have to dream with
You.

I'm afraid of how comfortable we were.
Or I was?
I hope you were comfortable.
because I was.
I'm usually not comfortable around guys that make me shake.
But I'm shaking from excitement.
Excited that maybe
you are
as vulnerable
driven
humble
dumb
intellectual
loving
honest
and
genuine
as you seem.
I'm excited
that maybe
you could be excited
about me.

Dear Bosco
When I look at you, I see a true hu[man].
People always strive to be a real man.
Unfortunately the common definition of a man is skewed.
In turn those that have that definition are skewed too.
But what makes you a true man,
is that you are human.
You care for your family
so you are strong for us.
But you're honest with me,
and expose yourself emotionally.
You work so hard
I can only imagine the pain.
But in the work I see the gain.
Yet and still you stay humble.
This is what makes you so lovable.
You display a self control
I'm not sure I can get a hold.
You are not the definition of superior exterior.
You are not the definition of a lack in love
because you must be tough.
You are the definition of a human.
This makes you a man.
I know what type of man
who will hold my hand
because of you.

Dear Mom,
I don't understand you.
You haven't been loved in years.
I write about love all the time.
It's lack is possibly one of my fears.
I think it's that you have found love in me.
Enough love to fill the void of the other
type of love.
You smile continuously
even when the pain of the world piles rigorously.
Although, I may not agree with everything.
But that does not matter.
Because you give me everything.
You give me love.

Today we were supposed to hang.
To be honest, I didn't want to do
what you wanted to go through.
But I said yes.
I figured it wouldn't matter what we did.
Just to be with you would be the best.
As I waited for you
You never moved.
As I thought about why I didn't want to hang.
You actually never came.
To be honest,
that hurt.