The fanatical have now reached
critical level.
It seems to me
the sound of mind have taken
a sabbatical.

Seems to me
that there's a lot going on
more than the eye can see
I can't believe
people actually fall for what
they be saying on the TV.

Thats just insanity.
Don't the public see
that the media only operates
to create conflict
and deceive.

So take in what I'm layin down.
Look up.
See what's goin round.
Open up your eyes
and soak in the pill of truth.
The answer lies
beneath the ruse produced

The news wants us scared.
Instead of giving us the truth,
they'd much rather us live in fear.
Showing nothing but people
getting shot up the block,
and guess what,
the shooter's always cops.

Men in blue are racists,
so dont aspire to be a cop.
Spiking our blood anytime
a police car rolls up.

Police brutality's a thing,
but like with anything,
a rotten apple doesn't spoil
the whole batch babe,

These men live and die
to serve and protect you.
They bleed blue.
Pay respect where it's due.
Don't disparage an entire force
due to the **** poor actions
of the poisoned few.

So take in what I'm layin down.
Look up.
See what's goin round.
Open up your eyes
and soak in the pill of truth.
The answer lies
beneath the ruse produced

I'm seeing women
marching these streets,
trying to maintain
some semblance of dignity.
That I can stand beside,
but Kathy Griffin's joke
against the pres
I can't get behind.

Its asinine.
Now if that's feminism,
then forgive me,
but I resign.
I'd much rather
have peace of mind.

I might not like the pres,
but we got to find
another way
to move past
these difficult times.

So take in what I'm layin down.
Look up.
See what's goin round.
Open up your eyes
and soak in the pill of truth.
The answer lies
beneath the ruse produced

See,
Terrorism isn't just across the seas.
Hell no!
Terrorism's right in front of me,
in our schools,
in our homes,
blatantly happening
right on our streets.

****, it even happened
at a concert
of Jason Aldeans!
This I can't believe.
This I can't unsee.
If we stay on this trajectory,
we face massive catastrophe!

And yet we focus
on staying politically correct.
All diplomatic
while our country's
under duress.

Well,
**** politically correct!
Who these leaders
trying to impress?
We need to fix this mess!

Now,
I'm not saying
we need to kick everyone out.
No,
what I'm saying
is we need to protect
the one's with us now.

We're so focused
on pleasing everyone
on a global scale
that we forget
about the ones
in our own country
that need our help.

Like Puerto Rico,
and the Us ****** Islands.
Our supposed leaders
turned a blind eye to em!

These are our people,
and our government
left them to die.
**** like this
Wow, it just blows
my mind.

Its a wonder
we don't break
from the
unsurmountable sins
built up
from time.

What the ****'s up
with the world
these days.
We've lost our way.
And the rich
are bathing in green
while they watch
world waste away
And I'm here to say

Take in what I'm layin down.
Look up.
See what's goin round.
Open up your eyes
and soak in the pill of truth.
The answer lies
beneath the ruse produced

This country's now
a bleeding wound.
Raining blood
like a **** monsoon.

A cesspool
of ignorance,
especially now
with the king of hate
as our president.

See now,
people are divided
instead of United
hating and killing
and villianizing
the innocent.

I bet you if the ones
who sacrificed their lives
for a better nation
could see us today.
What would they say?
Not a **** thing,
they'd turn
and hang their heads
they'd be so ashamed.

And we're all to blame.
Pointing fingers
left and right
just to spark a fight.
Hating someone
based on prejudice,
now you know
that just ain't right.

You preach first amendment,
and yet you attack anyone
who you deem ignorant
just cause they don't agree with you.
They'll wreck you
just to spite you.

Force us to pick a side,
and if it ain't left,
you condemn anyone
who chooses right.

i don't need anyone, i just need everyone and then some -

you and your previous orange partner had issues
not us, i thought
we were gonna overcome everything. it was gonna be us. We were it.

you were my first.
if gave you my all & we wanted what's best for eachother, what could possibly stand in your way of walking down the aisle while i waited at the end, crying at the beauty of your white laced sight?

i was your soulmate
i thought you were mine
loving someone shouldn't have to feel this painful
or
tumultuous

fighting almost everyday, i begged you to accuse me less

i disliked the orange flavored candy you liked so much (i'm sorry),

i disliked the tangerine candle you gifted me when you got back (i'm so so sorry),

you resisted apologizing unless i had proved it was worthy enough to apologize for (i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry),

I loved you. I thought if i were ever to lose you, I would be grieving you.

I find myself instead reeling from all the hurt, everything I've been put through.

I felt like i was going crazy,
remembering all the little details, i found it terrifying apologizing for things i don't remember doing

You didn't have my best interests at heart.

What would happen if you put someone who always thinks of themselves regardless of how it affects others first?

You reach out for your person, your lifeboat admist the icy waters,
but they refuse your entry, unless you admit:

you were the one who had chosen to jump in. you weren't pushed.

I didn't want to set sail to the Atlantic
I wanted to be on land,
I wanted to be on land.

Solid, solid. abundance. No rations.

I wanted to feel safe, you wanted to feel safe. I wanted to be your deck. And despite everything, i could've loved you forever. unconditional.

I could've laughed off the dip in the waters, i could've worn floaties.

I gave you my whole heart.
now a bruised fruit, beating and squeezing in my ribcage, aching.
You were my little peach.
i was your dough.
i was kneaded too hard without regard for my sake
ended up crumbled.

i thought of your eyes today
how much i adored them.
everytime i look at you, i feel like i'm looking into the eyes of my best friend i had growing up.
my sweet lover and best friend in one.
your big dreamy eyes
beautiful dark and even darker browns with green outline
i fall in love with you over and over again
i'm protective

i then remembered when i joked about how eyeliner makes your eyes pop and that you looked quite intimidating, you didn't like that comment, i apologized.

i then remembered when you took my words and told our friends how i don't like your eyes, that i don't like how you looked in eyeliner at all, you said it in a way making me look like i don't care about you;

(What? Why?)

i then remembered how you prioritize your perspective under the guise of validating your feelings, despite me pleading with you that's not what i meant;

Intentions matter, context matters. Without it, we are all monsters.

"honey, your hurting is real, but it's not everything,
things aren't black and white, baby, sometimes it's not all the way right or wrong, it's probably gray.
wait that's not what i meant, please, you know me. stop villianizing me. i thought you understood me. You know me."

You knew me.

I'm not your enemy. i was supposed to be your first mate, and you, my captain.

i can't think of any reasons why you wouldn't throw me overboard.

Peeling an orange today
Flesh ripping, juice escaping
pulling it apart
it was a mess

i realized i was consumed with all the "did i actually say it like this?", "did this actually happen?", "did she mean to manipulate me?"

how can you act as if you weren't at all in the wrong for never changing the ways you have hurt me even after i've told you about them over and over for months?

how can you say you're telling your truth when it is selective and not the entirety
and expect me to not to tell mine?

how can you easily throw me away?

reconnected with your previous soulmate, helped me move and were planning sleepovers with me, promised to help fix things between us, have *** with me,

two days later,

gave me a "choice" you knew i couldn't make, not wait for said decision & already tell people we broke up?

and by then you've already made a post about how you're entering 'a new era'; the perquisites having broken my heart; where one of the pictures my moving boxes in the back of your car.

You will never see that you did anything wrong.

But at some point, if everything always smells like ****, i hope you'll have the courage to check your shoes.

What a mess.

I wanted us to be it. And i tried so hard to help you be more reliable and vulnerable.

But apparently i am another clementine