This dirt under my
Fingernails is from crawling out
Of holes that Life
Threw me into.

Well... at times I jumped in
Without help.
The point is
I know how to get out.

I'll teach you; here, take
My hand. I might even let
You have the whole arm.
But know:

The moment you try to
Pull me down for a quick fix
Of company and comfort, I'm
Letting go.

Life is more than holes.
More than self-pity.
The sun never searches for
A cold face to kiss.

Love *****,
Because I thought I'd finally moved on,
Until I saw your name appear on my screen.
I could've sworn my heart skipped a beat.

I like to think of me and you as
Two separate seasons
We can never be as one
Only slightly brush each other
One of us is ending
While the other is beginning

Still water never  will become clean
I was never allowed to dream
Suppressed, depressed, existing
My light, can't be too bright, what would others think?
Inflamed, tainted, jaded, non believing
I hid within false realities
Lying to myself and lying to many
Sitting in my own filth, stiff
Basic, drowning in my imperfect fifth
Still water...
Why wouldn't I let go
Why wouldn't I flow
Knowing then what I now know
I was my number one enemy, I stunted my growth
Chained, afraid, but yet so fearless in the danger zone
Waited to hear my own voice to call me to come home
A voice muffled out by lies upon lies
And I even dared to cry
Sitting in my own ****
Sitting in my own ****
When I could get up, I'm not paralyzed
Not blind, ungrateful, not using my eyes
Still water...
Let go
Just flow