I wish i could undo what she did to you.
I wish i could undo all the awful things you've had to struggle through.
But life doesn't work that way, you & i, we work in two's.
Like a vastly complex machine, with bolts and screws.
I'm trying to be something that doesn't fail you-
Someone you can hold onto.
  
Have you ever wanted to give someone the world;
as if they were the world itself?
I'd like to offer you all of me.
The depths of my mind & the unsubtle rumbling inside.
Maybe then you'd forget her in your untold dreams.
Honesty isn't always just quite what it seems.

Like a shadow hanging over you, she haunts you as i'm holding you.
Telling you i won't stay, that just like her- I will be the same.
Shut it out, for you & for me.
I'm here, as long as you'll have me. 

(s.m)

Where do you draw the line between want and need?
I can feel you in these words; you can see it in my trembling knees.  
Broken when you found me, look where i have come.
i can almost stop the trembling and get these wobbly legs to run.

I'm at a full sprint now, into the safety of your warmth.
Let me sink in these arms, a drowning of a satisfied corpse.  
As i fall to the bottom of your depths, i'm looking up at the surface.
The bubbles rise and i begin to grasp what i see in the calmness of  
your baby blue eyes.

My body is drifting, meeting your coral Reefs now.  
Is this the feeling? i believe, i am greeting peace now.  
I've decided you are the one i would like to keep, somehow.
Broken when you found me, look where i have come.

You are the ocean in which i can never outrun.

(s.m)

I figure if i keep writing, the words in my head will feel less lost.
I will find them a home to reside in, a space on a vacant page.
My mind then stops to toss.

You came into my life so unexpectedly.  
The world gives us pleasant surprises, evidently.
In a life of shadows, you are a new light shining into me.
Like a flourishing canopy of trees hanging over me; you are my serendipity.  

Your warmth is at the surface of your skin; my heart is just beating too quick.  
You catch the race and calm me down, like words unspoken, we are unbound. 

I trace your skin, slowly trying to savor this sensation.
Your aura is a thriving glow, a never-ending vibration. 
You stare into my eyes like there is nothing in between us.  
Worlds apart but ties entangled within each other embark.
No walls exist with a connection of two souls like this.
  
Your eyes and my eyes laying together; locked within a bonded gaze.
As my mind and your mind are slipping from consciousness, we begin to fade.
Sleeping now, words are never needed to understand your ways.    

I can only hold you in this moment, with hope you never leave.  
I know everything is temporary, but you've always been a tease.
Everything i have ever desired right before my eyes, loose ends start to feel tied.
Every wrong turn seems like a lie; i was lead straight to you my oh, my.

In your hands my mind can only expand.

For however many seconds with you the universe has blessed upon me,  
I will twirl with the sands of time as the petals of daisies fall from my hands.  
Does he love me? Does he love me not? In a fresh garden, here in this ***.

I am sprouting up intertwining my roots with yours.
Flowers must not be mistaken for less; you Caimen,  
(the wildest wildflower of them all) are so much more.

(s.m.)

As the rain patters against my window, I can hear it now.

The thumps aren't as consistent or as in sync as the perfect rhythm i found in your heart; but as i lie against your chest with the purest form of sound engulfing my unworthy eardrums, I can hear it now.

It is everywhere; lingering in even the darkest and dustiest untouched corners of your mind, it is there. Even in my cold sheets i can feel it's eternal warmth. Demanding to be felt it rushes into me; surging through my fleshy vessel and grabbing a hold of every sense i have ever known. As it grazes over every bone in my weightless skeleton and kisses it's hard lips on my aching soul, i can feel it now.

As i lie against your chest with the purest form of sound engulfing my unworthy eardrums, love has found me and i surrender myself to the encompassing feeling you grace upon my undeserving being until there is nothing left in this world we have been swallowed by. my heartbeat is now forever lost in yours.

(s.m.)