you left brushing off the scent of me
you left debating where you’d rather be
I poured out our remaining drinks
on the balcony
down the sink
I’m reminded of the taste of you
you taste like love I never knew
you taste like a spiral of panic
you taste like a gin and tonic
you taste like maybe you meant it

I think I heard you smoking through the phone
as I walked along the river taking photos on my own
I want to show you how this city shines
and in the winter comes alive
even though I’m miserable
it’s a place I think you’d like
and I want to show you a place I think you’d like

with you the day starts too late
and the plans always change
and my brain’s not equipped to make choices today

isn't this exactly what we came here for?
to listen to your records while we lie here on the floor
to make each other laugh until it hurts our lower backs
to lift each other up from the edges of the stuff
that made us both so scared to be in love

I felt alone amongst the A-lists and the A-grades
I would have rather been up North with you
I was smothered by the small talk and pretenders
I know that's something you related to

you are the wings that span the night sky
two years, how they fly by

you were a floating brick
but you were a sinking ship
mistaken when you thought this world had had enough of you

you gave me wings so I don't doubt myself
wings like birds so I can fly
wings reserved for another time
wings for when I'm not so tired