I'm not sure id find it in your heart
or your eyes.

your soul is something
I could never read

and though my own
lay woven in and out of lies

i expected more from you.
It was a crazy lie invented to occupy my loneliness

and  I almost had myself believing it
but there was one step I was too proud to take

I count myself so lucky
I didn't fumble when you needed me most

the cold in your eyes is what I deserve
but there is no coldness there.

I fumble because I know
it's not what I should still have to run to

And I can't look in there as long as I used too
its so **** hard

because its in my eyes and in my heart
I know you've seen it.

I almost destroyed it
like so many other parts of myself

so  this one thing I hold perfect
in honour of you,

singularly
my ***

though my heart
tore it's self in two.

I feel alone.
No one is here,
there is no light at the end of the tunnel.
You do not know me,
yet you speak to me as if you do.
I hide from you with words,
carefully planned out so that i am left to be.
You think i am stubborn, rude, disobedient,
but yet you do not know me.

You know the me i want you to see,
the me with a hard exterior that cannot be broken.
But i am fragile,
I break more with every fight that we have.
This is not what i want you must understand,
but when you won't listen to the words i have to say,
what do i do?

My screams turn to tears and i yell even louder,
your anger is contagious it rifles me with fear.
My breaths or short and i cannot breathe,
But this is what you must not see.
I finish our fight to make sure you would leave,
i don't want you to see how this anxiety has consumed me.

I can't let you see how it has taken over me,
how is is rooted itself into me.
I am alone left to fight this battle,
this battle i have been fighting for far to long.
I do not want to be alone,
but do i have a choice when you turn as cold as stone?

It seems our fights have taken root,
and there is no way i can be forgiven.
I deserve the tension, the hate, the anger within you,
but not forever, not after i beg and plead for you to forgive me.
Not after i change and try to earn back your trust,
I do not deserve your anger or hate.
So won't you please tell me you love me,
Before it's to late.

she flirts with all,
knowing her beauty's alluring wine
none can decline.

each one feels she's on his side.
her love is too wide
to be confined to one mind
so they all find in her
their lover!

and when above the highway
she shines
each one thinks

she's mine!