sometimes things hurt and sometimes they hurt and sometimes they hurt. I feel like there's a constant struggle between romanticizing pain and having compassion for it and a thing I'm starting to learn is that there's isn't different ways to love, when you love someone and they come off as feeling differently for you I think it's just because you expect them to match your feelings, without letting yourself breathe and understand that the only feelings that are ever gonna be felt are the ones in which you perceive and when you start to settle down or maybe go insane (however you wanna look at it) you start to see that the feeling in which you perceive is "the feeling," it's love, and the love can't do anything but be free, you can not keep it in a cage no matter how hard you try, your love cage is imaginary and it's going to be really really hard to get the person you have feelings for locked inside of it with you because it's not actually there, so instead of getting jealous of the person you love doing whatever they want with whoever they want, understand that happiness is beautiful and seeing them happy is all you really want, sometimes it feels like you need to let things go but the sound of that is never gonna feel the same as letting things be free ((mg))

and i had to develop
new feelings for the person
who just entered
my horrible life,
because it was once you,
who i gave my heart too,
but all you did,
was break my heart,
and he's the one who's trying to fix it,
but i dont know if ill love him,
because the feelings i have for you,
are totally different than
what i have for him,
because deep in my heart,
i know i still love you,
and that *****.

and then it hit me,
he's going to marry a girl
they're going to cuddle on the sofa
watching scary movies until 3am
while she falls asleep in his arms
they'll go on cute dates
and holidays in the sun together
he's going to tell her that he loves her
they're going to have kids
and wave them off to school one day
they're going to happily grow old together
and that girl wont be me