I am in this moment.

Now

Present

Aware

Sensing surroundings

Essence abounding

“Take care of yourself”

Heard often but hardly heard at all

Coz Now

I hear, and

Make myself a meal

Nourish

Drink a glass of wine

Cherish

Read, mind holding fast to words that whisper hope

Watch Saul Williams scream worlds into Existence

Words of resistance

I am aware

Of distant yearnings from who I would like to be

A me I wouId like… or maybe even love

So I listen to my soul

Whispering dreams

Murmuring hopes

Uttering flimsy futures floating on the wings of time

So much to learn

So much to see

So much to be

So much

But the journey seems long

So march…

searched my whole life for the
perfect man,
No one seemed to measure up and I didn't understand,
why part of me was empty, why part of me felt cold.
Would it be this way forever, wouId I feel the same when I'm old.
After searching my whole life, the perfect man I couldn't see.
I couldn't take it anymore, and said Lord help me please.
He said look deep inside you the answer was always there.
I couldn't tell you how to feel it's your cross to bear.
I did  as a lord had asked, and looked deep inside.
A calmness on overwhelmed me, and my heart was filled with pride.
The answer was always there,
the truth I always had.
I didn't have to look at all,
The perfect man is my dad.