sometimes, I miss your love.
sometimes I miss it so much it hurts
today was one of those days
I sat & saw things, stupid love texts on twitter, that reminded me of you.
but the crazy part was, they were about letting go.
letting go so that they could be happy without the love they had thought they would stop breathing without.
and I realized, it's been a whole year since I needed your love to breathe.
I don't even need an inhaler from time to time like I used to.
hell sometimes, I even run now & it feels so good.
but every once in a while, I sneak a peek in the back of the drawer where I keep the inhaler & then I remember,
I can breathe on my own now
Jessica, if you ever see this, I will always love you. If not in the ways I used to, in the ways you can only love your first love.