-JCM-: Poems

253 · Dec 2018

-JCM- Dec 2018

My affection is a song
You are the melody
Harmonize with me
Don’t play deaf
I see your feet tapping to the tune
You are the reason I croon

-JCM-

253 · Jan 2019

Just because

-JCM- Jan 2019

Just because

You say it so easily
It scares me
Takes two to tango
I'm too shy to dance
If I say it
It will cease to be
Just because I don't say it
Doesn't mean I don't feel it

-JCM-

I love you too.

252 · Feb 2019

Cloud

-JCM- Feb 2019

Cloud

I'm a rolling cloud in the sky
The words I rain
Are to help you grow
My perfect storm
I'd weather it all with you

-JCM-

243 · Jan 2019

Every time is like the first time

-JCM- Jan 2019

Every time is like the first time

Your silhouette
Casts a shadow I feel comfort in
I've memorized every line
Know every curve
Every time I see you
Its like the first time
I never get enough

-JCM-

222 · Jan 2019

Fear of missing out

-JCM- Jan 2019

Fear of missing out

Undiscovered bliss
Softly knocking on the door
So easy to miss
The handle isn't locked
You won't open
Won't let it in
For fear of missing out
On a dream that isn't real
Contriving illusions
Living in disillusions

-JCM-

219 · Mar 2019

The One

-JCM- Mar 2019

The One

I wanna be the one
The one that breaks through
With walls so high
Bulldozed love
I’ll knock em down
Break through to you
Build you up
Make you feel new
Never feel blue
If you let me get through to you
The one

-JCM-

219 · Jan 2019

Dreaming in pastel

-JCM- Jan 2019

Dreaming in pastel

You bloomed through a dream last night
A pastel flower in a muted garden
I seek you often
But you hide
I'd rather die
Than know
Together we will never grow

-JCM-

214 · Dec 2018

My father's sun

-JCM- Dec 2018

My father's sun

The older I grow
The more I learn
The more I know
The more I understand
Drowning for a feeling
Crushes me more
Than it did before

-JCM-

My father had a heart attack due to complications of alcoholism when I was 18. I had to perform CPR on him on our living room floor. I failed. This is why the thought of drinking never appeals to me. I hope you can understand why I say "no thanks" when offered a drink.

209 · Dec 2018

Sometimes

-JCM- Dec 2018

Sometimes

Sometimes I wish everyone I miss were dead
It's peace of mind
When they are resting in peace
Instead they live on
Somewhere else
Not looking back
I am an expired lease
I hate them
I miss them

-JCM-

204 · Mar 2019

La Razón

-JCM- Mar 2019

La Razón

La rosa mas hermosa
Creciendo en el jardín de mi corazón
Con tu sonrisa
Disminuyes toda razón
Toda la razón de mi sufrimiento

-JCM-

The reason
The most beautiful rose
Growing in the garden of my heart
With your smile
You diminish all reason
All reason for my suffering

204 · Sep 2019

Top 40

-JCM- Sep 2019

Top 40

I hold on
A little too strong
Like a ****** pop song
You're in my head for too long

-JCM-

196 · Apr 2019

Sent

-JCM- Apr 2019

Sent

I delete every message sent
Won’t let a built up thread
Fill me with dread
When left on read

-JCM-

190 · Aug 2018

Fan fiction

-JCM- Aug 2018

Fan fiction

Won't audition
I'm my own star
When the credits fade
At the end of the reel
I'm still real
I'm not your silver screen
Stop projecting

-JCM-

187 · Dec 2018

11:11

-JCM- Dec 2018

11:11

Looking at the night sky
When shooting stars
Glare in my eyes
I don’t want to wish anymore
When an 11:11 appears on the clock
Let it be another meaningless moment
That passes me by

-JCM-

179 · Jan 2019

Damnation

-JCM- Jan 2019

Damnation

Falling for you
Was my fall from grace
Don’t want salvation
She devil
Smallest glimpse of skin
Tempting me to sin
On my knees
Give in to my pleas
I won’t repent
I’ll wear you like a halo around my head
Be my damnation

-JCM-

177 · Dec 2018

Insomnia

-JCM- Dec 2018

Insomnia

You are a dream
I don’t sleep enough
Sandman don’t know my home

-JCM-

169 · Feb 2019

Enough

-JCM- Feb 2019

Enough

You weigh heavy on my mind
Keeps my head anchored to my pillow
I'm able to sleep enough
The hope of a tomorrow with you
Is enough to keep me getting out of bed

-JCM-

168 · Nov 2018

Concussed

-JCM- Nov 2018

Concussed

Technicolor sphere
Take me far from here
Concussed
Dazed
You're my latest craze
Losing track of days
I'm floating
Between worlds
Touch and I will burst
My minds become a hearse
Lay all my thoughts to rest

-JCM-

164 · Mar 2019

Magician

-JCM- Mar 2019

Magician

Do that trick again
Locked into your stare
Make me disappear
Vanishing act
Who summoned who
Were we ever real

-JCM-

157 · Feb 2019

Anxiety

-JCM- Feb 2019

Anxiety

Living in memories of moments
That never happened
A slave to the past
That can’t be changed
A prisoner to a future
That hasn’t been written
Can I feel the gift of presence
I’m losing
Giving it away

-JCM-

107 · Mar 2019

¿I am who?

-JCM- Mar 2019

¿I am who?

Everyone knows how I feel
Except me
I speak words but they aren't mine
Slipping through deaf ears
Waving at blind eyes
Whose real
I don't know

-JCM-

101 · Mar 2019

Tired

-JCM- Mar 2019

Tired

I’m tired
Tired of feeling
Tired of lying
Endless I’m okays
Everything’s fine
Wishing
Hoping
Hating
Loving
Tired of it all
Erase me
Im tired

-JCM-