Eyelid kisses
Buried intuition
Beneath warm fuzzy feelings
Fooled me for two years

I know I shouldn't do it
but short term pleasure
always seems to win
over long term pain
Though I’ve been burned before
scars as a reminder
the heat of the moment
pulls me back in
to your body as we play with fire
through the early morning hours

And suddenly
The leaves are back on the trees
Reminding me that nature rebounds
Faster than I can heal

The black leather chair
Got whiter by the day
Heavy with memories of you
Fading away

I've found there exists a fine line
between carefree and careless
and (un)lucky for me
even with thick lenses
I struggle to see it

The tides are at war
clashing in all directions
challenged by strong evening winds
trying not to be swayed

I was told to become
my own best friend
so I tried
I really tried
bundled up
and took myself out
coffee shops, jazz bars, long walks
sat for hours wrapped in thought
sometimes truly felt okay
but on down days
hugging myself just never felt
quite the same