frequently i choke on my beer,
i've drunk too much or i'm trying to forget.

sitting in a field getting high with friends,
feeling free and trapped all at the same time.

staring out of the bus window,
praying for death or a new life.

the night gives us the freedom,
but our insignificance grows.

i am the **** of the earth,
thrown onto this world out of luck and anger.

i want to feel alive,
but i'm afraid of the consequences.

living our dreams would be a dream come true,
but they're just as pointless as the present.

my own friends hate my guts,
i don't care at all yet i care so much.

it's moments before i arrive home,
proceed to live my dull little life.

we're so alone in every way,
and God certainly doesn't care.

Intangible yet actual the force of love attacked you
As I walked through swiftly and attracted you
Cracked you like Attila crack skulls, intertwined souls
That empty chasm in your heart is what I filled like holes
With my charisma as my shovel, whispered that I loved you
Heart raced when I leaned in and touched you
Kissed you, rubbed you
Felt the curves on your body rise and fall
From shoulders tall like mountains to your hips I crawl
Heat radiates so I know you’re ready for my invasion
Fall into bed like we fell in love at our liaison
Gazing into each other’s eyes we knew we couldn’t stop
Soon as underwear dropped the red cherry popped
The tango we danced with our eyes took me by surprise
As I began to rise, throbbing doubled in size
Slipping inside without realising
We had just made ties with each other forever

…

As I laid you down on the softest silk mattress
And explored your body with my tongue like an atlas
The way the moonlight hit your face as pretty as an actress
No tactics it felt right no way this was a practice
Sweat began to pour like rain, shouting god’s name
Your body felt like some sort of beast that only I could tame
And ride you, inside you, above you, beneath you
Opening you up ever wider so I can reach you
I meet you and kiss you then retreat, only briefly
Beneath me you feel like a queen and I’m your king who
The sweetest fruits from exotic lands I would bring you
May we reign on our quilted throne for ever more
I’m forever yours do you feel the same honey please
Don’t tease, I’m shaking like I’m walking a trapeze
The heat built when your hips tilt, nerves began to spasm
Heaven has granted blessings and let us have them
Ecstasy that even angels couldn’t fathom

I read the Surgeon General's Warning
As I inhale my sorrows
And exhale all troubles
And a slight tinge of worry crawls up my spine
I replaced relationships with cigarettes
Poison with poison
As I sigh and allow the guilt to melt away
Letting it drip into the deepening pool at the bottom of my conscience
I allow myself the small comfort of knowing
At least the cancer sticks
Come with a warning label